No Buns On Pesach >:з

*sees a character* *makes them fat* *has no regrets*

[nobunsonpesach]

Anyone else pronounces AU as "AWOOOO" or do some of us say "Ey, you!" instead?

[nobunsonpesach]

Once again I can't believe I haven't posted that!

Oh no wait I can believe. I was shy. Even though, come on, this blog is the one I made specifically to post stuff I cannot post on main.. still, this is the sketchbook I hide in my drawer when I have guests over 🥲

[nobunsonpesach]

Yay I got a new sketchbook! With thicc pages, so that even the alco markers don't bleed through. So here is a Slaaneshi!Mortarion, whom I missed drawing so so much, snuggling Konrad, who absolutely deserves it... Since like I imagined, they'd be the first Primarchs who not just found out about the future Heresy (through Konrad's visions), but also tried their best to derail it, by Mortarion deliberately offering himself to another Chaos God. Well, I'm Mortarion's eyes he didn't "offer himself", but "struck a deal", but we all know how it happens with Chaos gods... So yes, when an angry dirty beast of a man comes to you and demands "Hey you God-thing, apparently I was promised to another one of your kind before I was even concieved, and I think that's bullshit, so you can have me just to spite my dad and that other God-thing that was grooming me since childhood... As long as you give me dope powers and let me kick my father's shiny golden ass!" , you, being a Chaos God of having a good time, are absolutely letting him have a good time! Ohhhh, this is so fun!

(There's also a variant of the art without glitter)

[nobunsonpesach]

Damn I can't believe I forgot to post this one!!! Maybe because I put it aside to dry and then forgot it on the top of my wardrobe (I put it there because that's the only place my cat cannot reach 😭)

Chubby Sanguinius with his tits out! :з

[nobunsonpesach]

Another Cawl!! Damn I love his smug mug :з

It's kinda weird how serious and grim he looks in every artwork, when in reality he is basically just a silly lil guy 🥰😅✨

[nobunsonpesach]

Here is a fat Fulgrim and a fat Sanguinius! Also I've done some silly things w the paper in the sketchbooks where I made them, and it's best to see in a video :>

Also damn I couldn't download it like five times, there is a chance that they'll all download eventually and bless you with five times the Fulgrim Di lmao sorry

[nobunsonpesach]

Oh wow I've been away for so long! Again 😭

Long story short, I cracked my elbow and right now I'm in hopital...

I've tried drawing while laying down and it's very uncomfortable, but it's not gonna stop me 😎

The environment inspired me to draw Cawl! Because flesh is weak, blood is cheap, and I really wouldnt mind some AdMechs walking in right now and giving me a better arm lmao.

Young-ish, not yet shrimpified Cawl!

Older, less sane Cawl, with his first necron souvenir!! (Primus did his haircut)

Very young Cawl, worried about his bro!

[stpdeletacc]

Really missed Slaanesh!Mortarion, so i drew him

Now trying to draw as fast as i can because i am lazy (adhd) and starting to work on my research papers

Og au: @nobunsonpesach

[nobunsonpesach]

I CANT BELIV IM ONLY SEEING THIS NOW AAAA

[nobunsonpesach]

Heyyyyyy Happy New Year everyone! Tonight we love, and drink, and pray - that the next one will somehow, miraculously, be better!

This was the year I found so many people here that I’ve grown to love very dearly. You know I’m talking about you :> For all those who helped me through dark times - I hope this year I too will bring you happiness, as much as you need and so much more! I certainly will try 💖✨🥰🥰🥰

And hey, I realized I never actually drew the Blood Angels despite building their army? I left my Death Guard back in my birth country, and now I’ve decided to switch to another breed of big beautiful men :>

Here’s old boi Dante and his favorite friend shaped eldritch horror Mephiston being a little more friend shaped lately hehehe

[nobunsonpesach]

i'm saying this on anon bc i'm nervous, but i'm happy you're okay, and i think you deserve to know that your slaaneshi mortarion design (re)awakened something in me, and i mean that as the highest compliment.

Anon you are not gonna believe what other old sketch I finally gathered strength to finish!!!

[nobunsonpesach]

An attempt to understand acrylic markers… Once upon a time I was pretty decent with alcohol ones, but then I abandoned traditional media for a couple years. This… this is different. And dare I say… fun :з

So have an unusually (for me) canon pre-Heresy Morty! Look, he is even trying to smile!

