Painfully Thick

No, I'm not pro eating disorders. I just feel lonely sometimes, so I created this Tumblr as my comfort zone. • 18y • sw: 167,2 • cw: 132 • gw 105,6

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going from a binge episode to a hard restriction episode in less than two days

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So ... I tried to recover again, but it didn't work. I'm back, skinny bitches.

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my parents and I went out for a drink and I can't stop thinking about the calories. I'm panicking.

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me: steps on the scale

me, seconds later: fuck fuck fuck fuck I will never eat again fuck fuck fuck

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me: binges

also me noticing i gained weight:

[mazeofmemries]

this is me snacking at night before i have a mental breakdown because of it

[bodyglitter]

how do i overthink so much and then Still make the wrong decision

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when you feel heart palpitations but it means you're restricting hard enough

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I'm gaining all my weight back and I don't know what to do. Someone help me, please.

Send me meanspo, softspo, whatever.

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when you're trying to fast for the tenth time in the week but your mom buys your f cking favorite food

[strawbabyjimin]

Me: does well thru the day, stays under cal limit

Me: proudly posts cal intake on insta story

Me: proceeds to b*nge at 11 pm

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Nobody:

Literally nobody:

Not a single soul:

Me, panicking: it's because I'm fat, isn't?

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when you just feel the binge coming

[notsohiddensecrets]

Friend: *pats my stomach

Body dismorphia:

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when you try to take a cold shower to burn calories

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I downloaded a fasting tracker and it showed me this message. Is this a trigger?

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me: I'll try to fast for 30 days, nobody can stop me now

me, later, with my mouth full of bread