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F2F - Nick & Jeff (and Felicity)

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Suddenly, he felt awkward, almost like he’d ruined the moment when Nick moved to lay beside him. “Nothing’s wrong.” He shook his head, before rolling his head to the side to make eye contact with him. “I’ve just been thinking…” He trailed off, closing his eyes briefly as he sighed. “What if… what if we didn’t use a condom?” It was finally out in the open, but he still felt strange saying it, because it was kind of a big thing to ask of someone. “I mean, I’m clean. And I know you are, too.” He bit down on his lip as he paused. “And I don’t plan on being with anybody else. I just want you. So I thought… maybe we could. But you can say no, if it’s too much.”

Nick sighed, a smile crossing his lips when he knew what was bothering his boyfriend. “Jeffie...” He whispered, reaching over to brush the hair off Jeff’s forehead. “Why would you think you need to be nervous about that? It’s like you said, we’re both clean, we’ve been tested and I’m not planning on being with anyone else either. So if that’s something you want to try, I’m okay with it.” Nick explained with a small nod. If he was honest, this was something he’d been thinking about too. They’d been together over a year now and he trusted Jeff more than anyone, so it only seemed like trying this was a step that was coming. Nick made eye contact with his boyfriend, his eyes grazing over his face to ensure that the other man wasn’t still nervous about what he’d asked for. Just to give another layer of assurance, Nick leaned forward to press a kiss to Jeff’s lips and whispered out a soft “I love you”.

F2F - Nick & Jeff (and Felicity)

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Jeff eagerly responded to the kiss as he lifted his hips up to assist Nick in getting rid of them. Thankfully he’d already discarded his shoes and socks earlier so he didn’t have to worry about being a total fumbling mess. Jeff was about to help Nick with his own, when his boyfriend stretched over him to grab their usual supplies. Biting down on his inner cheek, his urgency died down just a bit as a thought occurred to him, one that had been on his mind for a few months now. His hands continued to roam over his boyfriends skin as Nick made work of removing his pants. “You’re so beautiful.” He breathed, without really censoring himself, because usually he knew not to call other men that. But it wasn’t any less true. He stretched his neck up to attach their lips again, one of his hands sliding down and slightly under Nick’s boxers, merely teasing the skin there. But he paused, leaning his head back to look at Nick in both seriousness and lust. The combination made his head foggy, but he wasn’t complaining. “I…um, Nicky. I want to try something. With you. And I don’t know how to say it.”

Nick laughed lightly and accepted the kiss, a warm feeling spreading through his chest. He reached down to stop Jeff’s hand when he felt it touching his skin, afraid he’d come too soon if that touch went further. Nick cocked his head in confusion and concern as he watched his boyfriend’s expression change in an instant. “What’s wrong babe? You know that you can tell me anything. You never have to censor your thoughts with me.” He spoke softly, moving to lay next to Jeff to put them at the same level while they spoke rather than Nick hovering over him.

F2F - Nick & Jeff (and Felicity)

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Jeff let out a moan of his own as Nick began to trail kisses over his skin, turning his head to the side to allow him more access to his neck. “You are…so ridiculous.” His words were fond and breathy at the same time, before he let out another short laugh. His boyfriend’s dorky words still didn’t distract from the fact that Nick was so close, and that he wanted this, like, a lot. Another low moan escaped his lips as Nick sucked down on that spot on his neck, the one Nick knew he liked. His hands continued to run down his body, before resting on Nick’s hips. He turned his head back to place a few stray kisses on Nick’s collarbone, his thumbs rubbing small circles over his hipbones as he did so. “But you’re really lucky I like you enough to let you.”

Nick released the spot and let out another huff of a laugh. “Good” He whispered as he leaned back up to press a kiss to Jeff’s lips and scooting down on the bed to undo the button on his boyfriend’s pants and pulling them down slowly. Once the pants were successfully off and discarded onto the floor, Nick leaned over to their bedside table to pull out the bottle of lube and a condom and setting them down on the bed next to them before moving to remove his own pants and tossing them onto the floor with Jeff’s.

F2F - Nick & Jeff (and Felicity)

#Jeff #F2F #//I am so sorry. XD #Dont even ask me how to pronounce that because I have no clue...

