almost dead

The boundaries which divide Life from Death are at best shadowy and vague. Who shall say where the one ends, and where the other begins?

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All in one sitting ...dangit

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called my girlfriend the wrong name today and fucked her on acid two nights ago and she morphed into the other girl I am seeing/fucking and that is the only reason I had an orgasm

dammit

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what is more important... 

being comfortable and happy and at peace with a kind person who loves me very much but does not require growth (and protecting that person's heart while being with them, because a separation would wound her deeply)

or exploring a visceral pull towards another human that I cannot possibly explain but that has shaped who I am as a person and that lights me on fire without my consent

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I cannot choose

I want everything. I am greedy.

I am exactly like my father

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godDAMN my two loves are so so cute and bring me such smiles and so much love and warmth

look at those little faces

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Please tell me why I am fucking and casually dating a 30 year old woman when both of us are in a committed relationship We've known each other for 5 years and are viscerally drawn to each other and have always been that way even just as distantly intimate friends when I was young but it probably doesn't justify this behavior But it feels so fucking good to touch her

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I love my girlfriend I am not in love with her but I just love her so much she is such a nice person it is nice to know that healthy relationships are okay and enjoyable Mostly it is nice to know that passion can exist without aggression

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I have sexual withdrawals at least twice a day

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every day I need to go through a series of steps to avoid having borderline anxiety attacks (a new thing for me!) BUT when I get that under control I think I am almost happy for the first time in a while

(my happiness = lack of fear)

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Is this flirty?? She Also drunkenly asked me over last night

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Me: *celebrates first healthy relationship in years!!!!!* My gal pal: *turns out to have deeply rooted and very aggressive jealously and trust issues*

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I still miss you when I get too tired to forget and I am still angry that you left me without saying goodbye but I am happy that you are not suffering anymore and I love you and I hope you knew how much of me is made up of what you gave me and I hope I was able to give you something, even if it didn't end up being enough

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Why am I so obsessed with my girlfriend LOL

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Visit Original Link

songs about my dead girlfriend Lol

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these days I fall in love with anybody who shows me affection and attention but it is not love I know it is not love I just like being in control I want to make everybody my puppet it is cruel but it is my only talent and the only way I know to avoid being devoured by loneliness

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why won't you tell me what you want I want you so badly why don't you need me the way I need you = things I am thinking about a girl who is not my girlfriend

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last night I : made almost $5,000 and got a girlfriend

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I don't have the girl I want (unless I happen to go to her at a time that is convenient for her and ask for her at no other time) but I am fucking a dealer who gives me free substances which is close enough to love for me