Noir

medical student.. newly diagnosed: DM type 1 with a shitty immune system..

[quilavastudy]

Stop expecting doctors to be robots

You know something that really annoys me? I’ve seen it a fair bit, when non-medical friends, or just people I know/online say things like:

‘My doctor actually googled something when I was in the room with her, how unprofessional!!’

‘My doctor was about to prescribe me something, but before he did he said he had to check in his book for what to give?? Seems pretty incompetent.’

Like, what other careers do we hold to this ridiculous standard of having to remember absolutely everything off the top of their head? Especially in a field where there is A) a ridiculous amount to remember and B) things evolve quickly and change every single damn year. 

Would you think a scientist is not up to scratch if they have to consult some diagrams/reference charts while conducting an experiment? Would you sack your lawyer if they wanted to read up on a specific law for the case? Is a barista useless for checking the recipe for a less-ordered drink? Doctors aren’t robots, and I wish people would realise it is pretty much impossible to remember every single guideline, obscure symptom, and drug dose for every condition. Especially the drugs - we’re literally allowed our BNFs (drug books) in our exams because hun, nobody got time for memorising all that.

Seriously, doctors have the knowledge to piece things together and ask the right questions, that doesn’t mean they have to remember everything - many things are fine to look up. As long as the doctor knows they exist it doesn’t mean they’re incompetent! Surely double-checking can only be a good thing.

(Disclaimer - I know that people probably don’t mean any harm by saying it, and won’t realise how much of a high expectation it is. So I’m not hating. But I just find it annoying lol)

[url-changed-complex-deactivated]

Honestly I’m struggling not to forget everything I know and I’m just a third year, if I were expected to have every single thing there is to know about medicine in my fingertips as a practicing doctor I’d probably spontaneously combust 😂

Like fam… I would trust my doctor MORE if they consulted CMDT or Medscape or UpToDate before prescribing me a medicine… that honestly shows me they won’t pretend to be an almighty hand of life or death, and that they’re not playing around with my health……

[quilavastudy]

Exactly! I’d definitely prefer a doctor who checks UpToDate in front of me, rather than an old-school doctor who confidently, but wrongly uses guidelines that s/he learnt years and years ago.

[noir-21]

👏👏👏👏👏THISSSSS!!!

[journalofamedicalstudent]

Residency

Back from 2 months of vacation (including a 3-week trip to China), due to start residency in 2 days. I feel like I should be excited, but I’m not. It probably doesn’t help that my next year will basically be a glorified 5th year of med school, since I’m only doing off-service rotations in services that I have no interest in. 

It also does not help that I’m starting off this year with 2 whole months of general surgery/transplant service. Then a month of ICU. 

I don’t feel ready. Professionally, mentally, emotionally. I’d much rather stay on vacations for the rest of the summer  of my life. I haven’t even started and I’m already looking forward to my next days off (which, let’s be honest, there aren’t that many of). My motivation is at an all-time-low. I’ll be dragging my feet to the hospital on Monday. 

On another note, I should probably change my Tumblr URL. 

[noir-21]

I believe this is a universal struggle .. starting my internship year in 1 day with zero motivation 😭

P.S note sure how im going to manage diabtetes type 1 with the night shifts / duties and 36 hours of continuous work 😩

[medically-challenged]

FREE MEDICAL PDFs

Anatomy:

1–> KLM for Gross Anatomy

2–> Snell’s Anatomy

3–> BD Churassia

4–> RJ Last

5–> Grey’s Anatomy

6–> Langman Embryology

7–> KLM for Embryology

8–> BD For General Anatomy

9–> Dissector

10–> Di Fore Histology

11–> Junqueira’s Histology

12–> Netter Atlas of human Aantomy

Folder link–> https://drive.google.com/open?id=0B3WdpdsqpX0LYV9KQ3lxY29FY28

Physiology:

1–> Guyton

2–> Ganong

3–> Sheerwood

4–> Sembulingam

Folder link–> https://drive.google.com/open?id=0B3WdpdsqpX0LdXlCSjdZM214dEE

  Biochemistry:

