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I love you.

Those three overused yet powerful words have a way of altering a relationship. We say them to our family,to our friends,to our lovers,but the thing is does I love you even mean I love you or do we just say it to comfort those around us.

Love is a very odd thing. You can adore the person one minute and the next want to kill them,but yet you still like spending time with them and you enjoy your friendship/relationship.

In realtionship wise,we all say I love you. This couple at my school that have been together for 1 month are glued to each other and they say I love you even though they may not mean it. It just irritates me as to how much we use it even though the value of the word is nothing.

I've been with my boyfriend for almost 10 months now.It'll be an unofficial year in September. We went from friends to friends with benefits to boyfriend/girlfriend to broken up to boyfriend/girlfriend to broken up to boyfriend/girlfriend to best friend to wife/husband to life partners. We argue A LOT. We push each others buttons A LOT.He makes me cry A LOT,but I love him. Those three words cannot describe the feelings I have for him.

I not only love him,but I'm in love with him and even though I argue with him because I want him to be perfect I can't stand being away from him. It doesn't seem like love. It feels like obsession. I can't stop thinking about him and my emotions are crazy and I just want to be with him. I think that he has the ability to be perfect like me.I don't want any one to look at him. I dont want anybody to talk to him. I don't want anybody to touch him. I don't want anybody to walk on the same ground as him.

Today,he told me that he was whipped because I smacked the shit out him several times after I told him not to talk to anybody especially girls and he did. It actually bothered me because in all honesty I think Im the one that's whipped. Anything he wants,needs, or annoys me about I give him just because he's my everything and I love to spoil him. He half way listens to what I say and suddenly he's whipped.....yeah sure.

He doesn't get it through his head. He doesnt understand that he's like air to me. I cant breathe without him. I am a hurricane and I need him as my sea to make my stronger.I need him because I love him.

Yet I doubt all the other people that say I love you mean it because I can't see either of them being the way I am with him. Maybe I'm not in love. Maybe it's more than love.