i’ll write about what i do. i dunno if i’ll ever get the chance to talk about it.
no faff is a small zine series I sometimes work on and it is a collection of jokes/ideas/pictures that don’t fit elsewhere. or things that would fit into no faff. I always make double the content of each thing, and then end up culling it down. even though it always looks so scrappy i have that whole perfectionist thing.
do i make it? i feel like it’s another way to express my self and to engage with people who like what i do. i have gotten a lot of reward from it. although i want it to kind of, speak for me, its often just a barage of dumb jokes. gotta detatch if you want to survive in the end. the personal stuff gets taken out anyway, but bits remain.
its made by folding an a3 page into 8s (doing the x fold) and then just drawing, cutting and gluing. over time i’ve wanted to put more substance into the limited space. the writing and drawings have increased.
is it about? sometimes i hope it reflects on what i was into at that time.
the first few are just kinda playing round with the form, celebrating scrappiness and tropes of other magazines (reviews, journalism, games, travel) through a kind of made up lense.
the third and fourth were put out during the happiest period of my life, when i was doing printmaking and art classes and feeling at home with myself.
the fifth, i dont even know. was done in the holidays at a cross roads when i’d started seeing someone at the start of 2nd semester. then she went back to america on the last day of semester, and at the end of all this i felt very lost.
issue six was finished on christmas eve and a week before i tried to kill my self by overdose. that had just been ideation till new years.
issue 7 i think was the most personal. it was made to kind of deal with that. on the front is a bullywug which is what i’d hope to reincarnate as. also on the front are the tools of self destruction. i took a lot out of the inside, but i think the front and back express what i want sorta. i barely showed this one to anyone. I’d be surprised if more than five people have it. also weirdly 6 and 7 were put out at the bookends of a messy affair thing that ran inbetween. i lost 2 of my biggest supporters. they were the people i did everything for in a way. and myself. but you know. its nice to have people who like you and what you do. r.i.p.
god i dunno what issue 8 will be about. the message of these things get scrambled anyway, which is how i want it. you know, when i feel like it that’ll be put out. if theres no urgency, well, what real reason?
its about perth perth perth and my relationship to perth and western australia.
when i feel like it, so many things fill up the days and they slip on past. i’m gainfully unemployed and its working out for me. i’m feeling a bit happier, except when i think about that person or the first months of 2016.
i think i’m working on some new things with new people which will be good.
i think it will all turn out good in the end.
someone in a documentary said “a lifetime is hmm, 80 years, not 3 months”. he was talking about his artist residence for mentally ill people who will probably stay there indefinately but supposedly happy making their art. i thought this was comforting.
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