1–> Harper

2–> Lippincott

3–> Chatterjea

4–> Satyanarayan

5–> Stryer

6–> MRS Biochemistry

Folder link–> https://drive.google.com/open?id=0B3WdpdsqpX0Ld0o3WnhCR2VEczg

Pathology:

1–> Big Robins

2–> Medium Robins

3–> Pathoma

4–> Goljan

5–> Harsh Mohan Pathology

6–> Atlas of Histopathology

7–> Levinson

8–> MRS microbiology

9–> Microbiology by Jacquelyn G. Black

10–> Color Atlas of Microbiology

11–> Kaplan Pathology

Folder link–> https://drive.google.com/open?id=0B3WdpdsqpX0LYkRYdjFrTm5MR0U

  Pharmacology:

1–> Big Katzung

2–> Mini Katzung

3–> Kaplan Review

4–> Lippincott

5–> Pocket Katzung

6–> Rang and Dale’s Pharmacology

7–> Atlas of Pharmacology

Folder link–> https://drive.google.com/open?id=0B3WdpdsqpX0LMkE1UUVRZGwtTlU

Forensic Medicine:

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2–> Krishan’s Forensics

3–> Atlas of Autopsy

4–> Atlas of Forensic Medicine

Folder link–> https://drive.google.com/open?id=0B3WdpdsqpX0LQXVwOGoyWnFSV2s

Ophthalmology:

1–> Jogi

2–> Jatoi

3–> Parson’s Textbook of Eye

4–> Kanski

5–> AK Khurana

6–> Atlas of ophthalmology

Folder link–> https://drive.google.com/open?id=0B3WdpdsqpX0LOHc5WVZMdkJjX2M

Otorhinolaryngology:

1–> Dhingra

2–> Logans Turner

3–> Color Atlas of Otorhinolaryngology

4–> Maqbool’s Text Book of ENT

5–> Clinical Methods in ENT by PT Wakode

6–> ENT at a Glance

Folder link–> https://drive.google.com/open?id=0B3WdpdsqpX0LaDY2a0lFNDlfTGc

Community Medicine:

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2–> Mahajan And Gupta Text Book of Community Medicine

3–> Bancroft’s Text Book of Community Medicine

Folder link–> https://drive.google.com/open?id=0B3WdpdsqpX0Lc1RCMml2NjhFNjA

Internal Medicine:

1–> Churchill’s Pocketbook of DD

2–> MTB Step 2 Ck

3–> Davidson Essentials

4–> Davidson Principals and practice

5–> Harrison’s Internal Medicine

6–> Internal Medicine USMLE Nuggets

7–> Internal Medicine on call bt LANGE 8–> Oxfords Specialties

Folder link–>https://drive.google.com/open?id=0B3WdpdsqpX0LeEFJNG5TMlc4eWc

Surgery:

1–> Bailey_love short practice of Surgery

2–> Churchill’s pocketbook of Surgery

3–> Deja Review of surgery

4–> Farquharson’s Textbook of Operative General Surgery

5–> Hamilton Bailey’s Physical Signs

6–> Oxford Handbook of Clinical Surgery

7–> Schwartz’s Principles of Surgery

8–> Macleod’s Clinical Examination

9–> Macleod’s Clinical Diagnosis

Folder link–>https://drive.google.com/open?id=0B3WdpdsqpX0LRFpFSG5hZ1pVWkE

Obstetrics & Gynecology:

1–> Case Discussions in Obstetrics and Gynecology

2–> Deja Review of Obstetrics Gynecology

3–> Obstetrics by Ten Teachers

4–> Gynaecology illustrated

5–> Gynaecology by Ten Teachers

Folder link–>https://drive.google.com/open?id=0B3WdpdsqpX0LMU1LRjFDa1FrbjA

Pediatrics:

1–> Nelson Essentials of Pediatrics

2–> Nelson Complete

3–> Pediatrics Review

Folder link–>https://drive.google.com/open?id=0B3WdpdsqpX0LUkdTQkVuNV92Yzg

I hope this helps everyone, it’s not mine. But has been shared to me and I am sharing this with all of you.

