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https://youtu.be/SS008T3o_ws

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I'm not mad that my car nearly got stolen, the only thing that bothers me is that even after you could have contacted me you never did. I absolutely hate the way I felt all last/morning. Anger and anxiety are not a fun combo and having to sit with that for 14 hours was fucking hell. I rode my bike down Coburg around 4am bc I couldn't just sit here any longer but not knowing what was going on. Finally passed out for a few hours when I came back due to an extremely large shot just to try to quiet my head and you still hadn't said anything when I woke up. So that's why it's the last time not because someone else took it, that wasn't really on you, I have asked you every single time to just check in occasionally bc it'll make me stop panicking so intensely even just saying you would be heading back soon would have been enough anything would have been better than not saying anything and just showing back up here thinking it would be ok. So sorry for 'making a scene' but that all could have been easy avoided with a single text.

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I missed a call from my Google voice number... the only thing I can think is that it was you and even though I removed you you're still signed in to my account

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After all the video snaps I've gotten from d tonight my body is def telling me i need something that its been missing for about a month now.... fuck he very cute and totally my type aside from mediocre sex. But i really do enjoy kissing him...i kinda miss that the most. I wonder if we can still be really good friends... hmm I'm just about 99.9% sure that itll be v easy

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Are you able to see this one too? That would explain a lot...

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Might be getting another cat! Will know in 30 seconds she's av cute little bb from a fellow rehab flunkie, however her first human mom abandoned her with little j and she's had plenty of warning to pick her up, so how i get to lay claim to the lovely lady (i hope, still waiting on little j to come out and tell me yes or no...i really hope i get to take her home)

Yay i get kitty!!!

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Did i need to go do that? Not at all...but i needed a few moments of happiness and bc of the faulty wiring in my brain doesn't matter the actuality of the interaction, seeing fp at all is a rush that is hard to come by aside from drugs (which also is a component of nearly every interaction with him) tonight was especially good, insta bush, from anyone else wouldn't have given me the same feeling, but seeing him so giddy and stupid happy rubbed off on me for the time i was around him. But now I'm back to alone, and my mood has swiftly returned to badbadnotgood. No one that i want to see wants to come distract me, and the one who was going to be my distraction got arrested because of his own stupidity and his baby mommas pettiness. I'll go take care of her myself, she's causing me to have to feel tonight and I'm not pleased

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Might be an emotional wreck but the thought of possibly fucking fp again later makes me all the kinds of excited

However his exact words were "let me know if you're gonna die so i can fuck your dead body" which raises a few questions.

But overall, I'm sad that it didn't go to you. I know you wanted it which is why I offered. No alteleior motives, you still matter to me which is apparently srupid of me to feel that way because i dont mean shit to you now.

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I was wondering how long it would be before he needed a haircut...love hair days

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How to hate myself more than i already do.... that.

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Well fuk i said we souls go to blair under the assumption that he was not work tonight and ofc hes here if i dont want to be seen in public with him there's an issue

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I love this dude so fucking much, let him meet my family already....he special... 😍

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This couldn't get any better eeek hes here ill give the full report later. AHHHH I COULD SCREAM RN SO INSTEAD IM SCREAMING HERE

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And he already relapsed ohboy this is gonna be fun

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LETS FUCKING GO ITS HAPPENING IN 6 MINUTES IM FUCKING PUMPED HOLY SHIT I NEVER THOUGHT THIS DAY WOULD COME HENSE THE ALL CAPS IM SO FUCKING EXCITED OHMYGOD

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I'm still doing the same bullshit... but this time i (probably very stupidly) have a great feeling about it... but the whole taurus rising means im going to have to break the friendzone that i shouldn't have created...i fell for him so fast, as i do while making a new fp bond with someone. He's very sweet, very fun and very attractive and i know it could have been going the right way had i not gotten scared and pushed away like that. Now i have to pull 10x harder to que him into the fact that i want more than best buds.

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Why did i do this to myself... if right he's honestly the person ive connected to the most in a long time... I'm a little obsessed