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[glove23]

okay Ilya gets a turn

okay okay so 2014!Ilya, he's just won the cup he can still feel the weight of it in his hands, still feel the weight of the victory in his heart, knowing his mama would be proud of him and aching because he'll never see it, gleeful he beat Hollander to the cup but also kind of wishing he could've shared the moment with him, or at least played the final game against him somehow. anything for him to be there. even tho they have spoken for months. and then he sees himself, a ring on his mother's chain, and a Centaurs jersey stretched across his chest and nothing makes sense. why would he leave Boston? and future Ilya says it'll be a while. before you feel this way again. let yourself live in it, oke? and 2014!Ilya shakes his head, gesturing at the jersey, the ring I don't win anymore and they ship me off, this is it, yes? I am not even good enough to be Hollander's rival? my father was right? and future Ilya's face hardens and he steps forward, grabbing 2014!Ilya's shoulder and turning him around to see standing behind him, himself at 12 years old. still in the suit from his Mama's funeral and looking so desperately hopeful and future Ilya says you cannot look at him and say Papa was right. it will never be true. not when everything we do saves him and 2014!Ilya shakes his head, still too much pain from being in Russia that January from the Olympics, from hiding every piece of himself somewhere no one can see it and says but I am no longer a bear. Boston throws me out and future Ilya sighs that dramatic ass sigh he's got and goes no, you follow the most beautiful man to his country because you love him and every mile closer to him is worth anything that comes with it. and 2014!Ilya, freshly avoiding Shane for 6 months, freezes with true fear a man? and future Ilya smiles da. the only one you have wanted since 17. you know him. and future Ilya hooks a finger through the chain of his necklace, letting the ring catch the light and he has the match. he is on your team. you are going to win the cup again and you are going to do it as yourself with the man you love at your side. and future Ilya smiles at 12 year old Ilya. you're doing it for him. it will always be for him and 2014!Ilya stares at him and goes ...Hollander? and future Ilya grins Yes. My Shane and then he walks away, leaving Ilya alone again but feeling warmer than he's ever felt

Shane's version

[nooowestayandgetcaught]

[young-waverer]

Pick a Page with Hudson Williams & Connor Storrie

[glove23]

Shane like. idk 2014 post Boston winning the cup, meeting his future self. his future self in an Ottawa Centaurs jersey. with no C on his chest. and 2014 Shane sees that and he thinks I failed. I failed I lost so badly they traded me to the worst team in the league. they found out about Rozanov and they traded me. they stripped me of my captaincy and I will never be anything again and his future self, with his wedding ring to Ilya hanging around his neck and looking happier than he's ever looked, looks at 2014!Shane and goes no. this is what winning looks like, kid. this is what we have always wanted, you just don't know it yet. things will be hard but I'd do it all again because it got me here. and then future Shane thinks for a moment and goes I never thought I'd get to be myself in this league. I also never thought I'd get to play on the same team as my husband. But now both things are true. and 2014!Shane looks stunned, tears in his eyes, and future Shane smiles and starts to walk away and then 2014!Shane calls back to him wait! just tell me one thing and future Shane pauses and 2014!Shane steels himself and goes just tell me. is it Rozanov? and future Shane looks back over his shoulder with the biggest grin ever and goes no. but it is Ilya and then he's gone

[fuckyeahsupernaturalgifs]

seen a few of these going around so i thought id make my own

[dailyhudsonwilliams]

Hudson and Connor for the New York Times in December 2025 (via hudconupdates)

[so-many-ocs]

hey, don't cry. fictional character in dire & perilous situations. ok?

[angelbabymikaa]

“potentially mature content” yeah that’s my pervert friend i hope it’s mature content that’s what i followed them for

[crowns-of-violets-and-roses]

Discussions of trans women in sports often focus on elite/professional sports which honestly I find it hard to care about but the more common scenario of “we’re going to legally ban a high school girl from playing sports with her friends because she’s trans” is just profoundly evil

[zzzucker]

i remember when utah's (republican) governor ended up vetoing a law banning transgender students from playing high school sports when he looked at the numbers, and there were only four trans students in the state playing sports at all. he released a clumsily worded but surprisingly compassionate statement about the decision.