[ashvectors]

It’s #DiabetesAwarenessMonth and I’m making short comics to discuss my experiences and share some general knowledge! Today’s edition: how I rationalized my #T1D symptoms by pretending I was turning into a vampire. Know the signs and pay attention to your body!  

[noir-21]

#DIABETESAWARNESSMONTH

[docresa]

Kinda true :D

[noir-21]

😂😂😂

[noir-21]

Study mode ON!!🤓📚

[whoneedsapancreasanyway]

Who is up for a game of: Diabetic Culture is….?

[noir-21]

Being constantly questioned about eating a 20 carbs worth chocolate, but not understanding that i need to take insulin for rice/salty biscuits..etc 😑🤷‍♀️

[estudying-blog]

“I hear and I forget. I see and I remember. I do and I understand.”          – Confucius 

[estudying-blog]

the curve of forgetting

the curve of forgetting describes how we retain or get of information we absorb.

day 1: you go into a lecture knowing 0% and come out knowing 100% of what you know (regardless of whether you know it extremely well or not)

day 2: you did not do any reviewing of your notes from day 1 therefore you have lost 50%-80%

and as the days progress we forget less and less

think about midterms! notice how around midterms when you’re trying to study for something (that you haven’t been reviewing for regularly) it feels like the material is VERY difficult and almost as if you’ve never learned it before

formula to reshape the curve

within 24 hours of your lecture spend 10 minutes reviewing the material

a week later: it will only take 5 minutes to REACTIVATE the same material

ultimately, you will reshape the curve  

day 30: by this day your brain will only need 2-4 minutes to recall

information on the curve of forgetting was taken from the university of waterloo (x)

my formula to reshape the curve using the information above

before class: spend 10 minutes PREVIEWING the material. 

after class: spend 10 minutes REVIEWING the material

do this regularly. this will be your preview/review system for each class.

a week later: try to review a week later. i know that school/life can get pretty hectic, but try to make sure you are reviewing regularly.

maybe record yourself saying some important details/concepts from your notes the night before and on your daily commute to school plug in those earphones and listen to it. i am an auditory learner and i find that listening to my notes before i go to bed and right when i wake up have truly helped me retain information. studies have shown that the best time to study is right before going to bed and right when you wake up.

a month later: after a month, review what you’ve learned so far in your class. trust me this will be a very very short review. everything will look very familiar to you and it won’t look as difficult as it used to.

basically your review schedule should be the following: 

1 hour before learning the material

1 hour after learning the material (or within 24 hours of learning it b/c i know we’re all very busy people)

1 day later

1 week later

1 month later

remember everyone learns, studies, and retains information differently!! my personal belief is that your technique is what matters most. it is not about your innate ability/talent. find a technique that works for you.

more suggestions:

active learning > passive learning

when taking notes use the Cornell method. it forces you to ask questions and summarize what you’ve learned.

set frequent, short, review sessions

test yourself constantly! there are so many resources online. 

people who are under stress have difficulty remembering things so CHILL OUT

don’t rush, take your time

repetition is key

practice MAKES PERFECT

group items together

fish, vitamin b12, and green tea can help w/ memory

don’t give up. like morrissey said “these things take time.”

[anatomyandcappuccini]

“I am not lucky. You know what I am? I am smart, I am talented, I take advantage of the opportunities that come my way and I work really, really hard. Don’t call me lucky.” 

- Shonda Rhimes

[noir-21]

👍💖

[macrolit]

Giveaway Contest: We’re giving away fifteen vintage paperback classics by D.H. Lawrence, Harper Lee, Franz Kafka, George Eliot, Fyodor Dostoevsky, and others! Won’t this collection look lovely on your shelf? :D To win these classics, you must: 1) be following macrolit on Tumblr (yes, we will check. :P), and 2) reblog this post. We will choose a random winner on April 8, at which time we’ll start a new giveaway. And yes, we’ll ship to any country. Easy, right? Good luck!

