[nocontrol0913]

Nobody:

Me: Ok, but like, what if they were all resident doctors? Why haven't people made them doctors yet??

Comic based on a fic I’m posting, A Taste of Your Own Medicine. It's a comedy! (well, there's some eventual drama so a dramedy, I guess? I mean, how else do you keep things interesting?)

Give it a read if you’re looking for some fun and laughs. Excerpt below!

[lana7779]

Two dudes brushing their teeth together 0 inches apart cause they're not gay! 💃

[nocontrol0913]

Things have been way too busy lately. This panel was supposed to be part of another comic from the fic but it and a few others have been sitting around abandoned for a couple months now, so maybe having it stare at me here will motivate me to eventually finish it.

New chapter today of the doctors comedy/dramedy AU. Give it a read !

[nocontrol0913]

I made it in time (it's still 4/15 here)! Happy birthday, Cheng Xiaoshi! Just remember, even if Lu Guang acts annoyed, he's just as obsessed with you as you are him (if not more so...)

[nocontrol0913]

Alright, @degenerateshinji , here's the DTIYS attempt. I did not, in fact, try that perspective, and I supposed this is before they get the meat treat. too

[zetsho]

this didnt need to be set in manga high school im just a weeb

[degenerateshinji]

nonverbalguang DTIYS!!! Please tag me in your post🥹

[ceoofdoomedyuri]

This took me so long, I'm dying. Why do I do this to myself (drawing)

[nocontrol0913]

Ok… I’ve been in a bit of a writing slump, to the point where it almost feels like a block. It’s weird, and for those of you who have followed my fics, you probably know I had a good run where I was writing like crazy (almost a year, in fact). But recently, for maybe the last three months, I’ve managed to write only about one chapter of a new story. Thankfully, this block hasn’t seeped into editing, and since my fics are fully written before posting, if you’re following either of my two current ones you don’t really have to worry about a delay due to this.

It’s been a bit frustrating though (I have a newfound sympathy to anyone facing writers block). I’ve had new ideas, and like, there’s at least 10-15 others in my ‘ideas’ doc, including a fully completed outline that’s been begging to be written since… September??  (and another ~85% completed fic that I haven't been able to write the ending for for almost a year now). I was beginning to think maybe my Link Click hyper-fixation was starting to wane, even though the art and current stories still have me pretty invested. 

Turns out, it’s not that, because today I’m sitting here trying to write this additional happy scene for one of my stories, having the same issues, when into my head pops this new idea for a scene that could relate to it that I could write. So I give it a try, and I do. In one sitting, in a matter of an hour or two, it’s completely done. But it’s not the happy scene I set out to finish - the one I need to write, the most important one. No, this is the made-myself-ugly-cry-again angst scene that the fic arguably didn’t need.

So yea, I guess that's the answer. Angst. It’s what fuels me. I thought I was a changed person with this new comedy fic but turns out, nope.

Y’all… pray for LG and CXS in my stories, because they're so fucked… (but I guess that's the case in canon, too, so...)

(and if you're interested or need a cry or laugh, username is the same on ao3)

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Here's another attempt at Qiao Ling, @miranimator . This time I'm trying full body!

I have this headcanon that when they were growing up, Qiao Ling would make Cheng Xiaoshi do things like dress up and paint his nails with her. Cheng Xiaoshi would whine and protest, but deep down, I think we all know he enjoyed it at least a little.

So here's Qiao Ling painting Cheng Xiaoshi's nails!

[nocontrol0913]

Inspired by @degenerateshinji and their upcoming fic. Once again, I forgot to draw Cheng Xiaoshi's camera, so we'll assume that in his awe of seeing Lu Guang, he accidentally kicked it into the sea (or lake? where does this take place?). That's believable, right?

[nocontrol0913]

Happy (late) birthday, Qiao Ling!

Thanks for the inspiration to try to draw Qiao Ling, @miranimator . Maybe I'll have to try to incorporate her into things more often.

[intothefrisson]

This is how lg is looking at him btw

[degenerateshinji]

drew this request on stream!! i like this one,,🥹🥹

[nocontrol0913]

I read @degenerateshinji 's magical girl AU fic and felt compelled to draw something (thanks for this inspiration, I’ve been stuck for a minute). I think this is the fastest I’ve ever cranked something more complex out (that being said, still super inefficient – like I noticed all these time-lapse videos and realized only then that procreate is automatically recording and watched it and idk how y'all get such good results with so few ‘draft phases’??? (but ig it wasn’t as bad as I expected))

I was neutral on Lu Guang in a dress before but this outfit is so fucking cute, and it was very fun to draw (and I get it now, guys, I get it, you've converted me.) (And great character designs, Tay - both outfits are so cute)

If you haven’t read the fic, go do that (I read it in one sitting and unlike many of you, I’m not a fast reader ). It’s super interesting and well done and…. Well, you know, canon typical angst 😭. Also, I read your little answer thing about how you initially planned to end this fic and why am I more devastated now with the actual ending??? 😭😭😭

Anyways, here’s some fan art, I hope you enjoy it, thanks for the brain worm and pain!

[degenerateshinji]

If requests are open can we pretty please have Lu Guang utterly surrounded by cats

Is this enough cats anon did u need more

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This post is inspired by @ceoofdoomedyuri who has been doing an excellent post series where they break down song lyrics they feel fit LG/CXS/Shiguang dynamics (consider reading some of their posts). Since I also love music and Link Click, I figured why not (and hopefully they don’t mind me jumping in on this and yapping alongside them — I told you, music and Shiguang are my weaknesses 😅🤣)

I have not chosen a song off their list and in solidarity, have decided to go with one y’all might side eye me for initially — something a little less overt than the ones I usually think of for them.

