The Butterfly Author's diary @nightsdiary - Tumblr Blog

I hope that when he makes the decision he won't private any posts or reblogs

Nothing will upset or hurt me, treasure

Everything about you is perfect ✨️w✨️

I am just here to listen and watch and be here for you

The times when I was worried to the point I threw up are long gone!

WUWUWUWUUWWUWUWUWUW HE HAPPI HE HAPPI HE HAPPI YAYAYAYYAYAYAY I AM GONNA CELEBRATE .•>W<•.

TWWWWWWWWWT

*"My shayla"-style sobbing*

I want to call him again... I made him feel better with that call... he was smiling... qwq

It is so precious when he smiles...

And he washed dishes... I was so proud of him... I *AM* so proud of him... TwT

I know he can't appreciate himself enough and I don't judge him for this, I don't judge him for anything. I can be worried... I am worried for him all the time... but over all that, I love him, I love him so much, I hope he gets more reasons to smile and be productive and care for himself qwq

See? You already found someone to care about and love. Soon you'll forget about me and him. You're doing well. Maybe you'll find happiness with that person and stop trying to take mine away.

#diary #🌾

Maybe if you wanted me to stay you needed to learn how to accept me, even my psychotic side, like my treasure does :)

I won't be nice to people who don't appreciate me fully!!! >w<

I don't really like that he was forced into that...

But on the other hand, I don't know any other jobs...

Ugh...

Being dumb but also aware of every little detail is so hard g-g

#vent

I don't hate her at all... as long as she doesn't try to take away my joy, of course!

(I remember that her birthday is in February, I would even congratulate this thing anonymously, but she is still trying to take away my happiness and will to live, so...)

#diary

Whenever the obsessive part of my personality acts up and I want to keep what I love all to myself, I remember that it used to be *way worse* than just him talking with other people, and I feel happy that at least he has nice people to talk with! Probably! :3 (I hope, because I don't want this him to be lonely... :c)

#I hope he still interacts with his friends THEY ARE SOO SOSOSO COOL #rant #not really a vent because I MANAGE TO CONTROL MYSELF >:3

I'm sorry I'm so clingy today, I care about you so much it hurts...

You didn't hurt me today, don't worry, I promise qwq (unless there is something I don't know...)

Rest

As much as you need

I luv you

#diary

I can't scream louder

My throat hurts from screaming

Please someone respond

I can't scream much longer

#vent

It fucking hurts so bad

Where is my safe place

I want a safe place

Please

#vent #idc anymore actually #pls interact

Why does my stomach have to be upset along with my brain

Bitch you didn't even suffer like my brain did (well maybe it did suffer when I threw up-)

don't abandon them they care for you don't abandon them they care for you don't abandon them they care for you don't abandon them they care for you don't abandon them they care for you don't abandon them they care for you don't abandon them they care for you don't abandon them they care for you don't abandon them they care for you don't abandon them they care for you don't abandon them they care for you don't abandon them they care for you don't abandon them they care for you don't abandon them they care for you don't abandon them they care for you don't abandon them they care for you don't abandon them they care for you don't abandon them they care for you don't abandon them they care for you don't abandon them they care for you don't abandon them they care for you don't abandon them they care for you

#vent #don't interact

What kind of relationship-bayivka is this and why am I going there again and again like a russian soldier.

#vent #don't interact #meme too kinda #ukrainian meme btw

why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why

#vent #don't interact