Ryuko Matoi - The one who broke free from evil (EP 21)
[This post is a follow-up to The Brainwashing of Ryuko - A Bloodied Wedding Dress. Warning: Long post lol]
Ryuko, now having the false illusion of reality within reach, will not stop. She is livid. Furious. And she will destroy anything, and anyone, that gets in the way of her happiness.... even the people she cares about the most.
Satsuki, Senketsu, Mako and the rest of The Gang TM immediately assess the situation, and /know/ that this isn't Ryuko talking. This is all Ragyo's doing. And so, they set up a plan to cut Ryuko loose from Ragyo's control.
Satsuki and Senketsu join forces, and try to bring Ryuko back to her senses.
Senketsu's voice is still heard by Ryuko. He tries to use this asset wisely, and tells her about their synchronization. About how they were truly and utterly in sync. Two in one. Now, Ryuko is just being worn by Junketsu. Controlled.
To that, Ryuko responds: "So what? I feel happier than ever being worn by Junketsu! I feel out of this world!"
Satsuki calls out in frustration: "That's the happiness of a slave!"
Ryuko absolutely flips. She's being confronted with the falseness of these memories - but if you believe in them for long enough they'll become real, right? Ryuko panics, she never wants to go back to this dark, isolated time in her life; to her feelings without Junketsu. To the loneliness, the neglect, the ache that trauma leaves behind. Even if it's fake, Junketsu relieves all of that pain. With Junketsu sewn to her body, there is no pain. No trauma, no loneliness, no hurt.
Ryuko yells at Satsuki that this is what she wants, this is what everyone should want, and if she doesn't like it, she'd better die. Shortly after that, she starts violently beating Satsuki up.
However, within her seething rage, Ryuko does not realize that Satsuki and Senketsu are meant to be a distraction. This distraction gives the Elite Four and NB the chance to close in on her.
Nui, who has apparently been pleasantly watching the whole thing go down, remarks that Junketsu's life fibers are now intertwined with the life fibers inside Ryuko's body. If Ryuko were to take Junketsu off, it'd be the equivalent of ripping off her own skin - and she would very likely die from blood loss.
Yet, the crew does not give up. At a moment when Ryuko is distracted, Satsuki quickly stabs Ryuko in the chest. She yells at Mako to stick Senketsu into the wound, in the hope that Senketsu's Life Fibers will untangle Junketsu's influence. Mako hastily complies, and both Mako and Senketsu literally get absorbed into Ryuko's mind. Holy shit this anime.
Mako and Senketsu have barged into this dark place within Ryuko's mind, determined to pull her out of it. Ryuko sits there alone, cooped up in her picture perfect wedding dress. Mako wastes no time and hugs her so damn tightly, she cries - she wants to hug all the bad stuff away.
"How can you call this happiness?" Mako shouts, somewhat desperately. "This isn't you! Please come back home with us!"
Ryuko wields her Scissor Blade, and threatens that she'll kill anyone who dares to destroy her happiness.
"Kill me then!" Mako exclaims. "If you insist on staying cooped up in here forever, then kill me and quit being Ryuko-chan!"
Ryuko lifts her blade to strike Senketsu. Senketsu has blood of pre-brainwash Ryuko, of Satsuki, and of Mako flowing through him - and as Ryuko cuts him, it all quite literally bleeds out into her mind. It pours everywhere, covering the little false reality, painting everything red. Ryuko is shaken by this, she remembers, the memories bleed through her. Mako's heartbroken face, Senketsu only wanting to protect me, I love them. I love them.
And that's when it hits.
I love these people. I don't love anything in the hallucinations. Senketsu, Satsuki, Mako, these memories are real, they feel much warmer than this monstrous Junketsu ever did, they feel much more true to me than all the polished pretty lies I was fed, I need to get out of here...
I need to come back to the people I love, the people that make me happy. I need to get out of this ice cold place....
Mako and Senketsu return to reality, and... so does Ryuko. Or at least, she tries. She is vehemently attempting to crawl out of that corrupted headspace. But of course, given the level of brainwashing Ragyo has put her through, this is easier said than done.
Yet, what this scene comes down to is this: Ryuko's love for Mako, Senketsu and Satsuki, is so much stronger than Ragyo's toxic influence.
This moment never fails to make me emotional, and even though it's far-fetched, I can relate to it. My love for life itself and all the beautiful things about it, my love for humanity and for the people I feel are as close to me as Mako, Senketsu and Satsuki are to Ryuko.. It was stronger than all the toxic influences I had.
No matter how Ragyo tried to break her spirit, to corrupt and brainwash her into servitude, and to overwrite her entire memory - her memories of those whom she truly loves, are so much more powerful. And so, she knows what to do.
"Quit doing with me whatever you damn well please!" Ryuko screams as she tears Junketsu off. "How dare you force me into this! Screw this, and screw you! I've had enough! Dying is fine by me! I have to take this thing off, even if it costs me my life!"
Ryuko would rather die true to herself, than stay cooped up inside a false reality forever. Even if it costs her her life, she will not bow. She will not surrender. Even if she has to fight everything in her mind to do it, to sever Junketsu's toxic influence... nothing will stop her. Because she is loved. And she loves them just as much. You are loved, too. No matter how ugly life can get. No matter how people try to break your spirit. You are stronger than all of that shit. And you too, can fight your way out of your dark headspace, however it may look like. <3Anyway Ryuko is hella strong for managing to break free from THAT - AAAAAND babies Mako, Senketsu & Satsuki are also hella strong for being the ones to pull her through. RANT OVER