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You could always go out on a walk. Hell, you could catch a train or something. It’s not ideal to leave because then Evan will be all pissy and alone, but shit is going to get rocky if you don’t leave. Not good for kiddos or you or… anyone. You are fucked either way

I know I’m basically like Evan when it comes to my moods there, so if you desperately need help, James can also probably offer you some support. I know I’m not as pushy with him when I’ve been all detransitiony, but I still absolutely suck

batty-barty

yeah…

i don’t want to leave him. honestly i was trying to avoid even leaving the room cos i’m worried he’s gonna do something to hurt himself but that obviously didn’t work out

also no offence to your man but god i’d rather die than go to him for advice lol

the kids are sleeping so i’ll probably just…make myself some tea and watch a show or something…

listen okay can i be real with you, mate?

not-officially-regulus-black

James is amazing at advice! Well, okay, no, he is kinda shit at it, but he has experienced this same thing before. I have some of the same destructive tendencies. And a very similar experience. We are both messed up in the head

But yeah, you can be real. I think you typically are quite real with me, but… you know

batty-barty

yeahhhh yeah you right. eh maybe if i get SUPER desperate i’ll come find him but for now. ew

anyway ha! yeah i do love being real with you, reggie 🤘

but real talk. i’m actually kind of worried. like about ev and i

cos like. i feel like i’m trying to get better yano? and i try to talk things out cos yano i’m pushin thirty now with two kids who are getting closer to a year old every day. and i’m not perfect obviously so i’m definitely out here messing up too

buuuut…

sometimes i don’t feel like he even wants to get better. not really

and don’t get me wrong! he’s been going back to therapy and that’s great. it’s brilliant actually

but i’m still kiiiiinda worried. i love him. i love him so fucking much. and i don’t want to even have to consider putting separation on the table

but likeeeee…

ahhh i don’t even know. i’m rambling. it’s late. i’m tired. don’t listen to me 🤘

not-officially-regulus-black

Yeah, Evan really doesn’t seem to want to try. Never really has. And yeah, I guess you guys are getting older. He really should be trying now, I guess.

If not for him or you, he should at least do it for your kids. If he’s going to be this way their whole childhood, they are screwed

Just… consider couples therapy. Separation is probably a last resort, but Evan needs to get better for your kids. Your love might last, but if Evan refuses to put anything into it, it’s hopeless. One sided. You’ll just go through the same shit over and over until eventually you break

Fuck, Evan is a mess

batty-barty

hah…you’re one to talk

and me

we’re all a mess :/

therapy’s a good idea i think. just gotta…find time to bring it up

well shit i wasn’t supposed to be crying over this. fuck

i’m gonna get myself so tea and crash on the couch and hopefully my husband doesn’t hate me in the morning 🤘

g’night reggie. your deadpan advice was most appreciated

not-officially-regulus-black

Okay, well… harsh

Also true

And hey, I wasn’t that deadpan. I’m normally like this. I’m glad I could help though. If you need a place to crash, I’m here. My door is always open or whatever the saying is

Goodnight, Barty. At least grab a blanket so you can sleep

batty-barty

fucking hell i thought we were doing better…

not-officially-regulus-black

The fuck did he do this time?

batty-barty

sigh he kicked me out

of our room

but like…still

i dunno…

it was…a whole thing. i’m kinda bummed out right now ngl

not-officially-regulus-black

Do you need to talk about it? I’m sure he was being… Evan.

batty-barty

hah…he’s always being evan. usually i love it about him but tonight? nooot so much…

yeah i dunno? he was coming on really strong. still in that weird mood about detransitioning i think. you heard how he was

and i was telling him no, but he wasn’t listening, and-

okay can i be honest? it was super uncomfy. which is not normal for him

anyway i put my foot down and i even tried to offer other stuff to do instead

aaaaaand then he kicked me out :/

and now i’m texting you and chillin in my kids room cos like what else am i gonna do? felix is off at uni now so it’s just the four of us 🤘

not-officially-regulus-black

You could always go out on a walk. Hell, you could catch a train or something. It’s not ideal to leave because then Evan will be all pissy and alone, but shit is going to get rocky if you don’t leave. Not good for kiddos or you or… anyone. You are fucked either way

I know I’m basically like Evan when it comes to my moods there, so if you desperately need help, James can also probably offer you some support. I know I’m not as pushy with him when I’ve been all detransitiony, but I still absolutely suck

batty-barty

yeah…

i don’t want to leave him. honestly i was trying to avoid even leaving the room cos i’m worried he’s gonna do something to hurt himself but that obviously didn’t work out

also no offence to your man but god i’d rather die than go to him for advice lol

the kids are sleeping so i’ll probably just…make myself some tea and watch a show or something…

listen okay can i be real with you, mate?

not-officially-regulus-black

James is amazing at advice! Well, okay, no, he is kinda shit at it, but he has experienced this same thing before. I have some of the same destructive tendencies. And a very similar experience. We are both messed up in the head

