Niah

I'm a man who has passionately feeling, alternative lifestyle, extraordinary thought and the desire of unending love.

[niah88]

It was kinda great when being who you actually are.

Yeah, that’s great. You just there and enjoy the exact moment. That’s nice, yellow.

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xes life

I have read so many posts about xes life after marriage. Those are tons of cases which i can not relate. Thing is, there are none of those like mine, at this very moment.

So many posts pointed out like “7 things that keep you have boring xes life with wife”, “your xes life sucks because of these 3-4 fictional character”… you know, it is really really pissed me off when i see stuff like that (posts) because it always goes one way and end up like: need to apology for your past, your mistakes, the not in the mood, the not in the right time, be patient…. THAT IS NOT MY CASE, okay!

I have tried and been patient with all i can… i don’t think i can handle it any much longer anymore. Maybe when you have not done it yet or you are so easily to give in so someone takes you for granted then they don’t think you have the gut to do so.

I think you should do it, or at least try more, you have had enough and they think it’s funny that you can not do anything but being normal. Proof it, not to them, to yourself, that, you can ans you will… or maybe for the both of us here, it already were.

[niah88]

Ngày tháng đó…

Trong những năm tháng xưa cũ, có những quãng thời gian không thể quên.

Có những ký ức không thể nào phai

Có những hình ảnh không thể nhạt nhoà

… trong tâm trí.

[niah88]

If there is an affair, there must be something missing and either there is something missing in their/our relationship (mine, maybe) or there is something missing in you. Often, when you are attracted by the gears of another, it isnt just because you want to leave the person that you are with but it is because you want to leave the person that you have yourself become. And it isnt just that you want to meet somebody else but you want to meet another self. There is no greater other than a different version of yourself.

That’s a kinda good talk. There are always a different type of contradiction in one-self. One wants to just fuck it, imma put it all out, go straight forward and can do anything, gonna do anything. The one that left seems to be afraid of thing-its-never-know then body straight forward but head back tail. Like fast is good but slow also, good.

[niah88]

Bén duyên với mực, với vằn vện trên da, với nỗi niềm ngọt đắng, với quá khứ hỡi ơi, với hiện tại chóng vánh, với ngày mai bộn bề… với tiếng lòng độc cô!

“Cuộc đời chỉ trăm năm, vĩnh hằng là cô độc”!

[aoikuroda]

“Cả một đời nghe biết bao nhiêu đạo lý, nhưng vẫn không sống tốt cuộc sống này.”

(Film: Không ngày gặp lại)

[niah88]

One at a time

[niah88]

Những thứ độc hại, tiêm nhiễm

M đọc lại r m lại thẳng tay xoá

cái mà khi đó, m thấy đúng đắn

vậy nên, làm là làm luôn, vì

chờ là hỏng

[niah88]

Whenever i go home from work, there will always be something happned that ruined my fucking mood or stressed me the fuck out.

Today is type of days that affect me the most. It made me rethink of my marriage. It’s kinda like threshold that i wanted to to the whole time: Divorce. Yeah, immediately, so that i won’t be suffer this type of shitty human being. I still can believe that there’ll be a person who can live that dirty and disgusting that way. It’s so narutal. Even in my greatest dream that i can’t even imagine there will be one, in front of my eyes, right to my face, living under same roof.

Started to regret already. Poor my kid though.

And deep down, i know, it’s not gonna change, this shitty shit is never going to change that, behavior lame shit. What for?

[niah88]

Well

Thing will be just normal even if you...

[hplyrikz]

“Never push a loyal person to the point where they no longer care.”

— Unknown (via hplyrikz)

[niah88]

too many times, so many do-it-over-n-over

[niah88]

There will be my time. It’s just hard cos’ it tests me. Still, i will break through it and survive. People always want to let other down, always want to drag other to the level they want to.

[niah88]

You know, it’s almost half of the year has passed. O haven’t done anything just yet, at least with my scale of feeling about “finished something”! How many years have been gone since people actually understand each other. I heart one said: “Throughout our lives, good communication is the key to success in our personal relationships”. It’s true or not, well, we have to find out ourselves. So what if it’s true? so what if people keep asking about stuff in their perspective at the moment that they don’t get it? I guess they have to find out themselves or find another one to endure their curiosity in order to explain or answer all of them questions. Or should i say: their imagination.

[lonelycigs]

[niah88]

You know, my favorite kinda time in day is that i don’t have to say anything, communicate with anyone or make eyes contact to anybody. What i’d love to do is that just sitting there, somewhere, anywhere, on my own, enjoy the rest of the day peacefully, alone and you know what, that’s my favorite kinda time in day.

[niah88]

well, i don’t know i’m a sick fucked or not but whenever i got fight with someone or make a mess or whatever.... i was kinda enjoying it. Not like i want to make a fight. It’s like accidently make fight then the thing after, it put me in the situation i dealy enjoy it. because, no one would talk to me after, no one annoying me after, no one communicate with me, and That, that make me feel alive, drive me crazy the way i want to enjoy fully. people never know, people never understand. they just dumb shit busy fight back at me and try to protect their fuck face. But thank you, it was me who’s in this circumstance, it was me who creat it, ans it was me who enjoy the curse after all and I.... Love it.

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Laziness

i have been lazy for awhile. Lazy of working out, lazy of thinking new thing, lazy of drawing something or even lazy of writing something like what i am doing right now which cosr me reducing english skill or should i say “it’s gone”. it could be a little, could be a lot. i have read some stuff i shouldn’t read for my own good. but curiosity has driven me crazy so i think “what the heck” then give it a try. so far so good and better keep my head straight, my mind crystal clear and stay cool for most of the situation in life. Then, i will be fine

[niah88]

“Shut up” is what i heard

It’s not “can’t live without you” kinda thing but, without me, people will be fucked up!