I heard a rumour

[not-just-a-rumour]

"A rumour is just the beginning"

I’m in your head.

I’m on the wall.

I’m left unsaid.

I watch you fall.

I wouldn't call myself a rogue. I'd call myself a casualty.

You can call me Rumour.

File loading... Alias: Rumour Full name: Lenore Whitlock Age: 17 Species: Metahuman Known abilities: Emotional contagion, Illusions

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// ooc intro

Hey! I’m open to all kinds of interactions- asks, reblogs, replies, the works. I genuinely love them!

Please keep everything SFW. The muse is underage, and I’m not comfortable with any NSFW content at all.

Zero tolerance for bigotry- instant block.

Other than that, feel free to jump in! Hope you have fun here 💛

[not-just-a-rumour]

Why are you even a rogue?

Why you ask? Because of those little bats and birds. That's why.

Bats, birdies and blown-up buildings.

I quite like alliteration, don't you?

[not-just-a-rumour]

I don’t even need safety. I just want someone to care. Is that too much?

[thenewbatman]

I have to agree with this sentiment.

[not-just-a-rumour]

See?

It’s not just me.

Everyone acts like wanting someone to care is dramatic.

It’s not dramatic. It’s basic.

And somehow it’s still too much to ask.

[rpmemes-galore]

Send me "Reminisce" for a memory my Muse holds dear. Send me "Flashback" for a memory they'd rather forget.

[not-just-a-rumour]

Hi! Do you want to be friends?

You look like you could use a friend!!

I'm Kit, what's your name?

( @kits-corner-of-gotham )

.. hi?

I don't have "friends"

I'm Le- Rumour.

[kits-corner-of-gotham]

Why not?

My sister told me that friends are integral to like human development and stuff!

[not-just-a-rumour]

Friends, huh?

Sounds… exhausting.

I’ve tried the whole ‘friends’ thing. Didn’t work out.

Most people forget you exist until they need something.

[kits-corner-of-gotham]

I won't forget you exist!

Promise.

I can be like less intense if that'll help!

[not-just-a-rumour]

Don’t promise things you can’t control.

People forget all the time. It’s not dramatic. It’s just how it works.

And you don’t have to be less intense. I’m not scared of intense.

I’m scared of temporary.

[kits-corner-of-gotham]

This is something I can control though!

Soooo are we friends or what?

[not-just-a-rumour]

I doubt it.

Ya' know what, fine.

But don't expect anything from me.

[not-just-a-rumour]

Hi! Do you want to be friends?

You look like you could use a friend!!

I'm Kit, what's your name?

( @kits-corner-of-gotham )

.. hi?

I don't have "friends"

I'm Le- Rumour.

[kits-corner-of-gotham]

Why not?

My sister told me that friends are integral to like human development and stuff!

[not-just-a-rumour]

Friends, huh?

Sounds… exhausting.

I’ve tried the whole ‘friends’ thing. Didn’t work out.

Most people forget you exist until they need something.

[kits-corner-of-gotham]

I won't forget you exist!

Promise.

I can be like less intense if that'll help!

[not-just-a-rumour]

Don’t promise things you can’t control.

People forget all the time. It’s not dramatic. It’s just how it works.

And you don’t have to be less intense. I’m not scared of intense.

I’m scared of temporary.

[not-just-a-rumour]

Hi! Do you want to be friends?

You look like you could use a friend!!

I'm Kit, what's your name?

( @kits-corner-of-gotham )

.. hi?

I don't have "friends"

I'm Le- Rumour.

[kits-corner-of-gotham]

Why not?

My sister told me that friends are integral to like human development and stuff!

[not-just-a-rumour]

Friends, huh?

Sounds… exhausting.

I’ve tried the whole ‘friends’ thing. Didn’t work out.

Most people forget you exist until they need something.

[not-just-a-rumour]

Hi! Do you want to be friends?

You look like you could use a friend!!

I'm Kit, what's your name?

( @kits-corner-of-gotham )

.. hi?

I don't have "friends"

I'm Le- Rumour.

[not-just-a-rumour]

I watched people get saved. I wasn’t one of them. And now I… don’t know how to stop wanting them to feel it too.