But yeah, you can be real. I think you typically are quite real with me, but… you know

batty-barty

yeahhhh yeah you right. eh maybe if i get SUPER desperate i’ll come find him but for now. ew

anyway ha! yeah i do love being real with you, reggie 🤘

but real talk. i’m actually kind of worried. like about ev and i

cos like. i feel like i’m trying to get better yano? and i try to talk things out cos yano i’m pushin thirty now with two kids who are getting closer to a year old every day. and i’m not perfect obviously so i’m definitely out here messing up too

buuuut…

sometimes i don’t feel like he even wants to get better. not really

and don’t get me wrong! he’s been going back to therapy and that’s great. it’s brilliant actually

but i’m still kiiiiinda worried. i love him. i love him so fucking much. and i don’t want to even have to consider putting separation on the table

but likeeeee…

ahhh i don’t even know. i’m rambling. it’s late. i’m tired. don’t listen to me 🤘

not-officially-regulus-black

Yeah, Evan really doesn’t seem to want to try. Never really has. And yeah, I guess you guys are getting older. He really should be trying now, I guess.

If not for him or you, he should at least do it for your kids. If he’s going to be this way their whole childhood, they are screwed

Just… consider couples therapy. Separation is probably a last resort, but Evan needs to get better for your kids. Your love might last, but if Evan refuses to put anything into it, it’s hopeless. One sided. You’ll just go through the same shit over and over until eventually you break

Fuck, Evan is a mess

#reg pretending he is also perfectly fine is amazing #like mh guy does not attend therapy and does in fact hate himself #however #he has a stable front #Evan is just completely unstable and shows it

batty-barty

fucking hell i thought we were doing better…

not-officially-regulus-black

The fuck did he do this time?

batty-barty

sigh he kicked me out

of our room

but like…still

i dunno…

it was…a whole thing. i’m kinda bummed out right now ngl

not-officially-regulus-black

Do you need to talk about it? I’m sure he was being… Evan.

batty-barty

hah…he’s always being evan. usually i love it about him but tonight? nooot so much…

yeah i dunno? he was coming on really strong. still in that weird mood about detransitioning i think. you heard how he was

and i was telling him no, but he wasn’t listening, and-

okay can i be honest? it was super uncomfy. which is not normal for him

anyway i put my foot down and i even tried to offer other stuff to do instead

aaaaaand then he kicked me out :/

and now i’m texting you and chillin in my kids room cos like what else am i gonna do? felix is off at uni now so it’s just the four of us 🤘

not-officially-regulus-black

You could always go out on a walk. Hell, you could catch a train or something. It’s not ideal to leave because then Evan will be all pissy and alone, but shit is going to get rocky if you don’t leave. Not good for kiddos or you or… anyone. You are fucked either way

I know I’m basically like Evan when it comes to my moods there, so if you desperately need help, James can also probably offer you some support. I know I’m not as pushy with him when I’ve been all detransitiony, but I still absolutely suck

batty-barty

yeah…

i don’t want to leave him. honestly i was trying to avoid even leaving the room cos i’m worried he’s gonna do something to hurt himself but that obviously didn’t work out

also no offence to your man but god i’d rather die than go to him for advice lol

the kids are sleeping so i’ll probably just…make myself some tea and watch a show or something…

listen okay can i be real with you, mate?

not-officially-regulus-black

James is amazing at advice! Well, okay, no, he is kinda shit at it, but he has experienced this same thing before. I have some of the same destructive tendencies. And a very similar experience. We are both messed up in the head

But yeah, you can be real. I think you typically are quite real with me, but… you know

batty-barty

fucking hell i thought we were doing better…

not-officially-regulus-black

The fuck did he do this time?

batty-barty

sigh he kicked me out

of our room

but like…still

i dunno…

it was…a whole thing. i’m kinda bummed out right now ngl

not-officially-regulus-black

Do you need to talk about it? I’m sure he was being… Evan.

batty-barty

hah…he’s always being evan. usually i love it about him but tonight? nooot so much…

yeah i dunno? he was coming on really strong. still in that weird mood about detransitioning i think. you heard how he was

and i was telling him no, but he wasn’t listening, and-

okay can i be honest? it was super uncomfy. which is not normal for him

anyway i put my foot down and i even tried to offer other stuff to do instead

aaaaaand then he kicked me out :/

and now i’m texting you and chillin in my kids room cos like what else am i gonna do? felix is off at uni now so it’s just the four of us 🤘

not-officially-regulus-black

You could always go out on a walk. Hell, you could catch a train or something. It’s not ideal to leave because then Evan will be all pissy and alone, but shit is going to get rocky if you don’t leave. Not good for kiddos or you or… anyone. You are fucked either way

I know I’m basically like Evan when it comes to my moods there, so if you desperately need help, James can also probably offer you some support. I know I’m not as pushy with him when I’ve been all detransitiony, but I still absolutely suck