I live for Him

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[the-memedaddy]

me_irl

[the-memedaddy]

Meirl

[taylorswift]

This is how he prefers to travel.

[nostalgicmd]

Fail•ure

'fāl-yər\ • noun • falling short

I experience it every time. When I entered med school, I’ve anticipated that I’ll fail from time to time in shifting exams, major exams, practical exams, but little did I know that it’ll be this hard. I thought, maybe, despite hardships and med being med (being super duper difficult), I could finish on time.

I always had a hard time understanding Physiology. Parang everything’s new to me. I swear, I’m reading my notes and transes at least 3 times, especially during exams. It seems like I understand it while I’m reading it but when the test comes and I read the questions, I’m losing it. I can’t understand the questions so how come I’d answer it correctly, right? I don’t know why. Maybe because I’m not used to such type of questions during my premed years? Like with my Psych background, I thought to myself, wtf? Why did I even take up psych? But then again, I have a friend whose premed is BS Economics but really doing well in med, as in she’s REALLY GOOD (trans-maker good!!!). So I really can’t blame my premed course. Cos if she can do better, why can’t I? So I thought, maybe, I’m not meant to be here. Maybe, I’m not good enough. I failed so, maybe, I’m not meant to be a doctor. Just maybe.

There’s this thing in FEU that if we didn’t make it to the cut off grade, we still have the chance to take the removals in all subjects. If we fail 1 minor, 1 major or 2 minors in the removals, we’re still on the game and can still take the post-promo exams (our last shot) and not everyone’s lucky enough to reach the post-promo. Luckily, I only had 2 removs, 1 minor, 1 major. I passed the minor in the removs and failed physio, again. So I still have one last chance.

Prelims, I failed. Midterms, I failed. Finals, I failed. Removals, I failed. Post-Promo, I failed. I STILL DIDN’T MAKE IT. I FAILED PHYSIO A.

But believe me, I wasn’t as devastated as I thought I’d be. Before I knew it, I’ve accepted it already. I don’t know if it’s learned helplessness, but whatever it is, it helped me accept my fate. Maybe, I conditioned myself and my parents that I’m really not doing well in this subject that I might really fail in the end. True enough, I did fail. I think, tho, that it helped a lot that I always tell my parents my standing in school and they understood my situation so when I failed they didn’t get mad but encourage me to do better the next time. It also helped that I rant to friends from time to time how much I don’t like physio, really.

Clichè as it may be but, failures can make us become better persons the next time. Now that I’m a midyear student na, taking up Physio A again, I feel like it’s a lot lighter. It isn’t a burden anymore. Physio makes a lot of sense to me this time.

Thinking about it, I’m not as stressed as I was last sem. I kinda learned how to manage things. I am enjoying med……so far. It’s still not easy (med’s never gonna be easy), but I can manage. Maybe, me being a midyear student, is a blessing in disguise. I still have a loooooong loooooooong journey to get that MD. Who knows, right?

[nostalgicmd]

Med school kuno

Life in med school is a lot different than my undergrad days. I thought that since I've always wanted to become a doctor, it'll be easier for me to adjust in med. But hell no, it's a lot harder than I thought. It takes a lot of passion, effort, tears, and coffee to survive a semester in med school. And even if I've anticipated it, it's different when you're experiencing it. It's really A LOT DIFFERENT. They say that 1st year in Med, you'd still see and attend, if not all, some gatherings of your family and friends. I can attest to that. I still see them from time to time. Not always but I still do. I go home once in a while (since I stay in a dorm), every after major exams so 3 times per sem. I see my friends whenever I can but I spend most of my time with my Med buddies, my transes and books, and of course, coffee. Yup, coffee has been my best bud this sem. I couldn't have done it without my coffee dear. But yeah, sometimes you'd feel the homesickness, and what I can at least do is to message them and keep in mind why I'm here in the first place, it's for them. There were times when I fail my exams, my grades weren't as good as before (thinking that I did study hard for those exams and I still failed), it's really depressing. Pero, I always think that maybe the universe is telling me that it's med school, and expect everything to be difficult and nothing worth having comes easy. And failing is normal in med school. What I can do is to keep standing up from those failures and be better the next time. Sleep, what sleep? Is there even such thing? I've experienced going to school without having sleep, literally. There were times when you're having a lecture and your head would just fall not realizing you're dreaming already. You study and study til morning for shifting exams and sgd. Kaya everytime I get the chance to sleep, I do. I really do. Lalo na after exams, jusko super sarap matulog. It has just been my 1st year, 1st semester, and I'm experiencing all these. What more in the coming years-where everything is a lot more difficult and challenging?? Ah nevermind, I'll just keep figthing and fighting and fighting to get that MD.

[karazorel]

And when we go crashing down, we come back every time.

[staypozitive]

No matter how good of a woman you are, you will never be good enough to a man who isn’t ready.

(via staypozitive)

[nostalgicmd]

011015. Watched ValMaSci's Botb competition! Batch evince also had an intermission number, the main reason why I watched hehe

[psych-facts]

Bandwagon effect — the tendency to do (or believe) things because many other people do (or believe) the same. Related to groupthink, crowd psychology, herd behaviour, and manias.

Bias blind spot — the tendency not to compensate for one’s own cognitive biases.

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[nostalgicmd]

Social Psychology!

[silly-luv]

[nostalgicmd]

Mukhang bunot na yung buhok ko hahahahahahaha pero yayyy hd na ulit paningin ko! 💞

[nostalgicmd]

2 years and still counting! I've never been into an all-girls group before until I entered college. And I have no regrets of befriending them. I admit, iba compared sa hs friends ko yung college. As in iba. Iba yung type ng bonding, iba yung mga trip sa buhay, but there's one thing na common sa kanilang dalawa-I can always count on them. We've been through a lot. We've had our ups and downs (and still having hehe). But what I like about everything is that we always learn something from it-and that's what's important. After every fall, you gotta stand up and face another challenge-together. Life, I know, is all about fun and laughter but it doesn't stop there because it's also all about hardships and challenges that we all have to face. :)

[hereislight]

1) You are allowed to take up space. You are a human. 2) You are allowed to have a voice. 3) You are allowed to leave whenever you feel unsafe or uncomfortable. 4) You deserve more than someone who doesn’t know how to respect you. 5) You are allowed to put your own needs first. 6) You are allowed to love yourself.

6:11 p.m. (Six reminders for bad times)

[teenagepics]

If you’re a teen you must follow this blog.

[worshipgifs]

[nostalgicmd]

I'm trying so hard..

[psych2go]

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