Am I bad? Probably. Am I fun? Definitely.

[ghostly-robin]

Want ME to save you? I can!

[not-just-a-rumour]

You can't.

The thing I needed to be saved from happened a long time ago.

I've already lost. I cannot win. The only thing I can do is make sure others lose too.

[ghostly-robin]

Well why do you want to do that? Why not attempt to heal and let others heal as well?

Sometimes healing will make you feel better!! It can get worse before its better but at same time its better than being stuck in an endless loop of pain!

[not-just-a-rumour]

Oh wow. Healing. Why didn’t I think of that.

Should I journal about it? Light a candle? Manifest stability?

The thing about “getting better” is that it doesn’t bring anyone back. It just makes you what I swore I'd never be, just another statistic.

I know plenty of statistics. I refuse to become one.

If I let go of this, I have nothing left to hold onto.

And I’m not ready to be empty.

[ghostly-robin]

...

You are another statistic. You are another statistic on why Gotham is running to shit. You may not realize it, but healing isn't just doing those things.

Healing is understanding and forgiving the past. Healing is making sure it never truly happens again. Healing is not hurting others to be better about yourself.

You are choosing to be bad, not to be better and fulfil yourself.

You are choosing to be empty. Ruining Gotham is making you more and more empty. You are just destroying yourself for the false feelings of being full.

[not-just-a-rumour]

Another statistic?

That’s funny.

I was a statistic when my parents died. I was a statistic in foster care. I was a statistic on the street.

At least now I get to choose what column I’m in.

You say I’m choosing to be bad like that’s some shocking revelation.

Of course I’m choosing it.

No one chose me.

And don’t stand there and tell me I’m empty like you discovered something profound. I know I am.

That’s the point.

You think I don’t see what this is doing to me? I do. I just don’t care enough to stop.

Because if I stop- if I “heal” then everything that happened to me becomes a lesson.

A tragedy. A footnote.

I would rather be a problem than a footnote.

[not-just-a-rumour]

I watched people get saved. I wasn’t one of them. And now I… don’t know how to stop wanting them to feel it too.

Am I bad? Probably. Am I fun? Definitely.

[ghostly-robin]

Want ME to save you? I can!

[not-just-a-rumour]

You can't.

The thing I needed to be saved from happened a long time ago.

I've already lost. I cannot win. The only thing I can do is make sure others lose too.

[ghostly-robin]

Well why do you want to do that? Why not attempt to heal and let others heal as well?

Sometimes healing will make you feel better!! It can get worse before its better but at same time its better than being stuck in an endless loop of pain!

[not-just-a-rumour]

Oh wow. Healing. Why didn’t I think of that.

Should I journal about it? Light a candle? Manifest stability?

The thing about “getting better” is that it doesn’t bring anyone back. It just makes you what I swore I'd never be, just another statistic.

I know plenty of statistics. I refuse to become one.

If I let go of this, I have nothing left to hold onto.

And I’m not ready to be empty.

[not-just-a-rumour]

I watched people get saved. I wasn’t one of them. And now I… don’t know how to stop wanting them to feel it too.

Am I bad? Probably. Am I fun? Definitely.

[ghostly-robin]

Want ME to save you? I can!

[not-just-a-rumour]

You can't.

The thing I needed to be saved from happened a long time ago.

I've already lost. I cannot win. The only thing I can do is make sure others lose too.

[not-just-a-rumour]

I almost told someone my secrets. Then I remembered they’re boring. Disaster averted!

[not-just-a-rumour]

I don’t even need safety. I just want someone to care. Is that too much?

[not-just-a-rumour]

I watched people get saved. I wasn’t one of them. And now I… don’t know how to stop wanting them to feel it too.

Am I bad? Probably. Am I fun? Definitely.

[not-just-a-rumour]

I smile! Sometimes. Mostly at my own misfortune.

[not-just-a-rumour]

Why does everyone survive but me? Why am I always the afterthought?

[not-just-a-rumour]

Sometimes I scream at the sky. Sometimes I laugh at the people below. I don’t know which is me.