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WorkWear by smartbuyglasses-uk featuring a pink sweater ❤ liked on Polyvore

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Bagatelle Oversized Vegan Faux Leather Moto Jacket ❤ liked on Polyvore (see more oversized jackets)

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Sunday Outfit by lovemetender9 featuring a midi dress

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too busy watering my own grass to check if yours is greener

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"Como le haces para hacerme tan feliz?"

How am I supposed to react to someone being this head over heels for me? I’ve literally only ever had this with him. Ever.

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Slip Silk eye mask ❤ liked on Polyvore (see more eye masks)

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Slip Silk eye mask ❤ liked on Polyvore (see more eye masks)

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Every happy memory with my ex that creeps on me and makes me miss him is always followed by a really fucked up memory which reminds me of why I left him. It's like I'm saving myself from myself. A personal favorite was of how I never met his daughter during the 7 months we were together. He would tell me he was ready at least once a month and cancel last minute because he wasn't ready. Once he even kicked me out of his house because his mom was on her way home with his daughter and he didn't want her to meet me. His mom hated his ex because she didn't like his daughter and he still stayed with her, besides the point. So on the last couple of days of us being together, his mom opened up to me about all of this shit he had done and how he acted so I made it clear to her that the only reason I hadn't met his daughter was because he didn't want me to, not because I didn't want to. So she straight up tells me to just show up at their house one day when I knew he had her. That's when I realized that I didn't have to put myself through that. Yes I did love him and yes I do miss him at times but our relationship was filled with situations like these. Never once brought me around his friends and only brought me around cousins once. And he still tells me he wants me to take him back because of the issues I've had with low self esteem not realizing that he was the reason behind them. I couldn't admit it to him or myself at the time but I have now, to the both of us.

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Like always, I've run back to the one guy who makes me feel amazing and worships the ground I walk on. The fucked up part is that he is so aware the he is the rebound but he is so head over heels that he could care less.

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I'd be lying if I said I haven't considered taking you back but I'd be stupid if I did. Somewhere in between I fucking love you and I fucking hate you.

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I finally got myself out of the toxic relationship I was in. I have not felt this happy in months. I think he has finally given up on trying to get me back, at least I hope he did. This relationship had me feeling like the lowest piece of trash and I hate the fact that I let it go on for so long. I was convinced that I could change him but he never did since he never thought anything he did was wrong. It was always my fault. Fuck that. Fuck him. I am learning to fall back in love with myself and so far so good. It is not easy and I wouldn't have done it without the help of a friend who was going through the same. If any of you are in a toxic relationship, don't let it consume you. Leave it as soon as you can. I am here to hear any of you out and help as much as I can.

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Get better, not bitter.

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Untitled #1028 by victoriaandersen featuring celine sunglasses ❤ liked on Polyvore

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1330. Tonight It's Just You And Me by asoul4 featuring a layered choker necklace ❤ liked on Polyvore

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empires by grey-eyes featuring a black bowl ❤ liked on Polyvore

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don't you ever listen by grey-eyes featuring laced up ankle boots ❤ liked on Polyvore

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colourful details by victoriaandersen featuring a layered necklace ❤ liked on Polyvore