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Jeff let out a breathless sort of laugh when Nick gently shoved him onto the bed, but he was soon distracted by the sight of his boyfriend pulling his own shirt off. They’d only been together a bit over a year, and despite the fact that they were busy with work and Felicity now, Jeff still wanted him as much as he did when they got together. Stretching upwards, he surged their lips together while his hands rested on Nick’s chest. “I need you, Nicky.” He breathed, breaking apart from his lips briefly so he could run his hands down his chest, headed towards the waistline of his pants. “I’ve pretty much been dying here.” His words were as teasing as he could be in that moment, but he really had missed this. It wasn’t like before, when it was just the two of them and they could do what they wanted when they wanted. Things were different now.

Nick moaned quietly at his boyfriend’s words and touch, it had been way too long and his mind was getting away from him more and more with each passing moment. “I need you too.” He agreed with a husky laugh and starting to trail kisses across Jeff’s face and down his neck as he spoke. “I would say that you’re a DILF but I guess we’re going to have to change it to DIGF because I wouldn’t just like to fuck you, I’m going to.” Nick teased playfully before sucking down on the spot that he knows drives his partner crazy every time.

F2F - Nick & Jeff (and Felicity)

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Jeff stopped in his tracks as Nick turned on the sound machine, silently willing her not to wake up. He let out a small laugh of relief as Nick ushered him out the door. “Good thinking.” Jeff said quietly, and before he knew it they were in their own room and Nick was pulling at his shirt. Happy to oblige, he lifted his arms up and allowed the shirt to be removed before he was grasping at his boyfriends own shirt and tugging it up over his head. Leaning back in for another kiss, he wrapped his arms around him, instinctively beginning to walk them backwards towards the bed.

Nick grinned as he pulled the cotton fabric over his boyfriend’s head before accepting the kiss hungrily. Once they’d reached the edge of the bed, he placed his hands firmly against Jeff’s chest again and gave him a light shove backwards onto the mattress. Nick reached back to pull off his own shirt before climbing over to straddle his boyfriend. It had been ages since they’ve had the time or energy to do this and Nick was feeling like a desperate, horny teenager rather than the man with a job and a family that he actually was.

F2F - Nick & Jeff (and Felicity)

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Jeff watched anxiously as Nick carefully got up to put Felicity in her crib. Any slightest thing could wake her up, and has, but thankfully this time she stayed asleep. Smiling up at Nick as he came back, Jeff took his hand and pulled himself up, threading their fingers together once he stood. “We can play video games later.” He nodded in agreement before finally leaning in for a small kiss. He soon pulled back, beginning to walk backwards towards the door and tugging Nick along with him. “I think we have about… five minutes until she wakes up? That should be enough time.” He teased. At least he hoped that they’d have longer than that.

Nick laughed quietly as he allowed Jeff to pull him along. “Oh, hold on.” He whispered, stepping to turn on Felicity’s soothing noises machine before continuing to follow his boyfriend out of the nursery. “That should buy us at least another ten.” Nick insisted, putting a hand on Jeff’s chest to push him towards their bedroom and using the other to quietly close the door to their daughter’s bedroom. The moment the door was closed Nick began pulling at the hem of his boyfriend’s shirt, too excited to wait any longer.

F2F - Nick & Jeff (and Felicity)

jeffreysterlink:

All joking aside, Jeff was just happy to be here with both of them. He got his time with Felicity, considering the fact that he watched her during the day. But he missed having Nick around, too, so he loved times like this. “What, the video game part? I mean, we can, but we’re just going to want to buy it and play all night.” He joked again, before dropping the act. “But if you mean the other fun part, I might be okay with that. Because I might have missed you kind of a lot.”

Nick took a deep breath before carefully getting up, crossing the room, pressing a kiss to Felicity’s forehead, and carefully placing her in her crib. He held his breath for a moment as he moved to step away, hoping desperately that she wouldn’t wake up. He crossed back to where Jeff was sitting and held out a hand to help him up. “I was thinking the other fun part... as fun as video games are, I might have missed you too.” He agreed, biting his bottom lip playfully.

#Jeff #F2F #Felicity

F2F - Nick & Jeff (and Felicity)

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Jeff just nodded in response, although he was aware of the fact Nick couldn’t see him. It wasn’t something he wanted to talk about, either. “It’s not you, it’s her. It’s all those bottles she’s been chugging back.” He let out a small laugh. “Well, first, I thought we could spend a few minutes cleaning up the living room together.” He spoke in his ear, mimicking the suggestive tone, although the playfulness there was still present. “Then I really wanted to show you…” He turned his head to the side again in order to press a kiss to the side of Nick’s neck. “This new video game I heard about. It looked really cool.” He grinned slightly, knowing full well what Nick was getting at. “And if that doesn’t tire us out… I think we could go back to our room and figure something out.”