[nobunsonpesach]

My part of an art trade with dear @heuldoch7b 🌸💫❤️‍🔥✨

Their awesome Magnus design! Hehe big bird is gonna get stuck :>

[nobunsonpesach]

Hi ❤️ can we have an update on how you’re doing?

Ohh thank you so much for asking! And finally I feel like I have enough strength and stability in my life to answer! Yay 🥹

I am SO much better since the last time I posted 💖 and this is greatly thanks to you and to every comment, message and donation I received - not just recently, but overall… Because when I was feeling my lowest, I would open “activity” page and scroll down and just read all the sweet things everyone had written to me and with me… All the reblogs with comments in tags, which still make me giggle and kick my feet every time I read them; all the interactions and shared thoughts and just nice things people said and shared, and this literally kept me afloat :> I can’t express enough how grateful I am to have so many people care about me and enjoy what I do! You are a blessinggg 😭✨

At peak depression I would have said that I don’t deserve that. But fk depression. I know I do. And you, too, deserve to know that you are amazing, and your work is fantastic, and you absolutely are among the people who really, really made a difference for me.

You, and all those who asked me how I was doing, and all those who reblogged my whining post and wrote nice things in the tags (I re-read every one of them many times), and all those who reblogged my commissions post, and all those who just reblogged any of my work and wrote nice things, and all those who shared their thoughts and distracted me from bad things… And of course, those who ordered commissions (I am almost done btw!), and ohmygod! - those who donated something (and some a lot 😭❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹) without any question…

And my sweet, gentle, endlessly kind and patient beloved ones, who are so far away, but they supported me anyway, loving me even when I was a mess and couldn’t answer for weeks….

You all saved me, like literally. I will never forget that.

As for what’s going on in my life, here is a little update -

My boss had left the country to visit his relatives and deal with some paperwork in Russia, which needed his physical presence - he was supposed to leave on September 12 and come back on October 16. And I had no idea how I was gonna survive that month, because I literally lived paycheck to paycheck… That was when I broke down and wrote that post - and you guys helped me out SO MUCH, I was able to buy my antidepressants and food for cats, and pay rent for the whole month 😭✨💖.

And guess what? That mf STILL HASNT RETURNED. October 16 came and went, and he just messaged me that “hehe whoopsie-daisy it’s taking longer than I thought”. But I already had my pills and your support and I wouldn’t let the icy silence of deep damp earth claim my weary bones that easily 😎 I agreed with the landlord that he’d allow me to find a roommate and postpone one month of payments til I find one - or another job - or both. My good irl friend who has a few cats gave me some litter filler and cat food, my landlord’s parents who live in the next apartment insisted on giving me food (grandmas… grandmas are the same everywhere, bless them), so I survived and the kitties did too!

Also guess who is meeting a potential roommate tomorrow 🙏✨And who is starting her new job (in a kindergarten :з) first day next week? 💜🧚‍♂️

Sooo, yeah, that’s it. Also, today was the first thunderstorm of the season in my region. I adore thunderstorms, and I saw it as a good sign, and even the cats weren’t scared, despite it being the first thunderstorm in their lives, because I held them in my lap.

Need I say that I love you all so so so much! So much more than words can convey…

Thank you! 🌚🌘🌗🌖🌞✨

[cosmics-canteen]

I am so proud of you!! You’re so strong and I’m so glad life is turning around for you!

[nobunsonpesach]

Awwww darling you absolutely are in the top 10 people who's support made me as strong as I am now 🥹😭💕✨ countless astropathic hugs and kisses to you too dear! And to all your sweet chonky OC's, who look sooo fanartable >:3c

[nobunsonpesach]

Hi ❤️ can we have an update on how you’re doing?

Ohh thank you so much for asking! And finally I feel like I have enough strength and stability in my life to answer! Yay 🥹

I am SO much better since the last time I posted 💖 and this is greatly thanks to you and to every comment, message and donation I received - not just recently, but overall… Because when I was feeling my lowest, I would open “activity” page and scroll down and just read all the sweet things everyone had written to me and with me… All the reblogs with comments in tags, which still make me giggle and kick my feet every time I read them; all the interactions and shared thoughts and just nice things people said and shared, and this literally kept me afloat :> I can’t express enough how grateful I am to have so many people care about me and enjoy what I do! You are a blessinggg 😭✨

At peak depression I would have said that I don’t deserve that. But fk depression. I know I do. And you, too, deserve to know that you are amazing, and your work is fantastic, and you absolutely are among the people who really, really made a difference for me.

