「 F L O R E N C E H A S T I N G S 」
Deep down, Florence had a feeling she knew where Noël was going with all this. The two of them had no secrets, she had told him about her relationship with Clayton and, knowing her as well as he did, he had read between the lines. Except Flo was fully in denial about this and, despite Noël’s calm demeanour, somehow felt like she had betrayed him. “That’s… Clay’s in the past, Noël. It didn’t work out and there’s probably a reason for that,” she said quickly, trying to convince herself as well as him. Truth was, she had no idea what the reason was exactly, which wasn’t helpful in terms of closure.
“I’ve done plenty of exploring back in L.A. Seriously, way too much exploring. Those days are behind me, now I have to be solid and grown-up. For you and Rory. When would I even have time to date with a baby permanently attached to my boob?” Dating was always dramatic and complicated and she was a mother now. Mother’s didn’t just take the night off for a date with a man that wasn’t their significant other. Her upbringing had been so atypical and she wanted the opposite for Rory. She wanted normal and stable. “Not to mention you assume Clay wants to be with me and we don’t know that. What if I say something and he just… I don’t know, laugh? i would never live down the embarrassment.”
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“If he is in the past, then that is fine. And if he resurfaces, that is also fine.” Noël looked at Florence, unconvinced by her words, but never willing to accuse her of their own invalidity. When she was ready, if she was ready, she would face her heart knowing she had his support to do so. “It is not that kind of exploring.” He trumpeted out a sigh. “This would not make you any less solid. That is what I am trying to say to you. Trying and failing.” Noël’s hand would leave Florence’s, only to cup the side of her face as he met her gaze, thumb gently stroking her cheek. “He would not laugh. I have seen the way his eyes light up when you’re the topic of conversation. And I see it in you, too.”
A smile pursed on Noël’s lips, subtle but present. “I am mad about you, you know this. But there are many ways to form a family. And this is no less valid just because it is not conventional. I loved Hilarie and Gavin’s children as my own. They are no less well-adjusted for having had me in their lives. I know what is in your heart, your fear, your desire for our daughter to have more than what you had. But I also know that our daughter would want a mother who is fulfilled, completely fulfilled. But if you are telling me there is nothing, then I will never bring it up again.”
















