the story of the first boy i ever loved,
I,
i chose you over him,
i walked over a mile everyday to see you,
you never met me halfway but i didn’t mind,
because we held hands,
and you never let go,
we walked to your favorite hiding spot,
it was green,
and alive,
and the sun shined down between the trees,
and you told me
“if i disappear one day,
this is where i’ll be”
i smiled,
and said i would visit you,
if you wanted,
we kissed later that day for the first time,
and you tried to take my bra off,
i stopped you,
and apologized,
but you told me it was okay,
that we could wait,
so we did
II,
two months after you chose her over me,
you invited me over,
and we laid in the grass behind your house,
you didn’t look at me the same way,
and i could tell it was different,
but i didn’t care,
we left our friends and went up to your room,
and i said i didn’t want to wait anymore,
immediately after,
you texted her,
someone new,
and you told her about it,
you said,
“you fucked him, now we’re even”
she told you she didn’t want to do this anymore,
and she ended it,
the next morning,
you were gone
III,
a year later,
you took me to your new favorite hiding spot,
and you kissed me,
and held my hand,
and talked to me
about how much you loved them,
and how much you wished you loved me like that,
i should have ended it then,
but i didn’t love me much either,
so i stayed
IV,
i don't know where you are,
or if you’re happy,
and i don't know if you think about me,
but i still think about you,
and how i wished i had been strong enough then
to leave,
but i am now,
and wherever you are,
i hope you found someone new,
and i hope she feels loved,
and i hope you stopped feeling so empty,
and i hope this stays over,
because this,
whatever it is,
whatever it was,
has never been fair,
to either of us
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