For overweight people with eating disorders
It is so hard for people to notice that you have an eating disorder if youâre overweight.
Iâve dropped more than 25 kg in the last eight months ( most of it in the first two and the rest in the past month) and all Iâve gotten is praise, compliments and urges to keep going, from everyone in my life, including my mom who is very health concious. I would be lying if I said I didnât enjoy it, I loved it, but underneath all that, I feel sad that I cand self destruct withought anyone giving a shit. Itâs is more than clearly unhealthy to drop so much weight in a matter of months regardless of how badly you do need to lose weight. And yetâŠ
Lately Iâve been purging everything I eat. I am almost certain that my sister knows of it, but she said nothing. I smell of vomit constantly, but nobody said a thing.
I havenât eaten a meal with my parents in over a month, but, again, no worries.
When I do get food, I always bring it upstairs, then I shut myself in the bathroom âto showerâ immediately after.
My blood sugar level yesterday was 25, today it was 12. The lower limit for a normal blood sugar level is 80. My mom said it was because when you eat stuff like chocolate bars it often jumps up and down like crazy.
My sister asked me if I was high yesterday because my eyes looked so tired and the bags under them so dark she thought I had been smoking weed.
I havenât once eaten lunch at school since it started nearly four weeks ago, people hardly noticed, much less showed any concern.
My hands are so cold they turn purple if I go outside for more than 10 minutes. It isnât even October yet.
I donât want to get caught, but I also know that If I donât, I wonât stop. I know what I do is unhealthy, but if others canât see it maybe itâs not so bad after all. Only when you are overweight, people tend to turn a blind eye.
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