Song: Ghost - Coheed and Cambria

The lyrics :

I fuss and fight my curiosity With welcome arms and frightened fingers, twitched anxiety How am I to know? How am I to know?

As a boy, I watched the world through broken eyes Given to me by a man, his wife, and all they had disguised Uncertainty now keeps me asking how I’ll lead the most As they became, or will I teach the examples of their ghost?

Free me From this body I just wanna, wanna be on the outside Looking in (on you...) Free me From this body I just wanna, wanna be on the outside Looking in Free me Free me

I really love this band (probably my favorite English speaking one at this point), but most of their albums are concept albums based in their own story/world and I wouldn’t say fit Shiguang easily. This is one that I think can fit them (though you may have to bear with me and the lyrics aren’t perfect for it)

This song is originally about the singer's anxiety surrounding becoming a parent, the worry that he will mess up. Clearly that has nothing to do to with Shiguang, but I do feel some of the lyrics can relate to them if looked at in a different way. 

I think that this fandom can universally agree that whether you see LG and CXS’s relationship as romantic, platonic, or queer-platonic, there is a deep love/bond between these two, and I think this song fits with any relationship dynamic interpretation. 

I see this song specifically coming from LG’s perspective (big surprise, I know)

I fuss and fight my curiosity With welcome arms and frightened fingers, twitched anxiety How am I to know? How am I to know?

Again, this song is about someone becoming a new parent, about the birth of a child, but in this instance, these lyrics could be read relating to LG’s experience with jumping back in time. In a way, each repeat cycle is like a ‘rebirth’ of CXS (especially when he starts from the beginning). LG is fighting that need to fix past mistakes, to keep CXS alive, wondering what could be and how he can get to a future he wants. The whole situation has to be anxiety provoking, both in the sense of remeeting CXS, all the unknowns, and the question of how he does this and succeeds.

I also think the line about welcome arms and frightened fingers could represent an internal desire from LG. He has such a familiarity with CXS, but when he goes back to the beginning and CXS doesn’t even know his name, LG has to hold back. That must be so hard for him. I could see him having this impulse to move, to be closer, to resume the relationship he had and yearns for again, but because there is no history for CXS at that point, LG has to restrain himself -- has to fight that twitched anxiety and hurt that goes with it. 

As a boy, I watched the world through broken eyes Given to me by a man, his wife, and all they had disguised Uncertainty now keeps me asking how I’ll lead the most As they became, or will I teach the examples of their ghost?

Second verse is harder to make an argument for and takes some theory/assumptions. Again, in the original context of the song, this is noting mistakes the singer's parents made and his fear of repeating those same things with his child. From a LG POV, the first lines make me think about what we’ve seen with the S3 PV. There’s a lot of theorizing that LG didn’t have the best home life, that abuse may be at play, and then we see him with CXS,  he may be the first person who’s ever shown LG caring and concern. That would be an explanation for why LG has bonded so strongly to him (despite him seeming more reserved with others). 

So that’s the context I see here, a reference to the past, to the importance CXS has played in his life, taking him from someone broken to someone not so broken (at least until CXS died and this whole nightmare started). The second half doesn’t fit when taken literally, but in a broader sense, could be looked at as a sentiment related to LG’s internal struggle with uncertainty in this time looping. How can he make this time different? Will he repeat the past mistakes that lead to CXS dying again, will he fail again and let CXS down because of that (maybe drawings  parallel to his parents failing him as a support piece, if we want to bring the parental theme back into it). Additionally, this could be looking at the ghost of LG's prior actions and that lead to the same mistakes/final outcome with CXS’s death and not wanting to repeat it. 

Free me From this body I just wanna, wanna be on the outside Looking in (on you...) Free me From this body I just wanna, wanna be on the outside Looking in

I think in the original context, this goes back to that fear of fucking up your kid, that it’s easier to watch as an observer rather being in it where the consequences/stakes are so much higher. Relating this to LG’s POV, I can see it as having two meanings. With relation to the “freeing me from this body,” this hits me with him jumping. He needs to free himself from the body/reality where CXS no longer exists. He can’t live with that, and can’t stand to live that existence, would rather be outside of it, only to look back on it (looking back on fond memories, and then looking back on those he regrets to try to change things). 

Another way I would interpret this goes along with the theory/prediction that when LG says that the current jump is his last chance, this is referring to him stopping the looping, and in particular, that the next time if he fails, he will go back and never meeting CXS or trade his life for CXS’s. Though LG wants to succeed and be with CXS (as evidence of what he’s currently doing), I think he’d do anything to keep him alive, whether that be giving him up by never meeting him because LG assumes his presence in CXS’s life is the initial trigger that sets his death node (being on the outside looking in ) or in LG's own death, sacrificing/trading his life to save CXS (freeing him from this body)

So overall, looking at this from LG’s position, this song could be about regrets of the past, fear of what to come/how he could fuck it up, and a yearning to succeed or in a way, be removed from the situation if it meant succeeding in saving CXS. 

Hopefully that makes sense and y’all can see where I’m coming from with this, even though the song's intended meaning is a bit different from how I feel it could fit to them (also, now I really relate to those comments you’ve made to justify your stance 🤣). Also, give the song a listen if you haven't heard it (it's so pretty)