[noir-21]

SPOILER ALERT!!!

“All the bright places” … so I have finished this book at 2:30 am, it left me feeling hollow and angry. THIS BOOK IS NOT FOR PEOPLE SUFFERING FROM MENTAL ILLNESS! It is for relatives, lovers, friends of suicide victims not for the potential victims them selves.

The book gave me a spark of hope - someone who battles depression and anxiety on and off- I had some hope to actually love life for a change.. but a scuidal like myself was cheated on my the advertisement of this book, by labeling it as a good insight for mental illness.. indeed it does give a very realistic view on how mental illness controls mind, thoughts and behaviour regardless of what you actually aspire for. But it was not enough the hopeless endig blew it.

This book snatched the very hope it actually gave.. It took it by force and by surprise ..

My only conclusion was that no matter how hard I try I am hopeless and my fate is already determind long time ago. That I can never escape this impending tragic death, because lets face it I am suicidal and thats what I actually want …

As much as I love the narration and the portrait of mental battels, how I related to them to this darkness Theodore Finch was fighting, I am angry at his suicide ! Like what does this leave me with ? What hope what help does this give me? NONE..

I have a heartache and I am at disbelieve about how cruel and hopeless my life will be , and how I will never be happy or content with life …

THIS NOVEL IS MASTERPIECE FOR A HEALTHY READER, BUT IT CAN BE A TRIGGER FOR SOMEONE SUFFERING FROM MENTAL ILLNESS, LIKE IT WAS FOR ME..

[noir-21]

… I wish I had the privilege to do so … #RIP

[fightostudy]

Studyblrs, let's start something together

A reason why i work hard: to show to those who scoffed and laughed at my big dreams that even the weakest cubs can become strong and feared lions. Now reblog with a reason why you work hard and pass this motivation along.

[n-13t-12-7l-3-4]

I work hard to prove that fashion is, in fact, a good career. And that I can be independent, successful and strong without having to get married.

[fightostudy]

After you reblog with your reason, read some others in the notes. Honestly reading everyone’s reasons is making me tear up, they’re all so beautiful. YOU GO GUYS! Let’s fight for our dreams!

[orcstudyblog]

I work hard because I’m afraid of losing out. Not to others but to my previous self. I’m also working hard because my parents are paying so much money for my livings, education and welfare overseas. For the sacrifices that my parents have made for me. To tell those people who are secretly laughing behind my back saying I can’t do it, I CAN. And to prove that I’m special. But the most important thing that keeps me going on is my love in learning new things.

[educafe]

I work hard because I know that there are people way less privileged than I, and I should definitely work my hardest to make sure these privileges are not wasted. Instead of watching people suffer and living in comfort, I’ll definitely do all I can to help them. 

[salvadorbonaparte1]

I work hard because when my father told me how I am crap and never gonna be anything, I swore to become someone awesome later, someone who helps this world. And when the children service and shitty psychologist and the court told me similar things, I again swore to show them all what I am capable of.

[fightostudy]

This turned out better than i ever thought it would, i’m so grateful for this. Keep reblogging! #WhatsYourReason

[collecting-knowledge-deactivate]

I work hard so my future family won’t have the crappy upbringing I had. I work hard to make my heroes proud. I work hard so I won’t be another sad story about someone who didn’t make it. I work hard because I love to learn. I work hard so that one day I can give back to the people who have given me so much. I work hard to prove I’m not the idiot my family always said I was. I work hard because I’m sick of being second-best. I work hard because I don’t want my disability to control my life. I work hard for a better future.

[linistudies]

I work hard because I know that I can do great things. I know that I have capabilities. I can do something and change the world. My kids will have more money than I did growing up. We will live in a healthier environment. I can help others and share my knowledge. I can be successful.

[studyhardlivebetter]

I work hard because I love to learn, and hate feeling disappointed in myself. I also don’t want to sell myself short before I find out what I want to do.