You, and all those who asked me how I was doing, and all those who reblogged my whining post and wrote nice things in the tags (I re-read every one of them many times), and all those who reblogged my commissions post, and all those who just reblogged any of my work and wrote nice things, and all those who shared their thoughts and distracted me from bad things… And of course, those who ordered commissions (I am almost done btw!), and ohmygod! - those who donated something (and some a lot 😭❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹) without any question…

And my sweet, gentle, endlessly kind and patient beloved ones, who are so far away, but they supported me anyway, loving me even when I was a mess and couldn’t answer for weeks….

You all saved me, like literally. I will never forget that.

As for what’s going on in my life, here is a little update -

My boss had left the country to visit his relatives and deal with some paperwork in Russia, which needed his physical presence - he was supposed to leave on September 12 and come back on October 16. And I had no idea how I was gonna survive that month, because I literally lived paycheck to paycheck… That was when I broke down and wrote that post - and you guys helped me out SO MUCH, I was able to buy my antidepressants and food for cats, and pay rent for the whole month 😭✨💖.

And guess what? That mf STILL HASNT RETURNED. October 16 came and went, and he just messaged me that “hehe whoopsie-daisy it’s taking longer than I thought”. But I already had my pills and your support and I wouldn’t let the icy silence of deep damp earth claim my weary bones that easily 😎 I agreed with the landlord that he’d allow me to find a roommate and postpone one month of payments til I find one - or another job - or both. My good irl friend who has a few cats gave me some litter filler and cat food, my landlord’s parents who live in the next apartment insisted on giving me food (grandmas… grandmas are the same everywhere, bless them), so I survived and the kitties did too!

Also guess who is meeting a potential roommate tomorrow 🙏✨And who is starting her new job (in a kindergarten :з) first day next week? 💜🧚‍♂️

Sooo, yeah, that’s it. Also, today was the first thunderstorm of the season in my region. I adore thunderstorms, and I saw it as a good sign, and even the cats weren’t scared, despite it being the first thunderstorm in their lives, because I held them in my lap.

Need I say that I love you all so so so much! So much more than words can convey…

Thank you! 🌚🌘🌗🌖🌞✨

[nobunsonpesach]

Hey guys

TW: This is gonna be a sad post where I cry and ask for help, and it's gonna be probably very triggering and depressing, so please don't read it if you get sad easily

I tried to push away this moment as much as I can but I guess theres only for so long I can exist asking myself every day if I really wanna live through the next one, and if a year ago there was absolutely nothing that would keepe here, now I have people that I love and two cats, and I know I have to keep existing at least for them - and if humans would at least be able to understand what happened, the cats will never know where I've gone if I leave, and it breaks my heart...

Right now I live in a country that is almost entirely foreign, I eat maybe twice in three days and I still cannot explain how I was able to conjure food for cats, and even got them spayed on a discount, so they will be ok (they are at the vet now, she will bring them both back tomorrow and I already miss them).

It almost started to get better, like I was able to pay for the flat and food and even some clothes, and now the shop owner who hired me to watch his shop when he's gone says he will be taking a vacation and won't be able to pay me while he is away and I just-  I'm just so goddamn tired of looking for jobs, and looking, and looking, and looking, and smile, and make a good impression, and it's always a terrible job because I'm not a citizen, and I never complain, and all that after I spent a month in a mental hospital after an attempt, and I want to end it all still every day, every damn day, and now I don't even have the money to buy the pills that I need, and it hurts so much cutting off antidepressants, you have no idea. There is a headache, and some strange tingling at the back of my scull, like my brain is itching and I cannot scratch it, and it's horrible. Everything feels horrible.

It's 20:15 and I have been crying since 10:30 and I don't know how to stop and what to do. I've already asked for money from anyone I could think of and I just disgust myself now. Fucking useless beggar. Mold in the shape of a person. I know that this is not me, that it's something I'm supposed to suppress with the pills, but I don't have any pills and it's just everywhere.

And right now I know that I cannot let it win, because there are people (and animals) who's happiness depend on mine and I cannot let them down. A couple of years ago I would make another attempt, I guess, now I have the strength to ask for help, even if I don't truly believe I deserve it.

I still don't think I am able to just ask for money for nothing though, but if you order a commission right now, that would help a great deal, or if you want you can send whatever tip you are comfortable sending to PayPal [email protected] and send me a note or an ask, I'll draw you a sweet lil sketch of literally anything and anyone you'd wanna see.

