WHATEVER IT TAKES.

YOUR S O U L IS B L O W I N G APART

[neutralran]

*     YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND THE RULES OF THE GAME. *     WERE YOU EVEN PAYING ATTENTION?

howdy !! eros here. this is a low-activity blog for a neutral-run based frisk from undertale. i follow from @bonepranks​. please read THIS before following/interacting, as it contains important information relevant to my portrayal.  ✧ ✧ ✧  like or reblog if you’re interested in interacting !!

[hortensius-deactivated20240909]

enough with hills to die on. i climbed this hill to Kill

[neutralran]

✧​ fluersamour ✧​​

‣     the   sheer   amount   of   nothing   in   this   place   is   all-consuming.   chara   would   have   cried   over   it,   feared   it,   if   she   hadn’t   been   eased   into  it   with   gaster’s   help.  (  after   she’d   run   out   of   tears  at   least ..  )  but   frisk,   frisk   had   never   been   here   before,   she   wouldn’t   have   been   surprised   if   this   was   overwhelming   them –   i   mean,   it   clearly   was  –   but   she   couldn’t   unpack  that   now.    after   all,   she   had   a   mission   to   complete –   she   had   to   get   frisk   to   agree   to   this.  

   ♡      ‣      ❝   you   want   to   fix   things ..  i   see.   ❞      she   mulled   over   it   quietly,  pretending   to   consider   the   options   here   before   she   “tentatively”   offered   an   idea   to   the   other   to  consider.   ♡      ‣      ❝   ..   perhaps   i   can   help   you,  if   you’re   unable   to   do   it   on   your   own,   i   can   offer   assistance.   ❞   a   partnership   of   sorts   is   set   before   them,   as   she   falsifies   a   further   consideration.  

 ♡      ‣      ❝    but –  i   must   ask ..   what   exactly   do   you   want   from   this   entire   thing?   what’s   your   end   goal?  ❞

* a.... assistance....?

you stare at them, unbelieving. you have not had assistance in anything so far. not in this world. you remember the first time... you were so lost, so confused. FLOWEY HAD BEEN RIGHT — you were in way over your head. but somehow, you’d muddled through, made it as far as you possibly could have.... 

and then you’d given up. the weight of your sins on your back were far too great to keep going. 

you think about papyrus, so kind, so earnest, calling you a murderer because undyne said so.

and she was right to. you think that maybe you should have killed her after all, when given the chance. but you’d frightened yourself, when you looked at her and saw ███ instead, and wanted nothing more than to beat her up until she could no longer stand.

after waking up at your SAVE, you’d stumbled away and thrown up before proceeding once again.

RESETting had been an easy decision. the next time around, you did it right. you befriended everyone, you freed everyone, you did no harm. and you’d been satisfied, until you weren’t. and then again, and again, and again, because there was always something more, something to IMPROVE....

* i want to be done. * but i can’t... * i just keep coming back. * i can’t seem to stop.

[teaboot]

An enemy is just a friend I haven't worn down

[creativemercinary]

Are you saying that you're the main character of a kids cartoon?

[teaboot]

I'm saying that "I'm going to be friends with you" is both a promise and a threat

[tyrantt00]

[brushstrokesapocalyptic]

what’s up everybody, here’s a short comic i drew for @neutralzine about uh, gardening or something.

[neutralran]

✧ fluersamour ✧​

‣     they   didn’t   want   to   do   this.   that   was   the   first   thought   they   had   off   the   bat.   if   it   were   not   for   gaster’s   persuasions,  they   would   have   nothing   but   horrible   things   to   say   to   frisk –   resenting   them   and   loathing   them   more   than   anything.   but –   before   they   could   do   anything   like   that –   gaster   had   told   them   of   his   idea.    in   a   way   the    idea   disgusted   them   –   disgusted   them   to   an   ungodly   degree.   but ..   he   was   right.   maybe   ..   this   was   the   only   way   to   stop   the   resets.

‣      how   many   had   there   been   now?   too   many   to   count.   chara   could   tell   the   new   human   liked   playing   god.   maybe –   gaster   was   right –   maybe   they   could   play   that   strength   as   a   weakness.   and   thus –   they   had   decided   to   reach   out.   this   was   the   only   chance   they’d   get,   after   all.   if   they   got   this   far,   then   perhaps   they   could   continue   to   guide   as   a   ghost. 

‣       “  you’ve   been   busy,   haven’t   you?  “    questions   chara,   appearing   behind   frisk   as   they   tapped   them   softly   on   the   shoulder.   “   i’m   right   here –   you   know   who   i   am,   don’t   you?  “     lips   upturn   into   an   innocent   smile.  “   i   like   you –   you’re   funny.  “  

THE OTHER MAKES THEMSELF KNOWN and you do your best not to flinch, but it’s difficult — they are everywhere, and your head hurts. there is no DETERMINATION here. only the icy cold nothingness of this place you cannot name.

if you’ve left the underground, why can’t you return home?

you jump at the tap upon your shoulder, and turn, looking into a face you do not recognize.

* you’re chara, aren’t you?

you do not recognize your own voice either.

* i’m looking for the answer.

you clench your hands into fists. their smile feels wrong. you feel wrong.

* i can’t find it. * i keep messing up and now —

* i’ve messed up too much. * i can’t undo any of it. * it’s too hard.

you look at her, equally innocent. you hide behind that blank-faced stare, and pretend you did not make your own decisions.

