Broken Inside

She gets what she wants.She breaks what she gets.Get out while you can.Or she'll tear you to pieces.

[nikhitaromono-blog]

akira-romono:

— She might have not been in high school anymore, but according to popularity, it was still the center of her life. Popularity got her places. It got her things, people (people who could do whatever she wanted), it even got her special treatment by anyone. Popularity was, in essence, the source of everything Akira did. “Babysitting? I’m not a baby that needs to be watched. If any of use needs to be watched, it’s Dante. Who knows what he’s going to end up doing. Or Jay.” She shrugged her shoulders and nestled into her seat farther. As long as eyes weren’t on her, Akira could care less what her siblings did. ”I’m really bored,” she agreed with Nik, “and you don’t know if I know what that’s about or not. So.”

Nikhita sometimes really didn't understand her sister. Mostly because of how different they seemed to be. She rolled her eyes but focused on what she was doing. Her fingers moved across the keys of her lap top without her even having to pay attention. At least until she heard Dante and Jay being mentioned," How about we don't talk about Dante? And especially not talk about Jay." She knew that they were all siblings but she had always felt protective of Jay. The two had always been close and they were related by blood. She almost wanted to laugh but stopped herself. Instead she turned to look at Akira," Last time I checked you know nothing about hacking or how to deal with our shipments, that isn't your job." She turned back towards the desk and went back to typing," And I'm not going to entertain you, go bug mom."

[nikhitaromono-blog]

mr-ethan-holmes:

“I was going to ask whether I could take the newspapers,” he said pointing at the copy of the Chicago Tribune that had been abandoned on one of the seats at her table. 

All things considered, maybe the paper’s crosswords would not prove to be as entertaining as a chat with Ms.Attitude over there. “I find that a glass of water with lemon is a much better medicine than greasy food,” he added as he took a seat at a table in front of hers, on the other side of the alley.

"The newspapers?" she asked, looking around at the table she was seated at. When she had sat down she hadn't even noticed the newspapers. Of course she had been too focused on getting food in her system. That way she would be able to feel at least a little better.

"Go ahead," she said, motioning for him to take them. It wasn't like she planned on reading them at all. She made a face at the mention of water with lemon," I prefer greasy food," she said with a shrug," But maybe I'll try some water with lemon." She reached to take a sip of her drink before leaning back in her chair," You'd think I'd have figured out the perfect hangover cure by now."

[nikhitaromono-blog]

The pounding headache didn't seem to want to go away. Her stomach also wasn't feeling the greatest. That was probably why she found herself eating some greasy food. Yet again it had been another night of partying and waking up in a bed that didn't belong to her. Instead of heading home she was sitting in a small cafe with her hood pulled up to try to hide her face. Though she quickly realized she wasn't alone and made a face," Unless this is life or death, keep walking."

[the-joker-queen-blog]

“No now you have a new one.” The woman didn’t glance up again, even as her daughter seemed to backtrack. Tightening her jaw, she let a loud sigh leave her. “We all have to make sacrifices, Nikhita. I’m sorry that I just wasn’t willing to risk the sacrifice of a daughter.” The woman finally raised her eyes and let them rest on her daughters face. She could see the pain, and the uncomfortably. Daniella was taken back to when she had first taken in the twins. They had both been that way, but the woman thought that she had broken them of it. Let the open up. She knew it would be hard to move the family, but she figured any of it would have been gone by now. “I understand, darling. I really do. I just wish that you would try to understand my point as well.” Standing, Daniella rounded the desk and lent against it folding her arms. “You think we could try to make an effort here?”

[nikhitaromono-blog]

"Right," mumbled Nikhita since she knew that there was no point in going in circles. It was something that they would probably do all the time. It was the very last thing that Nikhita wanted to deal with. The whole conversation they were having seemed pointless. She just stared at her mother," You wouldn't have sacrificed me, I could have visited and you could have visited me, there is skype and whatever else." She knew that her mother never wanted any of them to be that far away. She took a deep breath, glancing down at herself and then looking back up at her mother," I always understand your point but I will never agree with it and you should have realized that, I'm not a little kid who will listen to you all the time anymore." She took a step back the second that Daniella went around the desk. There needed to be some distance between them as far as she was concerned. A sigh came from her at the mention of making an effort," I don't think you realize that's all I've been doing." She took a deep breath and pulled her hair back into a ponytail," Now can I please get going? I have some work to get done and I also have plans."

