Hi, I'm Camila, but you can call me cami or coco as my friends call me and I'm 17 years old.
It has been a WHOLE journey!
Events that happened in my life while I was waiting for RED TV:
Weeks before the announcement of RED, I was going through a very hard time in my life, I was going through stress and anxiety about a somewhat traumatic situation that I suffered, but long story short I survived. Taylor was my lifeline, my support, my best friend, my comfort in this whole situation and always. Her songs have given me the best advice in the moments I needed them most, they gave me encouragement and faith, they felt like a warm hug in such cold times. Especially songs like long story short, evermore, its time to go, this is me trying, the archer, closure, red, state of grace, begin again, marjorie, a place in this world, etc, I could spend all day naming a thousand songs more. Just thank you, you and your music saved my life @taylorswift . Red Taylor’s version, thank you for coming at the right time in my life.
June 18: I remember it very well, I was having a panic and anxiety attack because I had a bad day, and out of nowhere taylor posts on Instagram. For a moment I forgot all my ills and I could only feel the excitement and happiness.
Everything that has happened in these 4 months of waiting:
♥️ I was able to celebrate another spectacular Father's Day with my dad who I love so much.
♥️ I went to see my family.
♥️ I made my RED velvet cake to celebrate my graduation while listening my red cd.
♥️ I went to the pool with my class to celebrate our graduation.
♥️ I lost the fear of driving alone.
♥️ I saw a lot of my friends.
♥️ I saw an old friend I hadn't seen in a long time.
♥️ I cut my hair like I never thought i would.
♥️ I dyed my hair blonde.
♥️ I drove with my friends for the first time and it was super fun (our passion is singing you belong with me tv)
♥️ Spend a LOT of time with my cat
♥️ I woke up at 5 am to meditate and watch the sunrise while listening to august and folklore on the first of August
♥️ I made my cap based on long story short
♥️ I graduated!! 👩🏼🎓
♥️ I went to my prom in a beautiful dress.
♥️ I received many gifts and love for my graduation.
♥️ I celebrated my graduation with my family and friends.
♥️ I was fearless and dared to get into tennis classes and started playing golf (for me being an introvert that was a big step)
♥️ I baked A LOT. The bakers gonna bake bake bake.
♥️ I managed to get my passport after a whole year of waiting.
♥️ I reached a very low point in my mental health, I was super bad, but I knew how to seek help.
♥️ I was diagnosed with depression.
♥️ I was prescribed medication, I was very afraid to take it, but I have felt SO MUCH BETTER.
They have been bittersweet months, extremely sweet times, and the worst times my mental health has ever been. Days where I felt like I couldn't take it anymore, but no matter how bad I was, you and your music NEVER FAILED to lift my spirits, even on the days where I felt that nothing excites me, you always makes me feel better and cheer me up. I am happy to receive Red TV in my recovery process, where I am already much better and I know that I will be able to enjoy it better. It has been a great growth and discovery all these months.
My mosaic broken heart is happy ❤️🩹
Because I will leave all these months of sadness behind, it is FALL , RED TV is coming, and I am excited. So watch me begin again.
you may never read this, but it doesn't matter. You are a savior and you know it ♥️🧣 @taylorswift
@taylornation