I think if I just manage to make it through this month, until the shopowner returns, I'll be able to turn things around. And I think I want to turn things around, and you are part of the reason why. I have met such wonderful people here, and you've all been so sweet, and seeing your art, and sharing mine, and talking about stuff and about characters are some of the nicest memories I have in my life.

So if you're even just reading this, thank you, because chances are, your posts, or art, or messages, or asks, or the tags you've put to my sketches when you reblog it, made me strong enough to want to go on. Thank you so much.

[nobunsonpesach]

One time I looked at @cosmics-canteen ‘s Death Guard OC and remembered that incredible and cursed jelly fridge that randomly appeared on tumblr a few years ago and I haven’t seen or heard about it since, but he image is burned into my mind -

Look at them. They have the same bellies 🥺💚

And it’s about time I draw him too, because Cosmic your children are adorable 🥰

@cosmics-canteen ‘s Muskeg and my mutant cultist OC who made some questionable decisions

[cosmics-canteen]

I had to draw them together too!! Such a bountiful harvest from Nurgle’s garden!

I would love to know more about your lovely mutant cultist oc 🥺 she looks like such a sweetie

[nobunsonpesach]

OMG OMG look at them! Frens! Just chillin!!!! 🥰✨🌹💚

I have a soft spot for Death Guard wielding farm equipment… like father like sons… they just look so good and organic with their scythes and hayforks and idk sickles…. Farm bois, friends of nature! In a better timeline Guilliman and Mortarion would have a farm together, and Mortarion’s biggest problem would be to explain to this nepo baby how soil works…

Oooh and you wanna know about her?? 🥺🥺🥺 I can write what I know!!!

I even sat down and made a proper art because there is no work tomorrow and yay I have time!

I have no idea how to name her yet, because originally it was a self insert - but the more I looked at her the more I realized that she’s her own girl with her own story, and there are some things she does I’d never do 😅

Essentially she is a Chaos Cultist, but her cult is just one person, and the only reason she is still alive and even has some sort of protection from the big mean four is that they find her just very fcing amusing xD

She is a cook! A Chaos Cook. The book in her hands is the Chaos Cookbook of the Ruinous Recipes, written entirely by her - some recipes she comes up with herself, but there are a few there she unearthed or perfected! And everything she cooks is like *really* messed up in a very Warpy Chaosy way - and the thing is that the hundreds of recipes here are divided almost equally between the Chaos Gods that benefit from the cursed meal’s effect - she has Berserker Biscuits for Khorne that will make you like super strong for a little while, but also you might or might not get just a liiiitle batshit insane, Pomegranate Pox Pastry that tastes great and can cure some minor injuries, but there is a chance you’ll develop a mild case of pomegranate seeds growing on your skin…. Magnificent Memory Marmalade that students love to take the night before exams so they can remember EVERYTHING they ever heard about the topic they are asked for - very convenient! Unless you take too much and start remembering things that someone else heard and certainly not you… if it gets too bad, you can also tap into the memories of dead people, and also you won’t be able to stop answering the question the teacher asks you until you say it ALL, even if your throat and tongue starts hurting… But that’s okay, if you get a little too tired from reciting a every memory of every human on a subject you were asked to answer, you might enjoy the next recipe - The Lazania! Yeah, with a “z”, because it’s from the word “lazy” :з There is nothing wrong with it! No, really! It’s very good! And you won’t even have to get up for seconds - because it multiplies in your tummy the moment you start feeling even a tiny bit hungry! And the taste and the fullness returns - tastier than before! And if you’re worried you’d get bored of Lazania’s taste…. You won’t :> It’s magical, silly! It will feel as good as the first bite, if not better - forever! Or, uh, at least for some impressive amount of time. The only downside I can think of - although I wouldn’t really call it a downside - is, well, one might get a little bit plump with their belly being just a tad too full for months…. But come on, the Galaxy is a harsh and cold place, what’s wrong with a bit of softness?…

Soooo yeah, that’s her… The, how the imperial and chaos aligned humans call her, Chaos Cook, Writer of Ruinous Recipes, Princess of Poison, Mistress of Malevolent Meals, Perverse Patissier, Empyrean Epicurean… Looking to Indulge in the Immaterium? Taste the Torture or Tranquility? Sample the freshest Sashimi from the Sea of Souls? - Look no further! Actually, don’t look for her at all. She doesn’t have a shop or a cafe. Leave the door open when you sit down for a meal, put a plate and a glass for her - and she might come join you, and bring some treats! Good luck…

[cosmics-canteen]

God I absolutely ADORE her and I hope you do more with this character!! Her color palette and details are soo pleasing!

