Meru

Check out my game here!https://meo-eiru.itch.io/hold-your-tongues Commissions Closed! meo_eiru on twitter and insta 21 (she/her)

[meo-eiru]

🌸Welcome🌸

⋆˚✿˖° About me °˖✿˚⋆

I'm Meru, she/her, 21 years old. I mostly draw my original yanderes. I'm still new to writing instead of telling my stories purely through art so please bear with me :D

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⋆˚✿˖° Rules °˖✿˚⋆

‼️Minors DNI‼️

🚫Stay away from my blog if you use and/or support the use of generative AI🚫

🚫Do not repost my art without credits, if you want to share it on tumblr or twitter just reblog/retweet and if you want to do it on another site give a link to the original post and write my name🚫

‼️This account contains yandere and non-con content, if you are uncomfortable with these topics please block me‼️

‼️I only draw and write female darlings but I'm fine with male or gn darlings being used while creating fan-content of my characters‼️

While I am ok with most things I won't be answering asks that are too personal. While all traumas, coping mechanisms, sexual identities and experiences deserve being recognized, I'm not a professional and can make mistakes handling certain topics.

I read every single ask I get, sometimes it's hard thinking of an answer for them or something similar has been asked before so please don't take it personally if I fail to reply to you. Also while I sometimes reply to certain asks about my OCs with drawings, I don't take requests so please don't request me to draw a certain type of character.

I'm ok with you making fanart, fanfic or other fan content of my characters as long as you credit me and you are free to tag me if you want me to see it!

Please don't send me asks and/or dms just saying "hello", talking about how your day went or how you are feeling.

!!Before you send an ask about Silas or Elias!!

🌸Masterlist🌸

The app and brushes I use for drawing

Ongoing Poll

⋆˚✿˖° Have fun! °˖✿˚⋆

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God, meru, I LOVE all the yandere ideas you have; they are literally so creative, seriously, I can't wait to see them ALL. Thank you so much for all the variety, art, and fun regarding yanderes 😭❤️❤️

I don't get to reply to these types of asks that often but I just wanted to say that I always read them and each time, without a miss, they make my entire day🥹🫶

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Your dragon hybrid has charmed me. I will get that man pregnant.

You know I've been thinking about this. There are a lot of asks and comments wanting to get him pregnant but I'm actually not too sure how to go about it. Since he's a dragon hybrid and all I'm sure I could bs a magical explanation for him getting mpreg'ed but my original idea was actually handing him a dragon hybrid egg for him to love and take care of.

The egg would probably eventually crack and a little dragon child for you two would pop out of it but the nesting era before it is what interests me. I just find the image of him nesting with the egg kinda cute. Though putting a baby in him in itself is also attractive. Might make a poll about this in the future to decide.

Also, some people might've noticed but I haven't been using the yandere tags for him. Honestly I'm not sure if he'd count as one. He's definitely obsessed with you, cries when you're not around and wants to be your wife and all but it's more in a comedic way? It's a "you and you only" situation but it also feels like he's too much of a fragile little blorbo to count as a yandere.

[meo-eiru]

Hello! Sorry if you had previously answered something like this, but I wanted to ask for when your game comes out- would you ever consider merch? I had a vision of those muscle body plushies being used on Silas.

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Yes! Long time followers might know but doing merch of the boys is one of those things I've been wanting to do for a veeery long time. I'm an avid oshikatsu do'er so I love all sorts of merch.

Not sure if it'd exactly happen on release but you can definitely expect merch sooner or later.

[meo-eiru]

Also regarding our recent Patreon poll. Thank you to everyone who participated!

Not too surprisingly Silas was the winner

Been having a lot of thoughts so hopefully you guys will enjoy what I come up with

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Another patreon sketch! Had a lot of fun with this one as well!

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Another patreon sketch! Had a lot of fun with the pose of this one

[meo-eiru]

Hello idk if you will read this or Tumblr would destroy it but I want to share something I find about Yandere fan so interesting.

In most Otome isekais and romantasy manhwas, they are set in mostly the Victorian era. In this era, specifically the late Victorian era, books about domestic lives were pretty popular among women and romance fans. So I find it interesting that the reader/MC can be in any book regardless of how ordinary or interesting their life can be because it doesn't matter, it can still be plausibly written in books and people can be fans of it in Yandere fans world. So it makes Yandere fan so terrifying yet interesting because even if you live a very peaceful and ordinary life, you can still be in a plausible book in another world!

Yes! And I just find the general contrast in the setting fun honestly. We are quite used to reading stories where the main character gets isekaid into that Victorian-esque fantasy world she used to read about. Her world is still the reality to both her and us, the readers.

But what if this normal, real modern world we are so used to is the fiction? What if we are the book character someone is currently reading about? We go to sleep each time they close the book, and when they go back to reading our everyday life continues.

Maybe there's someone out there who is currently spending a shit ton of money to get your can badge from the randomized goods, or maybe they are currently hanging a poster on their wall with your face on it. Maybe we have the oshikatsu culture we have now because it was actually invented in the real world and someone wrote it into our story.

Maybe there's a guy out there who read the book about you a billion times, has written x reader fanfictions about you and him from his Victorian style mansion and is insane about you so much so that he'll get involved with some fucked up magic to make you, his oshi, real.

[meo-eiru]

Hii i wonder if know any media just imagine picture as mc with whatever is..like fanfic and arts.

My question is do your game is disabilities friendly to gamers? :0

Sorry for my grammar messy.

This was actually a very interesting question and actually got me considering how disability friendly my game was which was unfortunately not something I had thought about as much as I probably should.

I did some research, and since Seeping into your Heart will be a visual novel with no gameplay besides reading I believe it should be fairly accessible. I'm planning to use some glitch effects occasionally either with the texts or the background but I don't think there'll be anything major enough to cause comfort.