* do you know to fix it?

[proustitute]

Anne Carson, Antigonick

[neutralran]

@fluersamour​ ✧ starter call

DARKNESS. for a few long, agonizing moments, that’s all you can see. is it a mistake; an error on your end, or a flaw in the coding of this world? or is it exactly by design — you being here, and the sensation that there is another presence lingering, just beyond your line of vision?

something in your mind supplies a location :  THE END. but this is not the end. that’s why you’re here, isn’t it? and not back there? 

LV █ — that’s the other reason.

✧ CONTINUE ✧      RESET

no more consequences. that’s what this means. to rewind time and change the future. if no one else will do it for you, you can absolve yourself of your own sins.

CONTINUE      ✧  RESET ✧ 

you stop. look around. the other presence is stronger now, and from the words behind your eyes, you find a name.  chara.  you have been called this name. but it is not yours.

you cannot see, and yet you know they’re there. waiting. watching.

* who’s there...?

[anorha-nono]

here’s one of my pieces for the @neutralzine 

and you thought my undertale days were over

[gilly-hasnopaper]

My piece for @neutralzine ! Go check the rest of the entries out!

[miikpal]

warming up..i missed drawing frisk

[cryptidflavored-move]

The sound of rushing water fills you with determination.

[neutralran]

&. INFO

the basics; i. don’t be a dick. ii. this blog is mutuals only, very low activity, selective, and a sideblog. personal blogs will be blocked. iii. frisk is 12 years old. absolutely no shipping or nsfw content here, and if ship frans or fontcest or charisk or any of that, don’t even breathe near me.  iv. i’m eros (they/them) && i’m 23. i’ve been on this website for a very long time. i write sans and papyrus at @bonepranks and gaster at @voidhanded. v. i don’t do crossovers, i don’t write with non-canon compliant aus (swap, fell, etc), and i won’t write with duplicates. vi. this blog may contain mentions of violence, death, and suicide. these will be tagged as necessary. i have no triggers. please let me know if there’s anything you need tagged. vii. i’m not great at keeping up with conversation, but my ims are open and discord available to mutuals. viii. i write in somewhat stylized prose, and in second person. if this is is difficult/non-accessible to you, please let me know. i am happy to make any changes necessary. text formatting itself will be light and i may or may not use icons. ix. dash icon art comes from here and header art comes from here.

about this neutral run & frisk; my portrayal of frisk is based on my very first playthrough of undertale. i’ve found that in fandom, frisk is either played as a pure pacifist or in a full genocide route. i wanted to bring my own experience into the rpc. some important points —

frisk flees from almost all battles (bosses and mini-bosses excluded) until the end of waterfall.

frisk kills toriel by accident, not able to figure out how to spare her. they also don’t understand how saving works, and though they manage to survive until they fight dogamy and dogaressa, they’re finally killed. they wake up back in the ruins, determined to spare toriel this time. but once again, they fail, and she dies a second time.

frisk adores sans and papyrus (mostly papyrus) and refuse to fight him. they lose to him multiple times and he eventually takes pity on them, letting them pass.

they do not like undyne. she’s their biggest challenge, and they die to her surprise attacks multiple times as well as her boss battle. they fight back, prepared to kill her if necessary. in the end, they manage to escape without taking her life.

in order to beat undyne, frisk makes a strategic decision to hunt down and kill other monsters in waterfall to increase their strength and buy more healing items. after this, they kill most other random encounters because of the advantage to their stats, and the ease of fighting rather than acting or fleeing.  

they get along fine with alphys, and though mettaton is a challenge, they have too much fun in his dance-off to fight him. 

the walk through new home and sans’s speech makes them cry, beginning to feel guilty for the harm they’ve done. their dinner with sans at the hotel only adds to that as they remember killing toriel twice, as well as flowey’s reaction.

asgore’s fight is too difficult for them. after dozens of attempts, they decide to try and find more healing items. this detour takes them past undyne’s house, where papyrus is waiting. he tells frisk that undyne doesn’t want to see them, saying she called them a murderer. this is the final straw. overwhelmed with guilt and knowing they will never be able to beat asgore, frisk RESETS, vowing that next time, they will do better.

after resetting, frisk does a pacifist route, but their past actions haunt them. in a world in which frisk completed the run, they would have eventually beaten asgore, electing to spare him. after dying to flowey quite a few times, they beat him as well and decide to spare him as well. undyne becomes ruler of the underground. frisk resets, and completes a pacifist run.

i am willing to write in any time ✧ DURING the neutral run, ✧ BETWEEN the neutral run and pacifist run (with plotting), ✧ DURING the pacifist run (with acknowledgement of the neutral run), or ✧ AFTER the pacifist run (with acknowledgement of the neutral run).

frisk does not go in with the intent to harm anyone, but they find that sometimes it’s easier to fight than to be merciful, and they value their own safety and determination to progress over the lives of monsters who they see as only obstacles and not people (this includes the random encounters only). they would never kill as revenge, although they consider it with undyne (but ultimately do not go through with it). they only consider papyrus to be their friend. the others are acquaintances at best, and though sans is kind, it’s clear that he knows they carry trouble with them. basically, I WILL NEVER PLAY FRISK AS ENTIRELY “GOOD”, as i do not believe a pacifist run is as strong alone as when it’s proceeded by a truly neutral one.