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I Live to Please :)
my old blogs r lost media so i can't even reminisce on when my ex loved me. lovely
'm tired
if i think to long about the essence of myself i will try to rip my organs out through my skin. i would fail miserably of course, and then I would get sad about that too.
the human body when you use it and exist in it
ugh like why is life so annoying like why can't i hang out with a guy and suck his dick a lil like why does everything have to be a thing
I just ate one
You can lie when you name things
guys i recorded a new audio but im not sure if i should post it >.<
why did no one tell me mako mermaids is actually a show surrounding a teenage boy with the most rapey vibes Iāve ever fucking seen and idiot mermaids who refuse to fucking stab him so he bleeds out and solves all their problems
"it's just stress" oh thank god, it's just the silent killer that slowly kills you, perfectly harmless, no need to worry
I can be the ship and its sailors
the world is so big surely it's big enough to hold my mediocrity. yes i know i'm my ancestors' wildest dreams. i know i have to be twice as good to get half. but. i think i should be allowed to be average. surely the world won't suffer if I am not great. surely it will keep spinning and people will keep dying and living.
#good thing i suck dick otherwise i would be the last virgin in my friend group
update for anyone who cares, we talked and she said basically that she was just bored, she wasnāt gonna bring it up if I didnāt say anything, she basically fools around platonically (like she has in the past) and that it wasnāt a big deal to her
in conclusion I need to fuck someone bc this is what happens when I have no experience and my friends do. they have like a different relationship with sex like they donāt put that much importance on it so now Iām just the idiot who made a big deal about groping her friends tits šš
Let my tales of woe be a lesson to all of you. You may think to yourself, how could one end up in a situationship? You may think yourself above such things. I too, made this mistake. A friend of mine who weāve talked about how if we let ourselves we would def fall in love with each other have decided to be friends bc she did not want to endanger the friend group. I agree to her terms and we remain friends, if a little touchy. Most of the āāāflirtingāāā consists of me making various references to how weāre not together because of her boundaries and me trailing my finger down her arm.
The dynamic is usually (I say something flirty, she either ignores it or is like (turns me down)) however last night she begins touching me with no prompting, saying at one point she is just bored. I mention to her that when I touch her sheās very adamantly like nothing is happening but when I donāt initiate she is quite literally all over me both verbally and physically. She responds by saying she does this so our friends donāt suspect anything even though they ship us anyway. All of this comes to a head in which I am running my nails across her back. She leans back and so I begin touching her shoulder. She then takes one of my hands and puts it on her tits. I ofc begin to essential fondle her. At one point she looks at me and I have to look away because sheās so beautiful. Another point she looks at me again and I say what and she just shakes her head. I stop moving and say do you want me to stop and she shakes her head again and says no. More fondling ensues (mind you the whole time sheās just rubbing up my arms and stuff. And then she just abruptly says she has to go do her hw and leaves.
the next morning I am like, I am not gonna slow myself to get into a situationship let me talk to her about this. I sent a text being like r we gonna talk about last night and sheās like do i want to talk about last night and Iām like I asked first and she said sheāll talk about it if I want and she said sheās fine if I donāt. WHAT KINDA RESPONSE IS THAT. Then I text, I just wanted to make sure everything is still Platonic like you insist we are and I am still waiting for a response.
all of which to say, I may have lost a friend bc I insisted on defining a relationship. #wishing I just stfu and dealt with a situationship #why does this shit happen to me #am I crazy for thinking we should talk after I touched ur tits????????
ugh cant wait till my 21st so I can drink myself into a pit. Life is so annoying and having friends check on me is even more annoying like Iām not even worth it
we have to stop moralizing the human condition and start jerking each other off while making out
I have had so many bad takes on this post and not only is this a breath of fresh air, Iām gonna kiss you for it, you get me