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nor | he/she | 21 | butch ace lesbian | #1 rumi kpdh fan malcolm bright you will always be famous

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hi!! i'm nor :D he/she | 21

i LOVE the hunger games, prodigal son, kpop demon hunters, the 100, victorious, warrior cats, the fallout games (namely fo4 and f:nv), skyrim, stardew valley, slime rancher, and more!

i write a lot! you can mostly find me either here, on twitter, or on ao3! i'm NORsevvy quite literally everywhere BAHAHA

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i'm so sorry ckers i might have to push off hch4 AGAIN </3 these past few weeks have been kind of ridiculous and i'm not happy with the chapter and AUAUUGH . i don't know if it'll be another full week or if i might just randomly drop it on saturday but it's unfortunately not ready yet (my standards for this fic are unreasonable)

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Im sorry i phrased the question poorly. I didnt think it was bad or immersion breaking. It is just a very specific choice to have time work that way and i genuinely wanted to know your thoughts about it. I really like the story and wasnt asking because i wanted it to be different

The timelessness gives it a mythical or fairy tale quality that works with the idea of infinite iterations. That comes across clearly

so sorry for the lateness on this one i got sick and have slept . so much BAHAHAGSD

i'm very glad it doesn't come across as immersion breaking! i'm sorry my thoughts around it are very lame and boring in the sense that i just don't feel like i'm able to write a more futuristic universe without drawing all the attention there rather than the emotions the series is meant to focus on

i'm also glad that it feels more mythical! i think that ties neatly into the lore of the hunters in the Actual KPDH Movie Canon Universe!!

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so sorry for this big irritated ask however I'm butting in because this stuff makes me mad, and I'll say it off anon too. the tl;dr i want to give is "SUSPEND YOUR DISBELIEF!" The people asking this question are all missing the point. the immortal!zoey series is about love and grief and mourning and healing. it's about savouring the good years & time dragging in the awful years & seasons changing and the world continuing to turn even if you're not taking care of yourself (you, the reader), but also please do take care of yourself because the world & the love is still there even during (despite!) the worst years. immortal!zoey is about polytrix being silly and sweet and together through a million forevers. the outside world doesn't matter. global conflicts don't matter. if these critics want to see historical events or futuristic world building, they can buckle up and write it themselves. 

ugh. anyway. my vote is no, it's not distracting OR immersion breaking that the setting is always modern, & i think you're doing a really good job anyway of keeping it vague. historically, there's always been pottery classes and farmers' markets and parks, you know? and it's fun & angsty & relatable to have the truly modern bits like recordings and videos and world-famous-singer-AGAIN Rumi. i don't think you should feel pressured to change anything just 'cause a handful of people aren't getting what they want from your stories. keep doing what you're doing.

blitzlowin i would die for you

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So whats up with how time works in immortal zoey. Are they in some sort of pocket dimension? No matter how much time passes the technology and outer world seem to stay the same as roughly equivalent to our "present"

i answered that here!

tldr is technically no but i suck

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late but sorry ckers, hch4 is going to be put off for a bit :( had some insane irl Problems happen to me this week that i have to deal with

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Hi! I saw all your posts about punkrockers (which I haven't had the chance to read yet, but Soon, I'm so excited) and I think you and I definitely get similar levels of brainworms over songs in relation to fictional characters, so I wanted to share a song that I have been replaying about 1 million times since reading Cowboy Killers. Safe in Your Skin by Title Fight. It's got my brain in a vicegrip. Like Rumi and Mira absolutely do not feel safe in their skin, and I think that's one of the major things they will have to work on before they can reconcile with each other, and I think the song is just such a perfect vibe for the melancholy of what they lost and if they will ever get it back. And I know lots of stuff will be going on between now and then but yea. Also Safe In Your Skin is connected to the next song on the album, Where Am I? And I don't have as strong brainworms about that one but with what I know I can kinda jam it into place to fit them. But yea haha anyway I hope Safe In Your Skin does something for you too and at the very least I hope you enjoy listening to the songs! Have a nice day :D

THATS SO EXCITING!!!!! back when we were first talking, something that drew me to my zoey immediately was the fact that we have the same taste in music (mostly) and that we have the exact same brain worms / associations / Character Associations for songs!!

i REALLY think "safe in your skin" is sickening for ck!rumira, it's so spot on for them especially with the long stretches of just instrumentals into the relatively quiet lyrics. AND there only being two verses? despicable. it's SO them i might throw it onto their playlist actually BAAHSGDFGHDFG THANK YOU!!!!!!

it is VERY melancholy and sorrowful and i really enjoy that for them. there's so much uncertainty between the both of them that the song puts perfectly into place, and who knows when they'll get that back? maybe at some arbitrary point in time up in a new city once they're different people. who knows!

