*Currently typing this at 12:12AM of August 24 while at work, waiting if there will be medicine requests that I need to fill. I donāt know when Iāll finish this anyway.*
!!! VERY LONG POST AHEAD !!!
You read that intro, right? Yeah, I still suck at making blog entry introductions but Iāll try my best to keep on writing so I can enhance my undeniable noobness in writing such.Ā
Well, thereās so much to write about August so let me tell you what I can remember from all the happenings during the first half of it.
To give you an update, itās already the 5th month of this quarantine thingy. I cannot think of a better term for that because it has been changing constantly. (If you know what I mean- those ECQ, MECQ, GCQ etc.) So I think āquarantine thingyā is the easiest to say. Having said that, it is also my 5th month of being away from home when I have work. I only get to go home when it is my day off which I kinda hate but got used to it already. I have no choice but to stay in a hospital room provided for me to sleep because there is still suspension of public mass transportation and it would be really costly if I carpool everyday. (I wish I follow my Tatayās advice to buy a car already since Iām working na but you know, Iām a poor, young lady haha) Somehow, it felt like #adulting because Iām away from the comfort of my home and of course away from the comfort of my Nanay Digna (my grandmom) but having my workmates, who are my second family now, feels like Iām at home away from home.Ā
*just kidding* But really want to be a role model, or model nalang din, pwede naman hahaha
These past months, I managed to shrug off the worries and fears that CoVID-19 has been giving to everyone. You know, as they say it,Ā ādedma langā. Dedma in a way that it does not scare me that much, āyetā. Though there is fear in me but it isnāt awaken yet.Ā Yes, I wasĀ ādedma langā to CoVID during the first 3-4 months (I think) for as long as I know that I follow protocols and safety measures. I canāt say that I was safe but you know, I know in myself that I do the right things. (Except that I put down my mask sometimes haha, sorry!)Ā
The first week of August was a bit stressful for me.Ā
The number of positive cases that are admitted in the hospital that I am currently working at is evidently increasing. Not to mention that I share a room with other hospital staffs who have duties in the Isolation ward. Iām not discriminating them or something (PLEASE DONāT MISUNDERSTAND ME!!!) but working in a Pharmacy means I have less exposure to the virus than they are. I fear that I may get expose and then go to the Pharmacy and unknowingly spread the virus to my workmates. I donāt want that to happen. Nobody wants to. So, thatās when the fear was awaken. I donāt know anymore if Iām virus-free or not. Itās hard to tell. We are fighting a foe that we cannot see. That thought had bothered me for more than a week. I even thought of resigning if something wonāt change. My Lola was worried too. She even told me that itās okay if I stop working for awhile as long as Iām safe and sound. (but you know, my financially independent self canāt do that, I want and need to work my ass off so I can provide for myself and for my lola atleast)
I was torn between staying at work or resigning.
I had to sleep in the Pharmacy for 2 consecutive nights because our Department Head told us that sheās going to transfer me to a new room. (Thanks Doc G for the concern huhu!)
Then....... a day before I go back to work, the Laboratory OIC told us that we are having a swab test the next day. Yes, a swab test! SWAB. TEST. Not that itās a bad thing but I was afraid of the nasopharyngeal swab pain.Ā
August 7 | So yeah, everybody got swabbed that day. Then the next few days, I felt kind of unwell. Constantly checking if my temperature is still within the normal range.
*ENDING THIS ENTRY HERE BECAUSE ITāS TOO LONG ALREADY*Ā
Hi blog! Itās been a while, indeed. I can still remember the last time I blogged and what I wrote in it. That was 7 years ago already! SEVEN. YEARS. That long. Yeah, really long. I canāt believe I was away from blogging for so many years. A lot had happened already, good and bad, sad and happy, success and failure. A LOT. As in a lot. So now, after 7 long yeaaaars, here I am, back to my safe haven again. My natural outlet, my first love. Iām finally writing again. (or should I say blogging? haha) Yes, you read it right.
I really donāt know how to start. Iām pretty sure that I find it hard to write/blog again. Itās like Iām doing something new again for the first time but you know, the feelings are still the same. I still got that usual ātyping pausesā as I think of words to say. I donāt know but it really feels good.
Anyway, this is a new blog. Obviously. The first one that I have-- nikkidegzmn(.)tumblr(.)com got deleted/deactivated by tumblr because I havenāt opened it for 7 years. Even the blog posts I had in there are inaccessible too which made me really, really, really sad because most of my high school memories were posted in there. Memories I cannot recall already unless I get to read a blog post about that. It really saddens me which made me create a new blog.Ā
For the past 7 years, I did not document anything that has happened in my life. Except through photos and videos and some unfinished journal entries that I have. I lived in the moment. And still am. But still, a part of me wish I had wrote about it. The exact feels. The actual moments. I just wish I did. But nevertheless, that 7 years was incredible, formidable and remarkable. It was wondrous. Iām glad I had lived in it and got through it.
Probably, most of my posts in here will be about those 7 years. Letās all look back to those amazing years together. Iāll try my very best to relive the memories and hopefully write about it.Ā