[catecheshire]

“That really doesn’t come as much of a shock considering it’s your people.” Cate barely flicked her eyes up from where she sat, knife in hand as she sharpened it. There was something about a blade that fascinated Cate so much more than the barrel of a gun did and it had been years since she had left the house without at least one strapped somewhere on her body. “Wouldn’t surprise me to hear it if the lot of you accidentally killed each other in the attempt to get to a level you’re not ready for.” Her head rose from her task so she could look at this girl. Younger than her and a pretty thing too, but she would be nothing but worthless, useless in Cate’s mind as long as she was a Joker. Not just a joker, but a fucking Romono.

[nikhitaromono-blog]

Nikhita reached to pull out her phone, knowing she had a few people that she needed to speak with. Or rather yell at for not doing what they weresupposed to. How hard was it to do what you were told? Especially when you were given actual instruction? Before she could even begin to type she heard a voice and rolled her eyes at the response," My people?" She looked up to see a woman in front of her.She was sharpening a knife and barely even looking up at Nikhita. All she could do was snort when she heard what came from her next," We're ready for whatever level we want and the only people we kill are the ones that we are targeting," she paused," But I'm pretty sure everyone realized that very quickly." Her fingers began to slide across the screen,knowing that the conversation she was having was pointless.

[nikhitaromono-blog]

akira-romono

— Again, Akira rolled her eyes and said, “whatever,” in reply to her sisters negative comment . It was the same with all her siblings, their mother included. Akira was too selfish to know what was going on, too wrapped up in herself and whatever they thought she did, too… The list went on. She sighed, “why not? People seeing you around me will boost your popularity by like, a lot. People might actually want to talk to you,” for once. “Ugh, come on! You’re going to get a disease if you stay in here too long. Just, let me help you so you can finish everything sooner then we can go out.”

Nikhita had no idea why she was even talking with her sister. Of course she loved every single one of her siblings. However at that moment she didn't love being around them. She nearly snorted when she heard how Akira was talking," I don't need popularity, last time I checked I'm no longer in high school," she paused," And no offense but I don't feel like babysitting tonight." She was about to resume her typing until she heard Akira offering to help her finish up," Are you bored right now? Because you seriously just offered to help with something which you know nothing about."

[ealylo]

[nikhitaromono-blog]

akira-romono

— She stuck her tongue out at her sister’s greeting, “whatever.” Scrunching up her face to the paper being fold and put out of sight, Akira walked back to sit in a seat. “It could mean something to me, in fact, I can probably shed some light on your… whatever it is.” Slurping the drink in her hand obnoxiously, she spoke around her straw, “just bonding time. Did you see the new shoes mom got me? So cute. Hey, we should go out tonight.“

Nikhita barely paid attention when her sister stuck out her tongue. Instead she just went to sit down at her computer. Her desk was huge and that was because of the many different monitors. Of course she only had the best of te best. Her head turned and she just shook her head," Please lets not act like you know anything about what I do." It took all of her to not make a face at the mention of their mother. Of course she knew that Akira was always their mother's favorite or so it seemed," Not really looking to go out with my baby sister," she paused," Besides I have way too much to do."

[smoking-rainbows-blog]

[nikhitaromono-blog]

]serenaromono]

“Call him and tell him he is being an ass for constantly taking off without telling any of us. And only telling us after the fact. And he better bring back some of the good bagels this time to.” Serena laughed some as she looked at the menu. “None of my charges has ever stuck and you know it. Whether it was because there was no substantial evidence or because of some force made the charges go away. And anyways, the cop apparently likes pretty girls. I might go ask him out for coffee and apologize for hitting. Unless he is into that sort of thing…” Serena laughed before ordering herself a shot of espresso and an extra large coffee with a few shots of caramel flavoring in it. “I don’t know what you want, but order it and I’ll buy this time. You get it the next time.”

