The Bitch In Me

My life as a bisexual crossdresser.. under the cover of the night she roams about hoping, yearning to be the secret that many men keep locked away, hidden all their lives. She comes out from the soul of one man to fulfill the desire of another. She's put away like a toy, because she is a toy.

[nikkiluvz]

Wow did I finally get fucked! I got my ass pounded last night, and this 26 year old stud shot his load in me three times before he stopped! I was fucking drunk on his cock!

Now I can truly say that I know how amazing it feels when a boy puts some serious dick to a bitch! He showed no mercy and had me locked up, smashed against a concrete wall as he almost tirelessly slammed his big cock inside me!

I knew that it was going to be a joy ride when I noticed that he was already rock hard when he pulled it out, and his eyes were fixated on my body as he stroked himself. This before it was even decided on what position I was going to take in order to suck him!

Then once I wrapped my greedy mouth around him and began slobbering all over that dick, he only allowed for a couple of minutes before he urged me to bend over. This boy had fucking me as his top priority that's for sure! OMG what pleasure, I need more!

[nikkiluvz]

Laura Crofts slut sister LOL!

This kind of dressing is my style. Not sure exactly why but I think it's sexy and guys seem to feel the same.

It's not that I don't like or wouldn't wear dresses [ would love to find a pair of hot fuck me heels! ] It just cost money and hard to keep out of site given my need for discretion.

There is also the environment factor., 99% of my time dressed is spent out in the woods so a hot minny skirt and heels would be a little cumbersome. The outdoors is a major fucking turn on so I'm not in any hurry to change outfits! 😜

[sissyknowsherplace]

[nikkiluvz]

The craving seems to get stronger daily

[nikkiluvz]

So, the weather has really sucked lately which means no fun walks in the park for Nikki.. fun walks being all nighters along the Greenway. Just too cold for me considering what I typically wear (the more skin the better).

When this happens, I usually get sprung on getting some dick., I crave it more than usual which is saying a lot and today is one of those days!

I'm probably going to bore anyone who may by chance read my blog regularly because well, here I go again with another monologue on BBC!

I can't help it, and things probably won't change until I finally get served! Until I get worked over good and hard by some big, black cock!

It figures that I happen to live in a city with a very small black community. It's frustrating when you just feel it in your bones, feel that a black guy would find you desirable and be more than happy to make you his bitch and pound you into the ground, and live what may as well be a million miles from him!

When that moment comes though OMG!

Sometimes I want this so bad, I think that getting it is going to send me over the edge into being 100% gay and I'll end up being some guys live in slut!

Has a nice taste to it 😃💋

[nikkiluvz]

So it's been a while since I've had the time to let Nikki out and I have been obsessing over another mouthful of a guys meaty cock! I'm SO in the mood for a good, hard work over!

Tonight is the night., I'm going to slip into a tight little pair of booty shorts, a favorite halter top that makes my tits mouth watering, paint the nails, wet my lips with some gloss etc, then bounce my plump little ass around the park this evening after logging into Grindr and making myself available.

Wish me luck!

💋💋💋💋💋

[nikkiluvz]

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A bit of a geek as well, I'm developing my own blog slash porn site LOL!

it's a place where I tell my stories, similar to here on Tumblr

 except writing the scripts, designing, all the HTML and PHP

doesn't only allow more freedom to express myself without being banned

in terms of content, images and video specifically, it's 

also very addicting!

[nikkiluvz]

I woke up this morning wanting sausage for breakfast and the visual that came with it was a big black dick WTF!

No interventions, I can leave them alone when ever I choose! 🤣

[thesissyinitiative-deactivated2]

[nikkiluvz]

That's my main goal when my feminine side comes out

[sophia-lynnslut22]

[sissy-charlene]

Would love to. I am from Brussels Belgium.

[nikkiluvz]

I've often considered this and just as often, it returned a, Hard Yes!

As a bisexual man, All I can imagine is the best of both worlds!

[nikkiluvz]

Laura Crofts Sissy, cock obsessed brother, out raiding the park, on the little bitches never ending search for those boys with the big, thick and deliciously smooth dicks! 🤪

This is going to be an all nighter out here and I'm excited! I met a boy who loves outdoor play as much as me and he is going to meet me out here and then he and I are going to walk the trails and stop whenever and where ever he gets urges to handle me.

This might be too good to be true! This guy wants to do pretty much what I have been searching for in a boy for a long time! Someone who could get off on fucking me on picnic tables, bending me over trees, just stopping in the middle of the trail and making me go to my knees to suck his cock, all of it done to me as many times as can fit in one night out here.

I'm overjoyed and a little worried that he won't show. HOWEVER, I'll live another day and suck some cock another day!