Nick rolled his eyes and rocked the baby in his arms gently, he didn’t believe one bit of it. Sure, Felicity was growing a lot but he also knew that he’d been letting himself go since she arrived. He hadn’t stuck to his usual exercise routine in favor of coming straight home to be with the family and neither of them had been eating the best since they rarely had the time or the energy to cook anymore. Jeff quickly pulled him from his daze with the simple tone of his voice. Nick laughed lightly at his boyfriend’s list “Oh yeah, what if I say I don’t want to clean and skip straight to the fun part?” He asked trying to stop his laughing in an effort to not wake the baby with his movement.

F2F - Nick & Jeff (and Felicity)

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“She won’t, I didn’t mean it like that.” He didn’t like thinking about that stuff either, and he really had no reason to. Him and Nick were both young. They still had all the time in the world left with her. “They’ve already been asleep for the last five minutes, but I didn’t want to say anything.” He teased, and leaned down to press a kiss to his shoulder before letting his chin rest atop of it once more. “Besides, it’s only fair she gets you for the next couple of minutes, ‘cause I get you for the rest of the night.”

“She will eventually but I’d rather not talk about it none the less.” He pointed out in a straight forward, just the facts tone as he snuggled the sleeping baby closer to his chest. “I’m sorry that I’m heavy and made your legs fall asleep.” Nick pouted a little bit and leaned his head back to press a kiss to Jeff’s cheek. “Oh yeah? and what are you planning to do with me for the rest of the night?” He asked suggestively, honestly curious as to what his boyfriend may have in store. Their personal life had definitely taken a back burner since becoming dads but now that the baby was sleeping through the night in her own room, they had a little more freedom than when she was in a pack ‘n play in their bedroom.

F2F - Nick & Jeff (and Felicity)

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“Pretty much. She’s doomed now for the rest of her life. But mostly ours, technically.” Jeff had never seen himself being a father before, but now that he had her, he couldn’t imagine how his life would be without her in it. “Unfortunately… I don’t think we can swing that.” Jeff shook his head slowly. “We can stay for a little while longer.” He said softly, knowing Nick probably just missed her. “Until we’re sure she’s really asleep.”

Nick’s eyes widened a little for a moment before looking down at the baby in his arms. “I’d rather not think about her having to lose us and that’s not going to be happening for a long time anyways..” It was an inevitable thing about having parents but his anxiety about the things of the world hurting her were made worse knowing that he wouldn’t always be around to protect her. “True, your legs would probably fall asleep before too long.” Nick laughed quietly, wiggling his butt a little against his boyfriend’s lap.

F2F - Nick & Jeff (and Felicity)

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“Can you blame me?” He smiled and glanced down at their baby. She was finally asleep — maybe all she’d wanted was Nick. “Yeah, she is. Everyday she’s growing. It’s kinda scary.” He rest his head against Nick’s gently. “She’ll still be small for a long time, though.” He turned his head slightly to press a small kiss to Nick’s cheek. “She seems happy now. But time for the real test… think we can get her to her crib without waking her up?”

“No, I guess not.” Nick agreed. “She better stay small for a long time but even when she’s not, she’s still going to be our baby...” He pointed out. Nick didn’t think there would ever come a time in her life where he wasn’t going to feel fiercely protective over this little person and every time a thought of the difficult things in life that she would face crossed his mind he couldn’t stand it. “No, can’t we just stay like this forever?” He wined, both because he knew that she would probably stir and fuss if he got up and because he just wanted to soak in every little moment with his family that he possibly could.

F2F - Nick & Jeff (and Felicity)

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Jeff let himself relax full against Nick’s back, leaning into him as he yawned. “That’s not true. Well, maybe a little. But who wouldn’t be happy about being fed?” He spoke positively. “But I definitely think you’re part of it…We’ve both loved having you here more.” Nick being on Christmas vacation was definitely nice. “You still have time with her before you go back. You don’t have to think about work yet.”

“Yeah, you get pretty happy when I feed you too.” Nick joked lightly before becoming distracted again by the warm, soft weight in his arms. “Gosh she’s getting big...” He commented absently as he pulled the now empty bottle away from her mouth and set it onto the table next to the chair. Nick reached up and gently stroked his now sleeping daughter’s cheek, it was incredible to believe that she was nearly six months old already and before he knew it she’d be crawling and talking.

