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Living on your own also make it a bit difficult to keep yourself alive when sick. i always end up swallowing god knows how many painkillers, then i force myself to the nearest shop to stock up on food, sweating and panting from walking five hundred meters, and it feels like I'm having an out of body experience

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There's something extra pathetic about being in bed with a fever when it's summer and the sun is shining. anyway I feel a bit like a dying dog when i'm sick like this, i just want to hide in some corner far away from everyone and everything

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I wanted to finish kristin lavransdatter before my final exam begins tomorrow so today I read the last 350 pages in one sitting. I cried five times while reading, then spent a minute staring into space after i finished. When I went to add it to my reading log - a scrap of paper on my fridge - I realised that all of my leisure reading this year has been written by women

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(Manet’s Bar at the Folies-Bergere (Getty Center Exhibitions)から)

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I never drink coffee, I'm a tea drinker. The instant coffee is banished to a deep dark corner of a cupboard where it spends 363 days of the year

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I dug out the instant coffee from the cupboard for an all-nighter just to find it's gone mouldy. I had no idea instant coffee could grow mould

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Venus. Lady Heavenly Princess. Wolfenbüttel, Herzog August Bibliothek, Cod., Netherlands — 15th century

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I'm sort of horrified by the fact that T has become the kind of mother, the kind of woman, who never does anything for herself and is essentially losing herself a bit to motherhood. We never see each other for more than two hours every other month, she's as far as I can tell the primary parent, and she never takes any time for herself. The more horrifying thing might be that this is just what motherhood is, that this is what mothers want to be. I've seen so many women disappear into this life, while their partner is still acting like he did before kids, and somehow these women appear content. This complete obliteration of the self is probably the one thing that makes me think twice about wanting to be a parent

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Planning out my Saturday evening. I think I'll get drunk, properly drunk for the first time in a month, eat a can of tuna and watch at least two episodes of midsomer murders

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My old latin and classical studies teacher in high school always stressed that no one should read karen blixen before they were 40 because you wouldn't understand her before that. now, why she talked about this in the middle of the odyssey and doric columns i do not recall, but i think about it often. with so many novels i can't help but think what if i return to this at 40, will some secret understanding or esoteric wisdom show itself

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It's so fascinating that those are still compulsory classes. it feels like a relic from the old world before the world wars, a surviving piece of the classical education. In a modern world that continues to become more and more dismissive of the humanities i do appreciate it, even if i suffered in those latin classes. and sometimes when i walk around the city I'll look up and i'll recognise a volute on a building and a meander border on another so it wasn't all for nothing

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My old latin and classical studies teacher in high school always stressed that no one should read karen blixen before they were 40 because you wouldn't understand her before that. now, why she talked about this in the middle of the odyssey and doric columns i do not recall, but i think about it often. with so many novels i can't help but think what if i return to this at 40, will some secret understanding or esoteric wisdom show itself

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Holiday in France seven years ago. I got my eyebrow pierced on this trip; that ended up slightly farcical as I didn’t speak a word of French and the piercer barely spoke English. lots of gesturing and with my bad high school french i ended up ticking off 'pregnant' on a form

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I've always been slightly jealous of people like sigrid undset, who while researching religion - catholicism in her case - became religious themselves. I've always wanted and feared that happening to myself. A hang up from my religious childhood?

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i've thought for a while that i need to read more scandinavian authors. i i think art, literature and cinema are some of the best teachers in the world. people talk about travelling as a true eye opener that will teach you about the world but that's how i feel about literature and cinema. a great novel or film will teach you more about the universal human experience than a shitty backpacking trip ever could. but as i watched sentimental value i couldn't help but think that some things just hit harder when you recognise the culture and its codes, when it's familiar; of course i'm not norwegian but the differences between scandinavian cultures aren't so great that norwegian or swedish culture doesn't contain familiar elements and values. i suppose i am a bit of a pan-scandinavianist. so yes, i want and ought to read and watch more scandinavian things

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300 pages into kristin lavransdatter and i've cried three times and wanted to shake some sense into kristen on nearly every page

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My mother’s kitchen garden

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Remember being a teenager or early 20s and every time you were around drunk middle aged women they’d give really pushy life advice. A credo along the lines of like make mistakes, make love, make trouble (!!!). I’ve reached a stage where that’s how I feel when I’m drunk and I run into boring teenagers. I’ve yet to reach the stage where I voice it out loud but I fear the day