"He is an ass but he's our brother," she said with a small laugh," I'll make sure to yell at him though, not sure it'll matter to him!" She knew how their brother was. A small laugh came from her and she nodded," I'm sure that he will bring us back the good ones." Instantly she shook her head, trying to focuso n the menu," I know," she paused," You might ask him to go for coffee?" That instantly had all of her attention," Don't date a cop or fuck one, please, that is just a bad idea." She looked back towards the barista who was waiting for her order," Um," she paused," Same thing she ordered please." She was too lazy to actually decide on one for herself. She looked over at Serena after their drinks were ordered and paid for," I got it, I'll pay next time though god knows when that will be." She wasn't entirely sure considering how busy they were most days and her nights were filled up too," So besides your lovely adventure what else has gone on with you?"

[bloodsilkedarchive-deactivated2]

“Aw, Nikki. Don’t be so mean.” Dahlia pouted. She leaned in closer to the older girl, hooking her hand through the other’s. “Tell me I’m pretty, Nikki!” She giggled as she tugged on Nikhita’s arm.

[nikhitaromono-blog]

Nikhita had to bite back a laugh and shook her head," Not mean, smart." She allowed the younger girl to hook their hands together and she continued to shake her head," I am so not feeding your ego."

[the-joker-queen-blog]

“Yes, well obviously you wouldn’t of. You had a place that you called your own.” Frowning, she glanced down at the papers that were in her hands. She tried to focus on anything else but the raising exasperation with her child. “You know… younger than you, I was ripped from my home.” She raised her eyes, her face a mask to hide the pain. “Ripped from family. With only one person by my side. I was thrown into an entire new life. And you stand here as if a world of injustice was thrown at you.” Daniella clenched her teeth. “I have given you everything. And yet, when I ask this one thing of you, it’s blown out of proportion. It’s too much. There are worse things that could’ve happen to you Nikhita. I want you to think very hard on your options. Cause either way, this idiotic childish behavior is going to stop. That is my last warning.” Turning her hard eyes away, Daniella dismissively waved her hand and turned her body back towards the computer. She had a letter to finish, and it was something to get her mind off of what had just happened. She had known about her daughters feelings, she just didn’t think that they would still be apparently festering away beneath her skin.

[nikhitaromono-blog]

"And now I don't," said Nikhita without a second thought. It was obvious that they weren't going to ever resolve their problems. Her hands reached to smooth down the fabric of her top," Yes I know, I have been told this story before." She knew all about her mother's tragic past. However she wasn't exactly loving having to hear about it," I know that you gave me everything. That you didn't have to adopt me or my brother, in fact, most people wouldn't have kept us together and for that I will always be grateful." She would always love Daniella even though she hadn't been acting like it lately," You ask me for more than one thing, you know that and I know that and I have always done whatever you wanted." She took a deep breath and looked around the room before looking back at the woman who had raised her," And I still do whatever you ask of me because I love you and I love my family but I just don't love it here."

[the-joker-queen-blog]

“Yes I did. For good reason,” the woman said, her eyes burring into her daughters. She couldn’t believe the same girl she raised stood in front of her. There was such a difference in her and she didn’t like it at all. “So you couldn’t transfer? And your serious relationship? I think if it was so serious it could have continued. Don’t think that I’m not being thankful for all that you do, Nikhita, but your family, be it blood or not, comes first. Especially in this line of work. You knew what you were signing on for as soon as you took the position. You didn’t have to be capo. I offered you the placement, but you made the decision.” Watching her daughter’s disposition, she couldn’t help the heavy sigh that escaped her. “I never said that we didn’t need you. Yes, you’re smart, and yes, you make most of the moves that we need made. But can you honestly say that you would have been happier separated from your family.” Pausing, the woman let the question sink in before continuing. “It’s what it boils down to, dear. Family is all you will have when everything else falls away. You would do well to remember that. Look at the examples in this town. Is that what you want to fall to?”

[nikhitaromono-blog]

"I don't really think that it was for a good reason," stated Nikhita, knowing that she never would have acted in such a way before. Though everything had changed for the both of them since the move. Her arms crossed just under her chest," Yes because long distance relationships always work! I was happy there! In New York! Where I grew up!" She reached to tuck a strand of hair behind her ear. Her weight shifted from one leg to the other," I realize that family is supposed to come first! You made sure that I knew that!" She held her hands up in disbelief and shook her head somewhat," I won't ever find out if I would have been happy would I? You will never let me get the chance and trust me I know and last time I checked I have been here for everyone in this family." She let her arms drop," I'm always here for the family! For my many siblings! And I will always be there for them! Can I please go now?"

