project 365, take two

the 2019 edition | studyblr (language/literature)

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january 20th

today i went on a lovely walk through the cold yet beautiful weather and focused on my essay again when i got home

moved to @nienque

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january 19th

working on next week's spread. i've got loads to do and i'm dreading what's going to be a stressful week. i'm trying to still put everything into perpective and not get caught up in anxiety. hoping it will turn out fine and that i will somehow be able to write and finish my essay

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january 18th

i've been very hesitant to post this but i figured i want to be honest about this part of my life as well. so today i had therapy as i have been diagnosed with an eating disorder (anorexia nervosa). it was alright, although gaining weight just really really sucks, even though it wasn't as much as i had expected. i had a good talk with my mum this afternoon and i do genuinely feel blessed to have such a supportive family. and it feels weird to share this but i don't think it's something that we should try to hide, so let's #breakthestigma.

and this was my evening setting for some half-hearted attempts at studying

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january 17th

the finished postcard, a ballroom from War and Peace and a quote from Tolstoy, and the evening sky after finishing my lectures

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january 16th

today was not as productive as i'd hoped, because i was ill, but i managed to finally make a new key page for my bullet journal and i worked on this drawing of a ballroom (reminiscent of Tolstoy's War and Peace). later i added some colour as well and now it's almost finished

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january 15th

this week's spread in my bullet journal and some more on reading on Michelangelo and his Pietàs in particular. the little bookmarks were actually left in there by another student, plus a receipt from 2013 (which did make me slightly nostalgic, to be honest)

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having another attempt at keeping up with a daily blog - i did this in 2016 and i still like to look back at it every now and then, so i'm going to try it again

january 14th

didn’t have any lectures today, but i went to uni anyway to pick up some books for my essay and get some work done (semi-successful). i was feeling rather low when i got home so my mum and i watched call the midwife, simply because we both love it so much, and that definitely helped. i'm going to do some more light reading for my essay tonight so i'm (hopefully) well prepared for tomorrow

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Happy new year

A year in (mostly) photographs and some bits of text. I really enjoyed making these posts and even though I've missed some days, I'm glad I've kept this up for a whole year and I think it will be nice to take time to actually look back on 2016. If you followed or read this blog, thank you, I really appreciated the messages you guys sent me. (if you want to see what my year was like, just scroll through this blog)

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2016 in selfies/pictures of me ✔ tagged by @korenbloemen, i tag @ivanaxoelle & @ilmiomaestro

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Morning light on our floor and me being ready for a movie night with my friend Sarissa

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My thrift shop finds of today - a blazer (terrible photo, I took this one in the fitting room because there was no mirror??) and four books, including a beautifully illustrated version of Gulliver's Travels

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a ramble

all my sketches and ideas for my painting fail miserably and i feel so frustrated and i need to have this painting finished in 1.5 week and i really had my hopes set high that i’d be able to make something nice to be proud of and i still have a blank canvas at the moment and i want this to be actually good because it’s my last painting ever for art class 

(i’ll be back with a proper post later, i am too pissed off right now)

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1: The book I referred to yesterday (the one my grandfather wrote and illustrated) 2: Winter light creating interesting shadows (with a little help from my hand) 3: My room, this is where I spend my days

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what did you got for christmas??

I don’t celebrate Christmas that way - I live in the Netherlands and instead of Santa Claus there’s Sinterklaas (celebrated on December 5th), but Christmas is not about presents (for me at least)

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why did you delete all your videos on your channel?

I have changed so much over the past few years (obviously) and even though I understand that it’s just the process of growing and developing as a person, I felt like those videos don’t represent how I feel about creating certain content now. They don’t focus on what I think is important (they were, as I see it now, very superficial) and for me, videos similar to the ones I made did a lot of damage to me, and I’m afraid that’s what happens to other people as well and I just don’t want to contribute to that

on a side note: I didn’t delete them, just put them on private (so I could publish them again, would I ever want to, but I don’t see that happening soon)

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December the 26th

Feeling tired but grateful after this day. My grandmother came over for dinner and we talked about so many things - she taught me little tricks she used to cheat in school - and we also spoke about the book my grandfather had always wanted to write, which lead to me rereading the book on our family history he wrote and illustrated (which is so nice, I am grateful we have something like this)

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hey nienke, hope you're doing well (: i'm ivana (don't know if you still remember me, we talked on youtube and instagram before! haha) your blog is truly inspiring and really motivated me to create my own! just wanted to come by as well and say merry christmas and wish you a great year ahead! you have really inspired me through the recent years and i'm truly grateful for your work, i wouldn't have become the person i am if it wasn't for you, thank you and keep doing what you do <3

hi Ivana, yes of course i remember you (good old youtube days haha)! thank you for your lovely message, this is so nice and i'm just trying to let your (extremely) kind words sink in. i hope you have a good time this Christmas and hopefully the new year will bring you many good things. once again, thanks for your lovely words (still quite surreal to hear i've inspired someone) and i look forward to your blog posts, definitely following!