The Dump @nepoediwtreah - Tumblr Blog

I’ve been lying to my therapist when she asks if I started making plans… she knows I have suicidal thoughts but I’ve been telling her they’re fleeting during hard times but the truth is… they’re almost non stop. Even when things are good. They’re comforting like a safety blanket. I’m going to look at cremation costs today so I can start saving so my family doesn’t have to spend that money. I’ve been debating disappearing altogether or having one last hooray with everyone. Who knows? It may not go according to plan and one day it just happens. It’s nice to get this off my chest.

#trigger warning #confessions #therapy

Shit stings but guess what we gon do? Deal and heal

#confessions #jnsk

I might as well be sad on a boat

#personal

siir-poesia

I have always loved how she appears in the photos, her beautiful face, every curve of her body; but I knew that I loved her with all my heart when I saw her in her pajamas, disheveled, without makeup, crampy, sick, sad, happy, doing what she loves, leaving work, and to me, she was the most beautiful woman in the universe.

froggymp3

https://www.instagram.com/p/CbKwNgTP9b1/

demoralised

RWB Porsche 911

PA QUE LE RUEGO

I am both angry and numb because after dealing with shit for almost 11 years I am finally able to admit that I need meds and that I

Want

To

Live

It makes me sick. Suicide has always been comforting thought for me, my safety net

But I see my friend and how affected he is by his sisters suicide and I feel guilty. I feel so hurt for me. The aftermath is so bad. The guilt, I wouldn’t rest peacefully.

Then??? What the fuck am I supposed to do now???

#confessions realization

Yeah I’m going to start pulling away … they can figure their stuff out

#confessions realization #ending friendship #mr