"where am i?" is a little out of bounds for my music taste but it is absolutely ck!rumi i 100% agree with you on that .

this specifically? Oh My God. this is horrible for bmch5 in ways i can't even describe yet but just know this is going to be so much worse with context BAJHSGDFGHSDGF

i'm. i'm going to song ramble under the cut. be free if you don't want to hear my odd rambling . go my ck songers (also spoilers for bmch4 you've been warned)

once again my zoey was the one who found this song for me! Cyli I Would Die For You I Love You More Than Anything

anyways!

"better if worse" by HAFFWAY (AND it's stripped counterpart!) were given to me because they are deeply, deeply sickening for the breakup scene and i'm sure it's not difficult to see why. the original is on ck!mira, and the stripped version is on ck!rumi :}

disgusting for ck!mira. horrible.

"put it on the table, everything you thought and all that you said" - KILL ME.

"heaven never waits for all of your thoughts to finally cease / but hell is on a payphone, taking dimes and ringing out loud" - nothing rumi ever does in this scenario will make the noise in her head stop; everything she does in this situation will only make things worse, and mira isn't exactly helping anymore in the end with her default reaction to being scared to be picking fights

"so i'm calling you out, i'm calling you out" - she sure does doesn't she! we all love that! thank you ck!mira!

"love you like you mean it or go get better at lying if you're gonna try" - THIS IS THE ONE THAT PUNCHED ME IN THE THROAT BECAUSE GOOD GOD DUDE WHAT THE HELL IS THIS ????? THIS IS SICKENING FOR BOTH OF THEM!!!!! "better if worse" having a stripped version is AWFUL because like

the original is louder and angrier and that's exactly what ck!mira is, this lyric is demanding and harsh and angry, and then the stripped version is still demanding, but it's so much quieter and hopeless, and that's Exactly what ck!rumi is going through

"you're hiding in the grey and everything you say is coming out black and white" - also literally them. this entire fight could have been avoided if they weren't so unable to dive into their nuances and their faults and insecurities and fears. but hey i guess faults and fears must never be seen and they're certainly doing a good job of that!

"'cause you know that i need you, i hate that i want you" - is unfortunately very ck!mira at the end of their relationship. i wouldn't say it's a full 'hate' right now at the very very end of bmch4, but she's so hurt and angry and afraid because of all that rumi has done, and it's starting to build up in a Very Very Very Bad Way

"yeah, it crosses my mind that i might be cursed / yeah, but sometimes it's better if it's just a little worse" - ck!rumi. it's just ck!rumi. that's just her. what more is there to say. ck!rumi i'm so sorry

"i don't wanna face it / everything you are is something i'm not" - this entire verse is ck!rumi whereas verse 1 was ck!mira for the most part; there's such a heavy emphasis on rumi refusing to face everything up until it's too late. she's not like mira (good) and she knows that, and it's terrifying to have to think about

"lose my mind, i'm yelling out loud / don't act like you don't know it" - her up at brook's, finally hitting her breaking point before she buries it all down completely

"everything is coming on easy and you're coming on strong / and i don't wanna hold it, but i'm tired of letting you down" - CK!Rumi I Am So Sorry For What I Have Done To You.

i have SO many of these. i have songs for All Of These Characters And They ARE In Order! i'll doors post for a second before i'll let us all be free (for now) but just know i am insane about music and about ck and about the songs i put on their playlists and i will Always talk about this any chance i'm given . also if you look on their playlists it's kind of a fun way to see how the fic will transpire! good luck! have fun with the Almost burden of knowledge!

anyways. doors noah kahan. not only was this song written to fuck with me specifically, it's also the absolute worst ck!mira song to do it ever!