[nobunsonpesach]

Waaaa thank you 🥹✨ I will draw more of her, I absolutely can picture her bringing treats to all your pretty chaos charm boys! And they are all sooo colourful too! I almost forgot what fun traditional colouring can be, this will be a good reason to practice that ;з

[nobunsonpesach]

One time I looked at @cosmics-canteen ‘s Death Guard OC and remembered that incredible and cursed jelly fridge that randomly appeared on tumblr a few years ago and I haven’t seen or heard about it since, but he image is burned into my mind -

Look at them. They have the same bellies 🥺💚

And it’s about time I draw him too, because Cosmic your children are adorable 🥰

@cosmics-canteen ‘s Muskeg and my mutant cultist OC who made some questionable decisions

[cosmics-canteen]

I had to draw them together too!! Such a bountiful harvest from Nurgle’s garden!

I would love to know more about your lovely mutant cultist oc 🥺 she looks like such a sweetie

[nobunsonpesach]

OMG OMG look at them! Frens! Just chillin!!!! 🥰✨🌹💚

I have a soft spot for Death Guard wielding farm equipment… like father like sons… they just look so good and organic with their scythes and hayforks and idk sickles…. Farm bois, friends of nature! In a better timeline Guilliman and Mortarion would have a farm together, and Mortarion’s biggest problem would be to explain to this nepo baby how soil works…

Oooh and you wanna know about her?? 🥺🥺🥺 I can write what I know!!!

I even sat down and made a proper art because there is no work tomorrow and yay I have time!

I have no idea how to name her yet, because originally it was a self insert - but the more I looked at her the more I realized that she’s her own girl with her own story, and there are some things she does I’d never do 😅

Essentially she is a Chaos Cultist, but her cult is just one person, and the only reason she is still alive and even has some sort of protection from the big mean four is that they find her just very fcing amusing xD

She is a cook! A Chaos Cook. The book in her hands is the Chaos Cookbook of the Ruinous Recipes, written entirely by her - some recipes she comes up with herself, but there are a few there she unearthed or perfected! And everything she cooks is like *really* messed up in a very Warpy Chaosy way - and the thing is that the hundreds of recipes here are divided almost equally between the Chaos Gods that benefit from the cursed meal’s effect - she has Berserker Biscuits for Khorne that will make you like super strong for a little while, but also you might or might not get just a liiiitle batshit insane, Pomegranate Pox Pastry that tastes great and can cure some minor injuries, but there is a chance you’ll develop a mild case of pomegranate seeds growing on your skin…. Magnificent Memory Marmalade that students love to take the night before exams so they can remember EVERYTHING they ever heard about the topic they are asked for - very convenient! Unless you take too much and start remembering things that someone else heard and certainly not you… if it gets too bad, you can also tap into the memories of dead people, and also you won’t be able to stop answering the question the teacher asks you until you say it ALL, even if your throat and tongue starts hurting… But that’s okay, if you get a little too tired from reciting a every memory of every human on a subject you were asked to answer, you might enjoy the next recipe - The Lazania! Yeah, with a “z”, because it’s from the word “lazy” :з There is nothing wrong with it! No, really! It’s very good! And you won’t even have to get up for seconds - because it multiplies in your tummy the moment you start feeling even a tiny bit hungry! And the taste and the fullness returns - tastier than before! And if you’re worried you’d get bored of Lazania’s taste…. You won’t :> It’s magical, silly! It will feel as good as the first bite, if not better - forever! Or, uh, at least for some impressive amount of time. The only downside I can think of - although I wouldn’t really call it a downside - is, well, one might get a little bit plump with their belly being just a tad too full for months…. But come on, the Galaxy is a harsh and cold place, what’s wrong with a bit of softness?…

Soooo yeah, that’s her… The, how the imperial and chaos aligned humans call her, Chaos Cook, Writer of Ruinous Recipes, Princess of Poison, Mistress of Malevolent Meals, Perverse Patissier, Empyrean Epicurean… Looking to Indulge in the Immaterium? Taste the Torture or Tranquility? Sample the freshest Sashimi from the Sea of Souls? - Look no further! Actually, don’t look for her at all. She doesn’t have a shop or a cafe. Leave the door open when you sit down for a meal, put a plate and a glass for her - and she might come join you, and bring some treats! Good luck…