unprincipled, not eclectic

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Reader, I am asking you to please whisper my name out loud. Please whisper my name very quietly. You don't have to tell me about it or provide proof (though you may) but I will interpret you liking this post as confirmation that you've done it, please do not like this post if you haven't whispered my name (honour system). If you care about me you will do this. If you have whispered my name you have my heartfelt gratitude.

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they're saying I'm "dreadful"/don't deserve to live

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I have taken 1,000,000,0 photographs of my tits and I still have literally no idea at all what they look like

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I used a hairbrush to scratch an itch on my body, and it felt so good that now I think my skin is deliberately generating new itches so that I keep having excuses to do it more

[transgenderer]

it's cool that by lowering the brightness of your phone you can directly trade phone battery for visual strain. It's like if you could charge your phone with mental exertion

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I'm too out of touch to really know who Gracie Abrams is, but I played her new album at work today after we got in several copies (oh we sell a bit of vinyl btw) which made me curious what the fuss was about, plus if I'm being honest I was partly influenced by how she looked pretty on the album cover, although moreso when I somehow thought she was wearing boxing gloves (these turned out on closer inspection to be merely her knees), anyway this is just to say I don't know if this stuff can ever truly be my jam but I am really grateful to have heard the lyric "I'm at the corner minimart / someone perceived me, it kinda scarred".

[hymneminium]

Unwise to call someone's failure to recognize a moth a "Humbert Humbert moment"

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Menial chores and drudgery get a bad rap, but really there's something to be said for work that merely demands the application of time and straightforward unglamorous effort and has simple unambiguous parameters for completion. If the only way to unlock the state of having achieved something worthwhile was by doing things that express your values, virtues and personality, well that would soon become a heavy burden I think.

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Look at this book, The Bible by King James. In particular look at the image they've put at the top of the spine. What the fuck, you know? To me it looks like the mouth of a horrible beast, baring its teeth at me. It's unsettling. Perhaps it's more legible to you? Come to a decision about what you think it is before clicking on the readmore.

That's right: it's an old man's eye, who has fallen asleep. Was that obvious to you? I was perplexed until I saw the front cover, but I might be the strange one there.

Was it obvious to you?

I could easily tell it was an old man's eye

The smaller image perplexed me at first

Remaining time: 4 days 15 hours

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I found this obviously self-published book at work that's reduced-to-clear to £1 due to a "printing error". The "printing error" is that instead of having any kind of actual typesetting at all, each page of the book is clearly just a greyscale screenshot from a text published online. The text itself is so small as to be nearly illegible.

The book's title seems to be clumsily SEO-targeted at people searching for two popular "dark romance" books, Nocticadia by Keri Lake and From Blood and Ash by Jennifer L. Armentrout. "Elara Voss" is apparently a name which is frequently generated by LLMs, especially when they're going for dark and mysterious fantasy vibes.

idk how we ended up with this thing!

[perdvivly]

They fit switches in the up/down direction so you can remember if you “turned it on” i.e. gave it an erection. But what if your erection goes to the side? How will you remember if you left the lights on or off?

[nohoperadio]

unfortunate pair of facts: 1] however good a piece of advice is, if it's spoken in a way that feels condescending, dismissive or otherwise annoying then the mind will naturally be inclined to reject it, often even if the advice is on some level understood to be sound, and 2] it's so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so incredibly shockingly difficult not to be annoying while giving someone advice

[toasthaste]

The Birthday Paradox suggests that any group of 57 random people has a 99% likelihood of containing at least two members with a shared birthday. However, this doesn't account for how much rarer leap day birthdays are. You'll find that for each additional group member born on February 29th, the chances of any members sharing a birthday decrease dramatically, eventually reaching 0% if all members were born on that day.

[iamaine]

repeating this to myself as a list of daily affirmations

[nohoperadio]

Today: the kind of very stubborn depressive mood where I couldn't focus on work but also couldn't successfully zone out to any distraction, music and podcasts failed to resolve into any significance, and no idle daydream was forthcoming. Just bitter involuntary presence.

Towards the end of the workday I remembered that I'd forgotten to do my shot again last night and so was now two days overdue, which cheered me up a bit because it suggested a merely chemical diagnosis and remedy. Might not be true but it's a reason to postpone the sense of crisis for now. Have just injected, let's see.

I'm running dangerously low on the juice, there's a bit of a supply shock in the DIY HRT world recently for whatever reason and I procrastinated ordering another vial until way too late. I did place an order on June 15th but had to use a US supplier, and they seemed to already have a big order backlog, mine was stuck on "shipping label created" for a couple weeks, anyway tracking shows it moving now and arrived in the country today.

But the vial I had been using is basically empty already, I've returned to my first ever vial which I initially abandoned once it got low enough to be annoying to draw from, but kept in the cupboard with a view to having an emergency backup in case I somehow need that, I guess this is now the emergency. Hopefully there's not some kind of badness about putting 18-month-old EEn into your self. I think I should now survive the drought unless something new goes wrong with this shipment but I'll be cutting it basically as close as possible, even with me slightly reducing dose for the past month for rationing purposes. My friends don't be foolish and lazy like I was...

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do you ever just think oh, to hell with it all

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Today has been hot. At one point, apropos of very little, I ran my tongue across the back of my teeth. They were warm in the exact way blood is warm. Sunlight has ways to make you sincerely nostalgic for being kicked in the face.