"i grew up pretendin' sticks were little guns / i would point 'em at my dad, and he'd get mad, 'cause god forbid i hurt someone" - is the worst opener for her i could ever think of. what the hell do you mean "'cause god forbid i hurt someone" . awful.

"i'd hurt anyone i could / anyone who got too close, and anyone who wouldn't look" - ck!mira's beliefs about herself and who she is as a person never fails to make me violently upset. i hope i've been able to portray the fact that she is absolutely not a bad cruel horrible person even despite how hard she tries to tell the reader that. i've actually made it a point for her to Tell You "yes i am the worst person alive" as much as possible only for her actual actions to completely show that that's hardly true

that doesn't stop her from believing it!

"foot of ice across vermont / and in that dark, and in that frost, a heart was formed / malcontented and unwarm / you were unsuspectin', not unwarned" - this is literally just her meeting with rumi for the first time; "and in that frost, a heart was formed, malcontented and unwarm" is obviously mira slowly coming to consider that she isn't as bad as she thinks she is. "you were unsuspectin', not unwarned" is to rumi, who never once thought poorly of mira or considered her to be a bad, harmful, dangerous person. unsuspecting, not unwarned.

"that i'm the trouble ahead, that i scream in my sleep / you're puttin' money on red, i'm a sure bet at a losin' streak" - the way ck!mira thinks of herself. Kills Me. Sickening. she can't understand why rumi continues to put in so much time and effort into making her comfortable, why rumi loves her at all, why rumi does anything she does, because mira doesn't deserve it for all of these reasons

and notably the reasons are never anything horrible. "that i scream in my sleep"? something uncontrollable, likely caused by something else? and yet that's still enough for mira to consider herself undesirable

"i keep showin' you doors, but you can't open them up / 'cause it gets harder to see me the closer you try to look" - the second part of these lyrics is awful and horribly on point for mira, who considers herself so lowly and thinks no one would be able to understand her, but the first half....referencing to how bad of a person she is, how rumi refuses to see her like that. no matter how hard mira tries to get rumi to open those doors like everyone else, rumi won't, can't

"i just live here, babe, but you're the one who decided to knock" - rumi still choosing to be with her and to learn her and to not turn away even after seeing mira the clearest out of everyone in her life

"have you ever stared directly at the sun?" - what mira considers rumi to be, the light in her life

"have you ever shared some closeness, so exposed / to have it spit back by someone?" - because this is Exactly what rumi did when she left, isn't it? all of that progress and what the two of them became with each other is gone now, spat back in mira's face, and that's that!

"so forgive me if i jump / at the rattle of your keys / "oh, are you leavin'?", "no, babe, i'm just wakin' up" / and now what?" - mira's fear at rumi leaving, her being afraid every single time she leaves the house to sit on the porch or to leave further and further, being convinced she's never going to come back.

and then she doesn't. and now what?

"i'm left starin' at the ceiling, listin' reasons you should pack all your shit up" - this is both post and pre-breakup to me; mira constantly going through reasons for rumi to leave her prior to bmch4 which slowly turns into reasons why she Did and why it was Inevitable

:}

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so I went to one of the outdoor screenings for the one year anniversary of kpdh and ofc had a perfect view of the light up rainbow right behind the screen so. happy pride from these gayass bitches ig

and ofc while watching the scene when they sang free and when we were under the stage again with the girls I was like oh I think it's time to reread heloise

THIS IS SO COOL!!!!!!!! god during pride month and everything??? queers. love them so bad. #gayptide

I HOPE YOU HAD A GOOD TIME!!!! this looks SO fun omg i'm jealous i would have killed to go to something like this . the rainbow view and everything is taking me out i can't believe you got front row seats to the gay movie about being gay WITH the gay rainbow in the back. beautiful

heloise has BEEN ON MY MIND!!!! i've been thinking of my Future Installations and i'm in a grief kind of mood so MAYBE i finally finish the grief trio BAHAHASGD i'm so sorry i'm crazy inconsistent and bounce from project to project like a madman HOWEVER i WILL get this done EVENTUALLY!!!!!

