Vanessa

🌹 If you must wait, wait for them here in my arms as I shake. If you must weep, do it right here in my bed as I sleep. If you must mourn, my love mourn with the moon and the stars up above. If you must mourn,don't do it alone. 🥀

[nessyvanda]

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And here ends Vanessa her story in NYC for a while.

[sassy-answers-blog]

[nessyvanda]

— ° ∵ ☼ FUTURE WEEK Vanessa's instagram feed

[nessyvanda]

— ° ∵ ☼ FUTURE WEEK

Vanessa has been lost in her own mind for a while at the age of 21. New York City, no matter if it was Manhattan or Brooklyn, no place seemed to calm her mind and soul. So when she finally graduated after a year of studying journalism and four years of literature she left the city, her friends and the boy she’s been seeing on and off.

Europe, that was the place she escaped to. She started in Portugal, to find herself in her own heritage and did the same in Italy after staying a while in Spain. France, the Netherlands, Germany, Belgium, Denmark, Sweden,..., all the countries worth visiting in Vanessa’s mind got a visit from her. She left alone, but that didn’t mean she was always alone. She made new friends in every country she stayed in, Imani visited her a few times and Gabe, the guy she was seeing on and off during college, visited her as well. He surprised her many times by showing up out of the blue. Vanessa enjoyed every second Imani and Gabe came to visit her. But they made her realise how much she missed at home. Imani brought pictures with her of her two cats and another litter of newborn kittens. Gabe made her feel good, she knew that they would never be the typical couple that will get married one day but that didn’t matter. She didn’t want a family, she decided that after her miscarriage and infertility news in 2017.

So after a few years of writing lots of journals full with poetry and stories in Europe, Vanessa decided to return to the city to follow her heart. V felt better, the time away from NYC did her good. Gabe and she stayed together for a while, Vanessa shared her stories and poetry with a lot of publicists before her first book of poetry.

Right now her second poetry book got published and she’s currently working on a book for children. Working hard to make her relationship with Gabe work.

[sskeptical]

I don’t want to spend the rest of my life writing about feeling alone

[cardiamachina]

I think we deserve a soft epilogue, my love. We are good people and we’ve suffered enough.

Seventy Years of Sleep # 4. nikka ursula  (via talkingoutsoft)

[godfreygifs]

[joyfulgirl2001]

i love just being alone.. doing a facemask.. dealing with emotional trauma alone.. LOVE it

[onetreehill-gifs]

favorite scenes: [1/∞] brooke and haley

[my-typewritten-thoughts-deactiv]

He’s a mess,” she said affectionately. “But he’s my mess.

Sarah Dessen, What Happened to Goodbye (via my-typewritten-thoughts)

[lilgivenchyprincess]

[ryanreynoldssource]

[latenightcornerstore]

To whoever loves me next,   I’m sorry if I’m afraid of you or if days of flirting turn to radio silence, without warning. I’m sorry if I make you say the words over and over and over until I believe them. (I’m sorry if I don’t believe them.) I will probably spend more time worrying about losing you than I spend trying to keep you. Trouble is, every single time I’ve ever thought something was too good to be true– I’ve been right. Understand, I will know how to be vulnerable with you, but I won’t know how not to regret it. And I have no idea how deep we’ll be into this relationship before I admit I’ve never done this before. Not really. Not in any way that counts. Before I admit that I know how to put my body inside someone else’s but not how to make it beautiful. I probably won’t be easy to love. Too many people loved me badly, I’m not sure I know how to do it right.

TO WHOEVER LOVES ME NEXT by Ashe Vernon (via latenightcornerstore)

[jamescarstairs]

[brooklyn99]

[sskeptical]

New lingerie 💭✨✨ (at New York, New York)

[alittlelights]