[cultivxtion]

I work hard because I want to prove that I can make something out of myself. I want to show myself that I can accomplish anything I put my mind to. I work hard just for the day that I can sit down and be like “You’ve made something out of yourself. I’ve never been more proud.” I want to make myself proud and someday I want to look back and appreciate all that I went through to be worth something and to see potential in myself. I work hard so I feel like there is a place for me in the world and I’m not missing out on anything. I work hard to be able to accomplish all that I’ve ever set my mind to.

[omnesviae]

Wow, this is amazing! You all are so inspiring ❤ I word hard because I want to prove the darkness in me wrong and show that I am worthy of a beautiful life. I also work hard because I want to make my parents proud. They worked hard to make me into the lovable, strong, independent woman that I am today, despite being told by others that having daughter is undesirable. And finally, I work hard so that I can be the role model that I wish I had when growing up, for other women of colour who have suffered with mental health. #WhatsYourReason

[gabrielamustlive]

I work hard because it makes me feel awesome and makes me feel I worth. I work hard because I want to be happy and not stressed. I want a better future than the future my family has.

[fightostudy]

update: i work hard because i want to have a happy and secure future with the person i love

[freedom-is-yours-for-the-taking]

I work hard because I want to be able to make a difference, I want to change the ‘myth’ of rape amongst lawyer and judges I want men and women who have been raped be able to have the person who did that too them behind bars and not have themselves attacked on the stand I want to start a scholarship for teens who want to study law and I want to start a program for disadvantaged children who’s parents can’t afford to or choose not to afford the basic necessities like a uniform and a bag and school supplies and even lunch I work hard because I don’t want to die and not have tried to help as many people that I can even if it is something as small as showing them that someone cares about them and their future and that it doesn’t matter where you start it’s where you go from there. That is why I work hard

[greys-scary-circus]

I work hard to prove that I can. I work hard because I don’t want to end up like the majority of my family. I work hard because it gets boring if everything’s easy. My reasons for working hard don’t seem as great as others but they’re my reasons.

[noir-21]

I work hard to show the people who underestimate girls' power how much I can achieve and excell in what I love. To show them that I am more than some other man's wife/girlfriend/sister/daughter.... etc To show them that I am defined by my self and my actions alone.. To show them what a humanitarian, meticulous Doctor I can become..

[thequotejournals]

Try to imagine a life without timekeeping. You probably can’t. You know the month, the year, the day of the week. There is a clock on your wall or the dashboard of your car. You have a schedule, a calendar, a time for dinner or a movie. Yet all around you, timekeeping is ignored. Birds are not late. A dog does not check its watch. Deer do not fret over passing birthdays. Man alone measures time. Man alone chimes the hour. And, because of this, man alone suffers a paralyzing fear that no other creature endures. A fear of time running out.

 Mitch Albom, The Time Keeper (via thequotejournals)

[graveltoglucose]

personally I think one of the worst things about having diabetes is that other people just don’t get it

they either don’t understand it and don’t care to understand it. “oh you’re giving yourself a needle okay gross I’ll just turn away.” or they think it’s just some weird sugar disease and they’re ignorant and rude about it. “oh haha all this sugar is gunna give me diabetus!” or maybe they get it but it scares them so they try to control it. “oh my goodness do you need insulin? a granola bar? oh don’t eat that sugar. what’s your blood sugar level at?” or they think they get it but they simplify it and go from there. “yeah it’s just monitoring your bgl and taking insulin. that’s it! all diabetics can live a happy healthy life.”

it’s just so tiring to have to deal with non-diabetics. and it sucks that it’s apparently our responsibility to teach them what diabetes really is

[recovering-and-healing]

THE BRAVEST thing I ever did was continuing my life when I wanted to die.

J. Lewis (via your-recovery-place)

Im not sure how long this bravery will last ...

[hwmftog-blog]

What they say: There is a skeleton inside you.

The truth: You are inside your skeleton. You are a brain.

[warrior-princess-4ever]

What the fuck

[noir-21]

Just WOW..😮