crooked knife has also been calling to me. every single time i look at those lyrics i get a little more insane about canon!rumi and heloise!rumi specifically . the day i finally work on crooked knife is the day i hopefully convince no small number of people to become carry hatchet fans with me

related! heloise is immortal!zoey compliant and i read through TINS a few months ago and realised how i accidentally made that VERY apparent! i don't know how i keep doing this i need to be stopped like actually

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Does immortal zoey take place in a world where time stands still? Every reincarnation seems to take place in present day

technically no, but i'm also woefully under creative when it comes to Looking Ahead Into The Future and i also don't want the universe to take away too much from the content itself . does that make sense? also i might just be lazy BAHAHAGSD

so...technically no, time keeps moving on, but in reality there's not enough differences to really be noticeable which is entirely on me. if anything, for a more in-universe explanation, they might just have a little bubble where things stay relatively the same past a certain point to excuse for me making things stay pretty modern day

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wait. is grouse just cat!immortal!Zoey?

it's been heavily implied that peaches (and now grouse!) are cat versions of zoey, and that the pretty tabby and deep red cat would be rumi and mira :}

the first time you see them is in super natural! i just think it's a fun idea that there are dozens of The Three Of Them running parallel to The Actual Three Of Them at all times, even if it realistically doesn't make sense and doesn't add a lot. i just think it's cute BAHSDGHFG

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PUNKROCKER OUT NOW!!! BE FREE MY IMMORTAL!ZOEY-ERS

and of course my ramblings on punkrocker as promised :}

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i don't want to share too much of punkrocker but . we're 20k in and this is probably my favourite scene so far. there's so much more to it than this but that gives away too much so. have this little itty bitty snippet :}

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Punkrocker by Teddybears? "I'm bored with looking good, I got both hands off the wheel / See me die on Bleecker Street, I'm bored with being god" punkrocker? "But you can't hear me laughing to myself, if you could you would be someone else" punkrocker? biting you biting you biti-

YEAH!!!!!!! THAT ONE!!!!!!!!!! :}

noting now that i have an immortal!zoey playlist and notably, prior to between days being moved up to match with the series itself, punkrocker was the 5th song there! because it makes me INSANE. part of this is due to straight up synesthesia and after i post punkrocker i plan on showing the screenshots of me rambling about it and what it Does To Me, but god . punkrocker, to me, is The Most Immortal!Zoey Song To Ever Do It

"see me die on bleecker street / i'm bored with being god / see me sneering in my car / i'm driving to my star" I'm Driving To My Star? sickening.

it's so hard to describe what punkrocker does to me because it's like Crazy synesthesia reasons but this song never fails to upset me in ways unfathomable . it's the most immortal!zoey song to ever do it both in the Series way and in the Zoey From Immortal!Zoey way . like this is her song. this is her. this is just zoey from immortal!zoey to me

idk if any of that tells you enough about what Punkrocker The Fic is going to be about, but man. i'm SO excited for it and i can't wait to dive a little deeper into what this song does to me BASHDGHDGF

in the meantime. have me being historically miserable about the song ever since i started immortal!zoey

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"i'm writing more immortal!zoey :D"

so you want me to cry? to sob?? to be inconsolable??? again????

I REALLY DONT THINK PUNKROCKER IS GOING TO BE THAT BAD!!!!!!!! IT'S MEANT TO BE HOPEFUL!!!!!!! I KNOW . I KNOW IT'S IMMORTAL!ZOEY BUT I THINK IT'S NOT GOING TO BE THAT EVIL!!!!

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immortal!zoey on the mind . i know i'm literally writing Another installation for it but this series is never leaving my head ever . anyone else pondering love and waiting

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hello your writing is amazing, im obsessed, your immortal zoey series was like the most perfect thing i've ever read UNTIL i just read cowboy killers and that was like a brutal knockout punch and now i dont know how to be a functional person (in a good way o.o) i hope you have a good day!

THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!! immortal!zoey and ck are two of my absolute favourite things i've ever written (which i'm sure is clear since i'm writing . Another installment for the series AND i've talked at length about ck and how much i love that project)!! i'm so sorry about bmch4 i promise it gets better Eventually BAAJSHDGFHFG

thank you SO much!!!! :D i'm sorry for all the horrors i PROMISE i'll write something infinitely nicer sooner!!! <33

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