I must admit, I am not an expert on transgenderism. I struggle to understand so much of it, and the science is conflicting. When in doubt, however, I always try to err on the side of kindness, mercy, and compassion. I also try to get proximate, and I am learning so much from our transgender community. They are great kids who face enormous struggles. Here are the numbers that have most impacted my decision: 75,000, 4, 1, 86 and 56. 75,000 high school kids participating in high school sports in Utah. 4 transgender kids playing high school sports in Utah. 1 transgender student playing girls sports. 86% of trans youth reporting suicidality. 56% of trans youth having attempted suicide. Four kids and only one of them playing girls sports. That’s what all of this is about. Four kids who aren’t dominating or winning trophies or taking scholarships. Four kids who are just trying to find some friends and feel like they are a part of something. Four kids trying to get through each day. Rarely has so much fear and anger been directed at so few. I don’t understand what they are going through or why they feel the way they do. But I want them to live.

of course, it didn't amount to much. they overrode his veto. it's just so cartoonishly evil. an entire state's political body so desperate to terrorize this one little trans girl.

[moonsworndandelion]

not to be "comment on fanfic even if they are oooold"

But I just read a pretty good fic published in 2014-2015 (you know, roughly TEN YEARS AGO) and I was like, damn this is so cool, I have to leave a comment, even if you know, they probably wont see it...

The author replied less than an hour later.

[miiilowo]

having feelings that contradict your morals is soooo fucking annnoooooyyyiiingggggg. can the emotions and logic department get on the same page im tired of having to like strangle myself into being a tolerable person

[trans4trains]

[nooowestayandgetcaught]

#episode 24 soulmaka altered my brain chemistry

[pein-xx]

I completely forgot about this and I’m so glad @animationwhump posted. This is gooooood stuff.

Every time Soul protects Maka I was well fed.

[nooowestayandgetcaught]

Uh, animationwhump didn't post this. They reblogged it. I posted this gifset. I made it.😅

[veryintricaterituals]

Queen of the Damned - Anne Rice

[aramblingjay]

2x07 // 2x05 // 3x05

[nooowestayandgetcaught]

thank you op for these tags because same

[professional-rat-eater]

This ought to be a wake up call for a lot of people. It won’t be but it ought to be.

No, it’s not out of character for Lestat to have fucked Armand. No, it’s not bad writing. No, Armand did not force him into it.

The show has never gone along with the narrative that Armand is undesirable. Never. The characters might be mean to him but they sure don’t have a problem sleeping with him. That includes Lestat. The writers clearly saw the discourse surrounding Armand’s fanfiction and decided to drag out the reveal that actually Lestat did sleep with Armand. A lot. They’ve increased the number of references to it in each episode so that you maybe finally get it and you let go of your own fanfictions and start appreciating the depth of this relationship.

Because there was a relationship. Maybe not a full companionship, but there was something. There will continue to be something. If you’re mad about that, then you’re going to have a bad time with the rest of the show because Armand is one of the most important people in Lestat’s life.

Anyway, here’s one of my favourite book passages of Lestat interacting with Armand. It’s from Memnoch. I would kill to see this in the show eventually. It’s so sweet.

We eyed each other for a moment. And then he surprised me, rising and coming towards me just as I moved to take him in my arms. His gesture wasn't tentative, but it was extremely gentle. I could have backed away. I didn't. We held each other tight for a moment. The cold embracing the cold. The hard embracing the hard.

"Cherub child," I said. I did a bold thing, maybe even a defiant thing. I reached out and mussed his snaggled curls.

He is smaller than me physically, but he didn't seem to mind this gesture.