[the-joker-queen-blog]

It was words that she had already heard, over and over again. She understood them forwards, backwards and both ways. What she couldn’t understand was why her daughter was still sore over it. “I don’t see it as a matter of getting what I wanted. I would think you would see it as bettering the family. I understand that you were established, but my dear… This childish behavior needs to stop immediately. The only reason you have gotten away with your blatant disrespect is because you are my daughter. But you are old enough to take the consequences of such actions.” Daniella took a deep breath, running a hand through her own hair. “The fact that you are holding on to this grudge, this anger…. Maybe I was to quick to reward you.”

[nikhitaromono-blog]

"I'm pretty sure you threatened to disown me," stated Nikhita through gritted teeth. She felt like she was going into a dangerous area. She just stared at the woman who had raised her," Bettering the family? Mom, I was in school and not to mention in a pretty serious relationship which I had to end to come here!" She hated thinking about it and even talking about it made it ten times worse," Disrespect? I am making sure that everything runs smoothly! In case you forgot I am the reason you are able to get the shipments in when you want them and not to mention all the money transfers I do for you on a daily basis." Her eyes grew wide and she wanted to scream," We both know that you need me and my skills, don't act like you don't."

[the-joker-queen-blog]

No wasn’t a word that Daniella was used to hearing, and yet it was all she seemed to be getting lately. Fixing steely eyes on the girl, the woman took a deep breath. She didn’t want to be rough with her children, and she had never intended to be. It seemed the one time she was… well the backlash just seemed to continue apparently. “Sit down, Nikhita. The letter’s saved and it can wait. You, on the other hand, can not. So explain yourself.”

[nikhitaromono-blog]

Nikhita already knew that she was probably about to get into it again with her mother. That was the main reason that she was trying to avoid it. She sighed the second she noticed the stern look on her mother's face. Her hands reached up to pull her hair into a ponytail," Explain myself?" She knew that she shouldn't lose her temper," Lets see I was forced to leave my home but we already went over that and you got what you wanted." She didn't know why she was talking about it over again since it was just talking in circles," And here I am in a place I don't want to be, making sure that everything runs smoothly and in order for me to do that I need to be at my computer."

[the-joker-queen-blog]

Her fingers flew across the keyboard as she typed up what seemed to be another email to someone back in New York. She hadn’t left much there, choosing to pick up her entire life and faction and move it to Chicago. But there was still a little business that was to be attended there, and it seemed that without a head, the chicken just ran around blindly. There was no knock that proceeded the opening of her door, and it irked her completely enough to mess up three words in a row. Erasing them with quick angry strokes, Daniella saved the process and looked up as papers landed on her desk. As she raised her gaze, she was met with the near blank stare of her daughter. Folding her hands together, she placed her chin atop them and listened. She knew the young girl was sore, but still… When she finished, Daniella’s eyes moved from her to the papers and she leafed through them as she spoke. “Sit down, dear. I think it might just be time for a heart to heart, hmm?”

[nikhitaromono-blog]

Nikhita noticed the somewhat annoyed look on her mother's face. However she was doing her best to ignore it. All she wanted was to just give her mother the reports and then go. In fact she had plans that night that involved a lot of alcohol and dancing. Though it was becoming obvious that something was up with her mother. She nearly groaned the second she heard the mention of a heart to heart," I don't really think we need to have one of those," she paused," I'm sure you have a lot of stuff to get to considering all the typing you were just doing." Things had never been like they were between the two. Of course everything had changed since she had been forced to leave New York. She looked around before looking at her mother," We don't have a lot to talk about anyway do we?"

[jabba-wock-blog]

      “Well.” Jabba huffed out, demeanour changing as he noticed something from the girl’s words. “Aren’t you a pathetic little one? Fine. I’ll leave you alone. Even I don’t like kicking puppies.”

[nikhitaromono-blog]

   Nikhita's eye brows arched up the second his attitude seemed to flip. She found herself making a face at his words," Not pathetic," she told him, pulling the flask from her purse," Just not wanting to be around certain people and did you seriously just call me a puppy?"