Meaningful Nonsense

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Di ko na alam kung saan ako lulugar. HELP.

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All they know is I’m okay.

The truth is, I’m not.

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I really hate people for taking my kindness for granted.

It's like I have something I owe from them and the only way to pay it back is for me to be someone's nanny or what not.

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Ocean blue eyes / Looking in mine / I feel like I might / Sink and drown and die

You're so gorgeous

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Run far away so I can breathe / Even though you're far from suffocating me / I can't set my hopes too high cause / Every hello ends with a goodbye

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Here’s a very cool Dan + Shay GIF just because! HAHA!

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URYC.

Managing myself to be tough in these types of situations where you can’t easily find a solution and the deadline is near. Managing myself to not let my self-esteem down when everything’s down. Managing to smile and cheer myself up when all I can see is nothing. Helping myself to see the better side of the things that lacked. I am traumatized. I don’t want the event that happened to me on the second semester of my Second Year to happen again. This is the REAL DEAL! I want to at least prove to myself that I am for this course. I’m tired but I will keep on fighting until everything’s in place. Dear Lord, please help me. Help us. - (title, rot13)

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me + you

I am going to put @loyoung‘s word into text. I admire this video that she made. This is for their 2nd anniversary. 

You always imagine being together with someone forever. Not really a realistic thought but a real thought nonetheless. You feel butterflies in your stomach for the first time. The tension of holding someone’s hand for the first time in a dark cinema, experience the build up of a first kiss, your first misunderstanding, the first time you’ve ever settled an issue with someone and then you think he could be my forever. And then reality kicks in and you suddenly find yourself caught up in a cycle of broken hearts, tissues all over the floor, tears streaming down your face, drunken nights trying to forget and a roller coaster ride full of emotions. I’ve been through this cycle many times which brings me to the sweet part of this. We might not be each other’s first kiss, first love, first whatevers but, you know that’s okay. It’s okay that you’re not my first love because you’re the right kind of love. A love that doesn’t keep me up in the middle of the night wondering if you’re going to text me back or even thinking of me at all because I know for a fact that you do. A love that’s not afraid to hold my hand in public because we’re not allowed to be together because you never seem to be able to take your hands off of me. A love that ‘I’m not afraid to bare my soul to’ even the ugly parts because you lift me up when things do get tough. A love that’s true, that’s gentle, that’s kind, one that strives through the hardest of times. That’s love is me plus you.

One of the sweetest things my ear has heard. :) I do hope ate Lo & Robbie would stay strong in everything. I hope their relationship will last forever. I am a big fan of ate Lo and if she’s happy, I’m happy too.

Here’s the video. ENJOY - 

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TIRED

Now Playing: True Colors - Justin Timberlake and Anna Kendrick

This week has been a tiring week and the sad part is, the week has just started. I don’t know the reason because I’ve never been this tired before. Like the, too lazy to get out of bed kind of tired, the I don’t want to go to school tired, the I want to be alone kind of tired, the I don’t want anybody but my best friends to talk to me tired. My mind is absent, I don’t want to walk much, I want to sleep. I feel heavy inside and out. I am tired of things I’m hearing every time. I am tired of my everyday routine. I want to add something in my routine but too lazy to do so. I am not myself these past days. Plus, my best friends are struggling with their heart breaks as well. It’s hard to give advice, or comfort them because you’re tired. 

I tweeted “Physically, mentally and emotionally tired.” and a high school friend DM’ed me asking why. I said the reason and she replied that this is natural and she goes through it as well. I think, every one’s going through this one. But for me, this thing is unusual because I am always energetic in school, I don’t get tired easily. THIS COLLEGE THING!!! I can’t concentrate well. Today, I ask God for His guidance. I know He can give my energy back very soon. I hope, this day will be better. I hope this thing I’m feeling would be just temporary and I’ll be back to my energetic self soon. -

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

October 18, 2016. I just turned 19! WHAAATTT??? One more year and I won’t have a “teen” on my age anymore. This means I really have to man up and make mature decisions for myself and mature traits as well. My friends knows me as this immature college student doing childish things in everything of course, since time’s ticking and won’t adjust for us, we really have to, in a way, discard some things for us to give way to incoming things. I am happy that God gave me another year to live and I am really hoping that He’d give me more and more birthdays to celebrate with my family and friends. 

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Currently wondering how it feels to be surprised by a friend on your birthday?

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An open letter

Now Playing: All I Ask (Cover) - Aaron Encinas

I’m gonna vent out some of my feelings here. No one cares anyway. I am just bothered and struggling with something. Do you know the feeling when you just want your friends’s attentions, affection and care? Just for a second or for a while. Not that I don’t feel the care from them, I really feel it but it’s just that I am seeking for a long time/term care. I am very sorry if that offended some. I know I have no right as well for I am a man/boy and I should not care for those because boys don’t care much. Let me illustrate for you to understand more:

Please don’t get me wrong here. Go, call me selfish of some sort but it hurts when a close friend, that you’re used to hang-out with, used to do all kinds of stuffs with, you used to tell your stories or just someone you’re used to be with almost everyday would just fade away because he’s found someone better and more outgoing than me. I am so sorry but I have to vent this out. And please hear me out. I can’t even explain it once I’m asked regarding this fearing that I would be judged or someone might see me as an OBSESSED, POSSESSIVE, CRAZY person. The illustration above shows my situation right now. Not that they’re permanently out of my life but I feel like I am left alone once some of my close friends are with other people not that I want them to be with me all the time but, I don’t know if it’s just me or some of my emotional nothings are talking, but I feel jealousy. I am very sorry if every one thinks that this is just one of the shallow-not-a-first-world-problem problem. I don’t know the way to fix this flaw of mine. I am very happy though, that my friends are happy but sometimes, it hurts when they’re having MORE fun with others than me. I have demands as a person as well but it would be so selfish of me if I demand things since I am a man. I hold no grudges. I just feel like I am a display, waiting for someone to come near me and talk to me and just leave me there like nothing happens. It hurts so much. - 

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The half-blood prince will be remembered forever.