In fact, he smiled, shook his head, and reclaimed his hair with a few casual strokes of his hand. His cheeks went apple-perfect suddenly, and his mouth softened, and then he lifted his right fist, and teasingly struck me hard on the chest.

Really hard. Show-off. Now it was my turn to smile and I did.

"I can't remember anything bad between us," I said.

"You will," he responded. "And so will I. But what does it matter what we remember?"

“Yes,” I said, “we’re both still here.”

[nalyra-dreaming]

What was that Lestat saying something about his brother and Magnus?? Didn't get the meaning

Okay, so, he has that "makeshift party" there, right? For the turn of the century?

Consisting of

cabbage for his brother and father

moldy bread for Armand

cake for Marie Antoinette

the violin for Nicki

an empty setting for Gabriella

no setting for Marius

and ....

William Blake's painting "The number of the Beast is 666" for Magnus.

Meaning he is literally placing Magnus as the Devil there.

Number of the beast - Wikipedia

Now, what Lestat actually says there is hugely interesting:

"But Magnus, his hand is wandering down my older brother's pants."

Magnus never put his hand down Gregoire's or Antoine's pants. He did, however, put them down Lestat's.

This is a reframing of a transgression, of what happened to Lestat into "this kind of party" setup, pushing what happened at someone else, distancing himself from the events, through that reframing.

In TVL, Lestat reframes what happned to him as almost love, only in later books he puts the name "rape" to what happened to him, in the last trilogy he STILL has PTSD flashes from it all.

So this way of... rejecting what happened and reframing it into something else is actually quite in line with canon (just very, very condensed, in a way).

Interestingly, this is also something that we were shown in the trailer that Gabrielle did to him - who also sexually abused him, after all.

"Are you affronted by these intimacies, Enkil?"

A challenge. He knows (deep down) that Magnus (and Gabrielle) taking the liberties was wrong, but he defiantly challenges the perception of himself as a victim. And he tries to regain some agency by challenging the perception on it, within the reframing of it.

"My hand on your Eve on the eve of a great century."

This is the most interesting part of it for me - because he knows that him touching her / them is also a transgression in a way, no matter that Marius appointed him supposedly on her behalf.

And we see him reach out, carefully, respectfully, yes, but also more intimately than he is supposed to. Knowingly not adhering to the rules Marius set.

He is also very lonely and drawn to her, drawn to touching her, though he knows he shouldn't.

(And of course it is also a nice little word play.)

That said, I found it very interesting how Sheila laid out in the After Dark, that it is precisely this ... gentle and almost longing touching, this caring for them in a way that is way more intimate than Marius did which makes Akasha realize that Lestat may be what she was looking for (later).

[bratboymolloy]

thinking about the way armand was always there in the shadows of daniel’s life. always stepping in to fix things he thought he could fix. watching daniel in his lowest and even embarrassing moments—a hit and run fender bender, leaving his daughters at home while he went out to the liquor store, ODing in some dingy motel room, biting his nails, setting off a fire alarm in a burnt grilled cheese incident, fucking alice mere hours after fucking some student.

and not to overshare but it makes me think about having my biggest manic episode. i was getting into scary men’s cars and doing coke in a basement and not caring and cutting my own bangs and spending too much money and i was alone. alone in my struggling. alone in the fight to get out of it all. and nobody was watching me. nobody was lurking in the shadows like a dark guardian angel.

but if i suddenly found out that wasn’t true? that someone had been there all along? watching the very worst of me? someone was pulling the strings, never letting me go too far without stepping in? and i’m supposed to believe all that AND believe it was love? well i’d feel all kinds of complicated about that. i’d be simultaneously in love with and repulsed by that idea. i’d be thankful in a way and feel totally violated in another. i’d want to kick and scream. i’d want answers. and that’s what daniel wants. armand to fully come out of the shadows and own it all.

[bratboymolloy]

adding these tags bc EXACTLY @eab-art

[wibblyrlin]

THE VAMPIRE LESTAT | 3.05 "New York"