F2F - Nick & Jeff (and Felicity)

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“You can. She’s your baby too, you know.” Jeff smiled softly as Nick reached out for her. Carefully, he transferred Felicity to his arms, and leaned back in the chair he had sat back down in. For a moment, he watched his boyfriend hold their daughter, and his heart felt full. Never in a million years did he think he’d end up here — with a boyfriend who loved him and a daughter. But somehow, it snuck up on him, and he was happy. He let out a small huff of laughter as Nick sat down on his lap. Careful not to disturb Felicity, Jeff wound his arms around Nick’s middle and rest his chin on his shoulder so he could look down at the now relaxed-looking baby. “Hi.” He whispered back, a goofy half grin still on his face. “She looks happy. I think she missed you.”

Nick shivered lightly when he felt his boyfriend’s breath on his ear. He allowed himself to melt into Jeff’s embrace as much as he could without disturbing Felicity who was now fully engrossed in her bottle. “I don’t know, I think she’s just really happy to be being fed.” Nick suggested with an apprehensive tone. “But I’ve missed her too, I’m going to hate going back to school and not getting to spend all my time with the two of you..” He pointed out reveling in the feeling of his baby in his arms and his boyfriend wrapped around him. “Daddy misses you way too much when he’s at work Lissy.” Nick cooed softly as he stared down at his daughter as she finished up her bottle and her eyelids started to flutter closed.

F2F - Nick & Jeff (and Felicity)

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Jeff could tell by looking at Felicity that there was nothing wrong with her. If she were in pain or uncomfortable, he’d be able to recognize it. She was just being fussy. Even babies had their off days. He nodded to himself at Nick’s answer and smiled tiredly down at the baby in his arms. Usually Felicity would be asleep by now and Jeff would be doing his own thing and winding down from the day. Not that he was complaining; he didn’t mind spending time with her. But they were up later than usual. He gently nudged one of her tiny hands with his before holding it in his palm. “Daddy’s on his way. He’s gonna bring you some milk.” He spoke quietly to keep her distracted, and before he knew it Nick was walking through the door with the bottle. Jeff smiled gratefully at him. “I think so. She must be getting hangry.” He spoke, mostly directed towards Felicity as his words were still tinged in the baby-talk tone he reserved for her. Looking back up at Nick, he spoke normally, yet still kept it quiet. “Did you want to feed her?”

Nick laughed lightly at his boyfriend’s comment. “Can I?” He asked after a short pause, reaching out for her. Nick really hated how much time he had to spend working away from his little family but he was glad that she was still being raised just by the two of them and not nannies or daycare workers. When he was home he tried to spend as much time with his daughter as he possibly could, in another situation he’d probably feel bad taking time away from Jeff but he got all day with her and there was only so much time that she would stay this little. Nick gently took the baby into his arms before taking her spot in Jeff’s lap and settling back against his chest. “Hi.” He laughed a little before turning his attention back to Felicity and bringing the bottle up to her mouth.

F2F - Nick & Jeff (and Felicity)

Felicity, normally, was a really good baby. Like, abnormally good. She didn’t throw many fits or cry just to cry. Usually she fell asleep fairly fast. Tonight, though, she was being fussier than normal. She’d been crying on and off for the past couple of hours, and while she’s stopped now, Jeff could tell that if he didn’t soothe her enough to get her to sleep she might start back up again. It was the excitement of the holidays wearing off, Jeff figured. She’d just been changed, so that wasn’t the issue. But maybe she could use another bottle. Gently, he tucked her closer to his chest as he lifted himself up from the chair they’d both been sitting in. Carefully, he pushed open her door and stood in the doorway. “Nicky…” He called out, still trying to keep his voice soft so she wouldn’t get worked up over any loud noises. “Can you warm up a bottle for her please? I think she’s about ready to go to sleep.”

Nick was just finishing up answering one of his favorite kind of emails from parents, the ones who’d raised divas that thought they deserved every solo ever offered, when he heard his name. “Yeah, just a second.” He called out quietly as he finished up his reply and closed the laptop before heading into the kitchen. In the last almost six months mixing formula had become almost second nature to Nick and he was currently paying more attention to listening to make sure he wasn’t going to hear a ‘this is something worse than hungry’ scream from his daughter. He’d only heard that one a couple of times when she’d been sick but it was a sound he would never want to hear again. Once the bottle warmer went off, Nick tested it on his hand as he walked towards the nursery. “Hey there baby girl, you hungry?” He asked with a grin on his face as he moved through the doorway.

#Jeff #Felicity #f2f

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Of course we have to spoil her. She’s our little princess.

Already can’t wait for next Christmas.