she just smiled and turned her head down

the color of feeling that life's okay

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Noah listened to Nick, a deep frown on his face when he brought up the other baby that existed before he did. He nodded slowly, stirring the cereal in his bowl, and trying to figure out what to say, because he didn’t really understand. “Okay,” he said softly. “What about you? Aren’t you sad?”

Nick watched Noah carefully, unsure what his reaction would be. He asked Nick if he was sad and Nick nodded slowly. “I’m very sad,” he told Noah truthfully. “But mommy is hurting, so we need to look after her, okay?”

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Noah nodded when Nick said that he could pick out what he wanted to take. Looking over at Bea and watching her as she giggled and kicked around in her chair once more to try and eat quickly again, Noah frowned. “Are we having another baby?” he asked quietly after a minute. “Kelsey said that Mommy had problems with the baby.”

Nick froze when Noah asked about another baby and he swallowed slowly. “No, son,” he sighed slowly. “We’re not having another baby,” Nick chewed on the inside of his cheek, unsure how to explain it all. “Do you remember we told you about Baby J? That mommy was having a baby but then it went to heaven?” He asked. “That’s what happened again last night,” Nick frowned sadly. “So mommy’s hurting and she’s sad right now, so we have to make sure that we cheer her up today, okay?”

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Noah nodded when Nick asked if he wanted to take food for Demi. “Yes. Good food,” he said, not sure what to take her, though. He then nodded at Nick and glanced over Bea, who was whining and trying to push Nick’s hands away.

“Okay, well once you’re done eating you can pick out what you want to take for her,” Nick offered with a smile. Bea kept trying to push Nick’s hands away and so he pulled back, holding them up. “Alright, alright, you do it by yourself,” he chuckled at the baby.

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Nick kissed Bea’s hair gently and talked to her about nonsense as he walked down the stairs and set her in her high chair. He glanced over at Noah when the boy asked about Demi and Nick nodded. “The people in the hospital will give her breakfast,” he explained with a slow nod. Nick got out a couple of bowls and then gave Noah and Bea some cereal, then grabbed both of them a drink.

Noah frowned when Nick said that the people at the hospital would give her breakfast, and Noah shook his head. “Hospitals have gross food,” Noah whined, staring down at his bowl while Bea began to eat excitedly.

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Nick smiled when Noah complained about hospital food and he nodded his head slowly. "Sometimes they do," he agreed. "Do you want to take food for mommy to have for breakfast?" He offered, unsure if Noah was concerned about Demi. "You can take some snacks for you and your sister too." He said whilst helping Bea to eat, slowing her down a little.

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Noah got changed after Nick left. Bea whined when Nick set her down in her crib, babbling out his name a few times while she waited impatiently for Nick to pick her up again. After she was picked up once more, she snuggled against him, and Addie shifted in Nick’s arms. Noah walked downstairs after Nick went down, and he frowned. “Does Mommy get breakfast?” 

Nick kissed Bea’s hair gently and talked to her about nonsense as he walked down the stairs and set her in her high chair. He glanced over at Noah when the boy asked about Demi and Nick nodded. “The people in the hospital will give her breakfast,” he explained with a slow nod. Nick got out a couple of bowls and then gave Noah and Bea some cereal, then grabbed both of them a drink.

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Noah nodded when Nick asked about getting Addie ready. “Yes,” he said, fiddling with the clothes in his hands while he waited for Nick to leave, so he could change.

Nick smiled at the boy and then scooped Bea up again to get Addie ready. He set Bea in her crib so that the child was contained and then picked up the sleeping baby and got her into a new diaper and onesie whilst she slept. Once she was ready he picked both Addie and Bea up and took them downstairs. 

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Noah took the clothes from Nick, then nodded his head a little bit. “Okay,” he said quietly and looked up at Bea, who was struggling around on the ground to sit closer to them.

Nick glanced over at Bea when he heard her moving around and he leaned down to pick her up gently and move her closer. “Is it okay if I go get Addie ready whilst you get changed? Then we can have breakfast and go see mommy,” he smiled, ruffling Noah’s hair a little.

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Noah shrugged his shoulders a little bit, looking up at Nick. “Fine,” he said, watching Nick, and then Bea. “How is mommy?” He asked quietly, frowning a little to himself at the fact that his mom was in the hospital again.

Nick smiled at Noah and offered him different clothes. Noah asked how Demi was and Nick nodded. “She’s okay,” he assured the boy, but didn’t go as far as to say that Demi wanted to come home. He didn’t want to give Noah false hope. “I think seeing you guys will make her feel even better.”

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Nick chuckled as Bea squirmed around and he tickled her belly gently. When Noah answered Nick smiled hopefully. “It’s daddy,” he called through the door. “We’re gonna go visit mommy and I was wondering if you wanted me to help you get dressed?”

