Random Rants

[nessienessnimbus2000]

Don’t hurt me.

I don’t want to be hurt again.

I don’t want to feel the pain.

I don’t want to wet my pillow with tears.

I don’t want to cry.

I don’t want to be broken again.

I don’t want my thoughts to focus on the what if’s or why’s.

I don’t want to be alone again.

I don’t want to find comfort in the dark.

I don’t want to feel the crushing pain in my chest.

BUT.

I do want to feel love.

I do want to smile at every thought.

I do want to laugh with you and explore the light.

I do want to feel the butterflies dancing around as we look into each other’s eyes.

I do want to clutch my pillow in happiness as I think of the things we did.

I do want to be in love.

Just don’t hurt me.

I don’t want to feel the pain again.

[nessienessnimbus2000]

Tired of getting hurt.

Me

[nessienessnimbus2000]

Rant time

Rant time...

What is happening to the world ??! We are polluting it, we are killing the animals, we a degrading one another with words of hate and anger.

We attack the innocent because of their religion. We attack colour because we can’t seem to grasp the fact that we are all the same on the inside, that we all have blood running through our veins.

We have people in power who are abusing their rights.

I am honestly tired of what I am seeing in this world. I am worried for the future and what our world will look like.

We are killing ourselves off and we don’t see it.

I see news post about people getting racist attacks, children getting kidnapped, families getting killed, I see war between countries that shouldn’t be happening. But most of all I see our planet dying.

We need to pull our heads from the clouds and see what we are doing wrong. I fear for our future and so should you.

[nessienessnimbus2000]

I don’t get it. You’re constantly on my mind, your name pops up out of the blue and I can’t stop thinking about you.

My heart breaks when I remember our time together and the tears fall when I realise they are over.

I’m tired of thinking about you. I am tired of looking for you. And I am tired of everything about you.

But I can’t stop hoping, I can’t stop praying that you would come back to me. I can’t stop thinking about the future we could of had. And I can’t stop thinking about the pain you gave me.

The pain that is still so raw, the pain that is constantly eating me alive. The pain you don’t know about because we don’t talk anymore.

I’m in so much pain and you have no idea. I am in so much pain and it’s killing me. I know over time I will forget you and I will move on. But at this moment I can only think of you.

[nessienessnimbus2000]

🖕🏻

A big fuck you, to all who say their my friends. A big fuck you to all who lie about it every fucking day.

A big mother fucking FUCK YOU. I’m tired of this shit, I’m tired of being left out.

I’m tired of being a third wheel, in everything!

So you can all go fuck yourselves, because I’m fucking done. 🖕🏻🖕🏻🖕🏻🖕🏻🖕🏻🖕🏻🖕🏻🖕🏻🖕🏻🖕🏻🖕🏻🖕🏻🖕🏻

[nessienessnimbus2000]

I want to give up

I am tired, I’ve had enough.

I just want to close my eyes and never wake up.

I am hurt, I am bleeding but you dont see me disappearing.

I’m crying, I’m shouting, im begging for your help.

I’ve gone quiet, I’ve gone still.

I am broken, I am bruised and yet you still want me to keep moving.

I am tired, I am lost, and I just want to give up.

[nessienessnimbus2000]

Fake friend.

I don’t get you. You say you hate how they are fake. And you say you are not like them, but yet here you are being fake to me and acting like your my friend.

You’re 20 this year, an adult for goodness sake, start acting like an adult and grow some balls. If only you could see this and know it’s about you, because not only am I calling you fake but I am ending our friendship too.

I’m tired mentally and physically from all your bullshit, you haven’t asked me how I have been and if I want to hang. And yeah maybe im acting like a child at the moment, but I really have had enough of your whining and crying of fake friends when you are one of them.

[nessienessnimbus2000]

Missing you

I know I shouldn’t, I know it’s bad.

But everything I see and hear, reminds me of you.

No matter how hard I try to forget you, something always reminds me of us.

Why do you have to have a bloody well known name?! Why does it have to be everywhere I turn?

I just want to text you, and ask how you are. But I know it will be awkward and not worth it at all.

All I want, is for us to be the same.

But I don’t know if you have moved on to the next game.

[nessienessnimbus2000]

I give up.

You say we are besties all the time and yet you get shitty over a guy?!

If that’s how you play then you can fuck off. I ain’t dealing with your shit. I have had enough

I’m tired of crying over this false friendship. If you want to find me, I’ll be over there not dealing with your shit.

Once you’ve come to your senses, I’ll be long gone, not cleaning up your messes.

You’ve lost a friend, and a sister, who would of had your back. If you hadn’t acted like a crack head.

Goodbye you hoe, I’ll see you one the media.

[nessienessnimbus2000]

Heart broken

We meet in the strangest way.

But I didn’t care, because you had something interesting about you.

I added you on Facebook and you accepted and messaged me.

We went out for our first date, and had an amazing time.

We got to know each other and became closer going on more dates.

By our 4th one I knew I wanted something with you.

Something more then just a friend. I wanted to be yours and you to be mine.

Every time I saw you my heart would race and I’d get butterflies in my stomach.

You said you had so much planned for us, that you wanted to take me places.

I was excited for our next date, because I was going to confess to you. But it never came.

And I keep waiting for you to ask me.

I cried myself to sleep two nights in a row.

You haven’t spoken to me in a while.

And I keep thinking did I do something wrong?

Am I not pretty enough?

Am I not interesting enough?

Am I to clingy?

Or did you find someone else?

You have no idea what you are doing to me. Every time I see your name, or someone asks about you, I feel my heart tug and my eyes sting.

Am I overreacting? Over thinking?

I don’t know.

But the saddest thing is. Is that I am used to this. Being hurt by someone I like.

I’m hurting and you have no idea, I am crying and you have no idea. I tried to message you, but it seems like you don’t want to talk to me anymore.

And I just don’t understand it.

I don’t understand why.

I don’t understand what it is that pushes people away.

I’m hurting and nobody knows.

I’m heartbroken and you don’t know.

[nessienessnimbus2000]

Gotta love when you are talking and someone then talks over you and pretends they did nothing wrong.

[nessienessnimbus2000]

BLOODY HATE RUMORS AND PEOPLE WHO MAKE THEM!!!

Its funny how the people you think are great friends, turn out to be the biggest back stabbing bitches in the world. That live for drama and destroying peoples calm and happy lives. And because of that, I am going verbally attack the person (Not physically, because lets face it. I don’t want to go to jail) and give them a piece of my overly pissed Australian mind. I just don’t bloody understand why people spread rumors, and I don’t see why they take joy out of it. Because once the person your spreading shit about hears it, they will fight back with bloody blazing wands and Avada Kedarav a bitches ass..

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