[nikkiluvz]

I appreciate random minds! 🤪🤣

[nikkiluvz]

If I'm personally not into licking your ass but simply tolerate it, meaning that I can lick your ass without sharing what I ate for lunch with you in a most inappropriate way for the moment (depending on the kink), and my dick is just hanging there, at the mercy of the softest of breezes, useless to the both of us, then the odds of it being my tongue painting your ass in saliva go way down over time!

Let's keep it real here.., essentially, in this situation, you're the only party in the fuck-fest who's getting fucked in the desirable sense of that word and that's because I want you to be happy!

However, Mother Teresa, God rest her soul, I am NOT! My cup of altruism has a bottom resulting in your butthole drying out and chaffing unless you find another watering hole, no pun intended!

The moral of this tidbit?

Communication, in terms of what we want, need, don't require and most important, don't LIKE when it's play time.

You're welcome! 😁

[nikkiluvz]

[nikkiluvz]

So tonight she gets serious about getting some good dick put to her! She bought a new pair of panties with matching bra that will cradle a set of round, bouncing tits, a new pair of hot pink, cutoff booty shorts that fit tight and are so short that her firm little ass hangs out, round and plump with that perfect cock teasing jiggle that occurs with every step she takes.

After she's dressed the makeup will be applied. Very easy and simple for outdoor activities. , Some dark eyeliner, a little color to the cheeks then a shimmering coat of pink lipstick, topped off with a layer of glistening lip gloss that will make her thick lips look wet and inviting.

Last she will rub a generous layer of body oil/moisturizer from head to toe, making her skin glisten with that fucking hot wet look! Then she will be off.. setting out on foot with that look that will tell every boy who sees her that she is a slut and available to anyone wanting to use her!

This is Nikki, this is what she does, it's what she lives for!

Tonight she hopefully meets her new boyfriend, the guy who wants a regular piece of ass. So in the mood to smother his yummy cock with my tongue and wet mouth! If he's into mounting a bitch I'm going to be ecstatic!

[nikkiluvz]

Well, I'm pretty excited!

I've finally made contact with a boy who says that he wants to play with me in the park on a regular basis! This may not seem like a big deal but it's huge to me!

Everyone knows how much I love being sexed outdoors and especially along the Greenway at night. I have a long standing fantasy about having a boyfriend who bombards me with requests to be at the park to meet him so that I can service him and stay with him out there all night, make my holes available to him through out the evening.

I have been searching and searching with no success at finding anyone until I took a chance by writing a quick note describing who I am and what I want then leaving it on the ground in hopes that the right boy finds it and he may have just showed up!

I saw the pic he sent with his first text and began to salivate! His cock was shaved smooth, nice and long and would definitely work my ass good once I got it throbbing!

I'm waiting to hear back from him. I'm so drunk on dicks lately!

[nikkiluvz]

So I've said before that my main reason behind living as Nikki as often as I can started with getting off on wearing the clothing but has sinse become a very real craving for the company of a boy.

Literally meaning, and I'm amazed that I'm saying this but literally being struck with overwhelming urges to be with a boy (or boys) in every sexual way possible! A deep wanting, a powerful, mouth watering desire to be seduced by, and as submissive as a sissy girl to a boy!

My play times with boys has turned into a bonified attraction to them.. I use to simply do what was expected of me from those old men that got their hands on me, but now I find myself truly wanting to suck a boys dick, hungry for it, mouth watering when I see a penis, visualizing my mouth under a throbbing cock, opened wide as I'm frantically tugging on it, pulling it to my mouth while milking the cum from his balls into my throat.

[nikkiluvz]

So, I'm a very discreet person where my private life is concerned (I understand, this doesn't make sense when I'm here but I'm okay with risking this). Nikki never goes out into public places where she will be seen. The only persons who see her are her dates and or men who are looking for this type of thing, otherwise she stays out of site by only going out at night and only in the park or secluded areas where she can walk around and be herself without distractions.

I love dressing in women's clothing! Not any women's clothing, it must look and give the attitude of slut, meaning the skimpier the better 😁

I love showing a lot of skin, especially my legs and my ass. I personally feel that they are my best qualities.. boys have complimented me many times on both so I want to give them plenty of exposure!

I typically go out to the Greenway which is a walking path that goes along the river, stretching many miles. A good portion of it could be considered as being in the woods, off the beaten trail so this affords me plenty of privacy and the fact that it can be very dark out there makes it ideal for me to slut around.

Being dressed and being out there is a turn on but the main purpose now days has become my insatiable hunger to be with a boy, be treated like his girlfriend and spend the entire night at picnic tables, against trees and anywhere else out there sucking his dick and getting my little ass fucked until my eyes are rolling into the back of my head!

I love sex outdoors and even more so when Nikki is the one being sexed!