But I would love to hear and learn more about how certain disabilities could affect playing visual novels. Since I'm working on everything alone I'm not sure exactly how much I can do, but I want to at least keep those in mind as I develop the game.

[meo-eiru]

Would it ever be possible to commission you to delve deeper into some of the other yandere concepts you've had? I think a lot about yandere ex boyfriend...

You really don't have to commission me for that haha, I'm already planning to dive deeper into most of them once I get Seeping into your Heart out of the way.

Fun fact about yandere ex boyfriend, I think him being insane and all (with his fashion sense also being the way it is) he'd probably be quite popular with the "crazy" crowd like people involved in jirai-kei or menhera subcultures but then they'd see him stabbing himself in the stomach or something because you were refusing to reply to his text messages and go "woah woah I didn't think you were THAT crazy I'm out of here",... which was what you tried to do but unfortunately he's stuck to you like a cursed glue.

[meo-eiru]

I get asks regarding how I draw male bodies quite often and maybe I can make a more detailed post about it in the future but honestly the main 2 tricks are:

Having a possibly questionable obsession with the combat type robot trooper from Castle in the Sky

Learning about male anatomy and then wrecking those rules to give all the men you draw impossibly snatched waists

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Also now that I have my laptop back I can continue posting my patreon sketches wohoo

[meo-eiru]

I'm back from my vocation🥳

First off on today's news: We have a new Patreon poll for who our next nsfw drawing will be about right here! As stated in the benefits the poll will be available for Micah's Flower and Silas' Baby tiers. I talked about it there too but originally I was planning to only have the boys I hadn't drawn yet as the options, but since we haven't had a proper nsfw drawing in a while I decided to add everyone (Also I saw a hot muscular guy wearing a pink collar on my twitter tl and now an image of Silas wearing one or maybe putting a cute pretty one on you is clouding my mind)

Other than that, now that I'm done with unpacking I went back to writing Elias' route. The more I work on this game the more I'm convinced I can't make a fully sfw version because even if I delete all the sex scenes there's still some quite disturbing scenes that'd make the game AT LEAST 16+. Though making it fully sfw wasn't my intention from the start, I just want to make a version that won't get people banned if they stream it or something.

Down below is me yapping about my vocation and some new yandere ideas I got I'd like to post about in the future👇

God I had SO MUCH fun. Visited Vienna, Salzburg and a bit of Munich. All the sceneries were incredible and I made so many magical memories. I think my top 3 would be going to the Belvedere Museum to see The Kiss by Gustav Klimt (and all the other incredible art works), watching a live classical music concert in the Karlskirche and finding a small hidden bookstore called Neues Leben in Salzburg. God guys, if you're ever in Salzburg PLEASE pay that bookstore a visit I genuinely couldn't believe how old some of the books there were.

I also visited a smaller church with a garden that was EXACTLY how I imagined the church Micah works at would look like, so I took a billion pics as one does. I collected so many background reference worthy pics for Micah, Ciaran and Dana this visit it was amazing.

As for the new yandere ideas I had, I'll let my notes app notes do the talking:

These are still just concepts (you can see them progressively getting more detailed lol) but it was fun coming up with new stuff as I walked around. Would really like to post about them (especially the last two) eventually down the road when I have the time to fully design and develop them.

[meo-eiru]

Bad news: I was planning to post my patreon sketches throughout my vocation so the account wouldn’t be left empty but my dumb ass forgot to save them with the right watermark before leaving so I haven’t been able to

Good news: I’ll cut the vocation short since I realized I didn’t have much to do at the last location anyway so I’ll be returning home before the week ends and will be able to post them yay

[meo-eiru]

I don’t speak about my private life that often here but I’m actually omw to a short trip to Vienna🥳 Exactly what I needed to relax after my finals and I’ll get to see The Kiss by Gustav Klimt too.

I’m planning to take lots of pics as inspo for seeping into your heart. We were talking about it with a friend and they asked me if I’ll just use filtered pictures for the backgrounds to save time but the issue is I have a very specific vision for everything and I can’t find pics that really do it for me. I’ll most likely take my own reference pictures and then draw the backgrounds myself.

And if you were wonder “how specific of a vision”, I planned out a whole floor plan for the darling and Elias’ house

[meo-eiru]

Jealous

I had my last finals exam today so a little something to relax.

Unfortunately the original image's size was too big for tumblr so if you want a higher res version you can find it here on my Patreon! It'll be free to view!

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I've always wondered, what if instead of Dana winning his inicial poll, what if other options won? if I remember correctly there was an actor idea !!😮 (I love Dana regardless !!)

Yeah we had a yandere actor, a yandere ex boyfriend and a yandere fan

Yandere actor was actually who I was voting for at the time lol, I just really like his visuals. Although I didn't have as much story planned out for him, I feel like he'd be quite the fun yandere.

Yandere ex boyfriend was actually a character I saw in a dream. The story idea was basically that you broke up with him because he was literally insane but he just kept chasing you around, like would physically run after you if he caught you scent or something.

Yandere fan on the other hand is a character I've had in my head looong before I started posting on tumblr. The idea is basically: In a normal otome isekai story we usually have the main character who was a fan of some novel or game, getting reincarnated into that story and meeting the characters she liked oh so much.

But what if YOU were the said fictional character, living your normal life in our very normal world, except none of it is real, you're not real, it's all a book and the fantasy worlds in otome isekai series are the actual real worlds.

Long story short he's a fan of that book and is insane about you. You're his oshi, he has a whole room full of merch of you, and eventually decided to use magic to make you real because who wouldn't want to make their fictional crush real am I right? So now you're in this strange fantasy world with a guy who has his walls covered with your face.