[netherwitch]

Due to having another counsellor soon

Really struggling with what is in my head at the moment. I feel like several different people with the 1 person slowly dying inside.

I really just need silence.

[netherwitch]

Using this again because it helps.

Did a socialise again ON MY OWN.

Noticed a few people I sort of know but I didn’t join them I just stood there watching an artist until I was asked to join them. Generally would of stood there all night.

Once I sat down it was okay chatting to people I didn’t really know and was good.

Decided to home to my bed due to being exhausted from my week.

Better.

[netherwitch]

Been a while

Generally not seeing the point in anything with my life apart from to do things that make me kind of happy…which is very little.

Trying to socialise but it always involves drinking, then I don’t feel like my true self when I don’t drink so I feel like a sub par version of myself; someone who doesn’t speak out loud when he needs to; shy away from talking to person I haven’t met before.

Trying to socialise and I just find 4 hours out of 5 just fuxking boring and tedious. I’m generally fucking trying to be a normal person just go out and be with people but it’s just fucking effort.

Mentally content and kind of happy I think but each time I check in with myself it’s just the same

It’s always the fucking same

[netherwitch]

Still lonely as fuuuck

[netherwitch]

My old boss committed suicide the other due to money problems and then theres me with 2 grands worth of debt....fuck sake

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[netherwitch]

What does human contact feel like again? I generally cannot remember

[netherwitch]

Lonely

[knarwolf]

having a down day I am so tired of this

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[netherwitch]

Should probably use this more considering how fucked my head is

[netherwitch]

What the fuck am I doing

[netherwitch]

After a certain time

Things got better but I still fucking hate my life.

[netherwitch]

Someone once said to me that we as humans have evolved to a level of thinking so in turn we don't have to eat animals. Yet we still bomb the fuck out of each other, sign e-petitions, post our bullshit opinions on a website that is run by a billionaire. We are actually fucked.

[netherwitch]

Tonight was weird. I walked home past this church near my house and this girl asked me if I wanted to come in, I said sorry I'm an atheist I shouldn't be in there and she said no it's fine you just sit if you want to. I walked away and said sorry it's not for me but as I walked away I just stopped and thought...so I walked back to her and asked if I could just sit in there and not pray, she yes of course so I walked in and sat down. It was so quiet in there and so peaceful I just felt alone with my thoughts for the first time in ages I could just breathe. I didn't wanna leave because I didn't see any point. I didn't pray, but there was four girls singing snd they sounded incredible.

[netherwitch]

Just swiped right on tinder because her dog was cute