Noah shrugged his shoulders, looking around his room for a moment, and then nodded. “Yeah, I guess,” he told him. Bea giggled up at Nick and reached for his nose to tug on it when he tickled her. 

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Noah said he could come in and Nick opened the door to walk in. He grinned at Noah and kissed the top of his head and then sat Bea down on the floor. "How did you sleep, buddy?" He asked as he went over to Noah's dresser.

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Nick grinned when Bea spoke to him and patted his cheeks. “Hi,” he whispered again before taking her over to the changing table and changing her diaper. Nick then got Beatrice dressed and slowly walked to Noah’s room before knocking on his door gently.

“Daddy,” Bea giggled out and let Nick change her, but she squirmed around quite a bit as she did so. Noah looked up when Nick knocked on his door, and he yawned while rubbing his eyes. “Yes?” he called out.

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Nick chuckled as Bea squirmed around and he tickled her belly gently. When Noah answered Nick smiled hopefully. "It's daddy," he called through the door. "We're gonna go visit mommy and I was wondering if you wanted me to help you get dressed?"

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Bea cooed up at Nick and grabbed at his cheeks when he kissed her ear, giggling quietly. “Daddy,” she mumbled repeatedly, patting at his cheeks with her tiny hands.

Nick grinned when Bea spoke to him and patted his cheeks. “Hi,” he whispered again before taking her over to the changing table and changing her diaper. Nick then got Beatrice dressed and slowly walked to Noah’s room before knocking on his door gently.

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Kelsey told him about the kids and Nick nodded. “Okay,” he said with a small smile before glancing toward the stairs. “Well, I’m gonna go check on them,” he decided, and went up the stairs and into the nursery before Kelsey could argue.

Addie stayed peacefully sleeping in her crib, her little body curled up with the blankets that she slept with every night. Bea, however, laid awake in her crib, and she cooed out when she heard someone beginning to walk through the hallways. 

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Nick grinned when he heard Bea start to coo. He walked over to the crib quickly and picked his daughter up, kissing her dark curls. "Hi, bumble Bea," he murmured, kissing her tiny shell ear. "Daddy's home," he whispered.

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Nick bit his bottom lip and nodded. “I know,” he sighed, frowning a little. “I told her we would talk to the doctor about it and see what they recommend.” Nick looked around a little and tried to smile. “But, first the kids get to see her.”

Kelsey nodded her head very slowly, her arms crossing across her chest. “Okay,” she said slowly. “I know Addie is still asleep. Noah might be up, and so might Bea. I’m not sure. I don’t like disturbing them,” she shrugged.

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Kelsey told him about the kids and Nick nodded. "Okay," he said with a small smile before glancing toward the stairs. "Well, I'm gonna go check on them," he decided, and went up the stairs and into the nursery before Kelsey could argue.

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“You know that Demi struggles to make up her mind, especially with everything that’s happening. Her bipolar might be acting up,” she said with a soft sigh. “Or, maybe, she just realizes that she doesn’t need a hospital anymore. I don’t know, either,” she frowned.

Nick bit his bottom lip and nodded. “I know,” he sighed, frowning a little. “I told her we would talk to the doctor about it and see what they recommend.” Nick looked around a little and tried to smile. “But, first the kids get to see her.”

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“You’re still hated by me,” she told him with a shrug, watching him with Batman. “How is Demi doing?” She questioned after a minute, looking down at Batman while the dog began to whine and scratch at Nick’s leg for more attention.

Nick nodded curtly when Kelsey told him she still hated him. He didn’t blame her for that, and so he didn’t bother arguing. “You’re not the only one,” he told her with a sad smile - after all, he still hated himself. Kelsey then asked about Demi and Nick shrugged. “The doctor seems to want her to admit herself, which she did last night, but right before I left she told me that she didn’t want to stay there anymore so,” Nick sighed and then shrugged, moving his hand away from Batman. “I don’t know.”

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Kelsey got up from where she was laying on the guest room bed when she heard Nick, and she walked over to him. “The kids are still asleep. You’re here really early,” she said slowly. “It’s extremely dumb that you’re even here, in the first place,” she murmured under her breath.

Nick smiled when he saw Kelsey come toward him before she told him it was dumb that he was here. “Why?” He questioned as he looked around the house, bending down to scratch between Batman’s ears.

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Demi apologised for what she said and Nick just nodded slowly. “It’s okay,” he murmured slowly. “It’s true,” he admitted with a defeated shrug. Nick gathered his things from around the room and then headed over to the door. “I’ll go get the kids.”

Nick said that it was true, and that he would go get the kids. She shrugged her shoulders, sighing a little bit. “Okay,” she mumbled, looking up at the tiny hospital TV and turning it on hesitantly.

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Nick left Demi's room and exited the hospital quickly. He drove back to the house and let himself in, calling out for the kids curiously. He walked through the kitchen and then headed towards the kids whilst looking for Kelsey.