Sharon Carter @notahelplessfemale - Tumblr Blog

sgtjamesbrogers:

When Sharon dropped the paper on Bucky’s lap, he lifted it up and immediately recognized it as an ultrasou, though far more advanced and precise than the ones Bucky had obsessed over before Grant was born. They were still something Bucky wasn’t used to, and was in awe at. The first time he saw Grant’s ultrasound, the first time he saw his son, had had him in uncontrollable tears afterwards, at night, in Steve’s arms.

Seeing Sharon’s ultrasound didn’t bring the same sentiment, but it was still touching nonetheless.

He didn’t say anything about the marriage comment. It was an old topic.

“How’s that make ya feel?” Bucky asked, carefully putting the ultrasound back in her bag. “How’re they? Healthy?”

“Scared.” She admitted quickly, glancing at Bucky again before she bit her lip, allowing the emotions that had been stirring inside of her to surface. “Excited, nervous, but mostly scared. And a little sad when I think about the knowledge that these children will outlive James and Michael.” She confessed in a quiet voice, her eyes locked on the road.

She was thankful for the second question since it gave her something else to think about, something that didn’t revolve around the fear that was racing through her veins at the thought of being a mother again.

“Yeah, they’re healthy. I need to keep an eye on my blood sugar and my iron which is why I keep getting really dizzy and even fainting. That was a problem with the boys as well though, Michael kept sitting on my vena cava which stopped blood flow to my head.” She explained, tapping her fingernails against the wheel. After a few seconds of silence, she went back to biting her lip again.

“I’m actually really scared Buck.”

#p:bucky

capstvnrogers:

Steve looked down at the phone, reading the message Sharon had quickly typed with a frown on his face. When he was done, he slid the phone back to her, silent and thoughtful. He comprehended the words in which she was saying, and yet, his mind was narrowed on what she had told him.

Taking the phone back, he typed a quick message of:we’ll figure it out. Short as it was, Steve wanted to talk to her more about it later, when there weren’t as many people around.

“I guess,” he then said, somewhat distractedly. “He does think it’s his fault, but it’s also a case of his health. His therapists and doctors don’t think it’s a good idea if he remains in Security anymore. In fact, they want ‘im to quit.” He cleared his throat then, looking around. “Don’t apologize,” he then said, quietly. “It ain’t your fault. You were stressed, I was there – it makes sense. Hell, if I had been in your situation, I would’ve yelled at me, too.”

A soft smile was directed her way, soon followed by the smallest shake of his head. “Don’t think he can do that, Shar,” was his soft reply. “He has to focus on his health, and on the kids as well.”

Taking the phone back Sharon read the message before she slipped it into her bag, leaning forward on her hand as Steve spoke, explaining the situation with Bucky. It was a shame but she could understand it. “At least he has the kids at home, gives him something to do. I know you’d both drive yourselves to madness if you couldn’t work anymore and didn’t have anything to occupy yourselves with. Though, to be fair, I imagine that after a few months both Ellie and Grant are going to go a little crazy at all of the attention.” She laughed, imagining the situation as their food arrived.

She shrugged simply at the comment, again understanding entirely what Steve meant, it was what was best for Bucky. “I’ll have to stick to enlisting Natasha then, she’s certainly scarier than him.”

#c:steve

lillightningfrost:

“I do not see it.” He mumbled, looking in the review mirror for a moment. “You will need to get something in you. You will be eating for three.” He chuckled softly, his hand reaching over resting a hand on her knee.

“I’m aware, it would just help if I could keep anything down.” She sighed, tilting her head back to rest against the headrest of the chair. Her hand dropped down on top of Magni’s, resting comfortably as they drove. “Are you hungry for anything in particular?”

#p:magni

lillightningfrost:

“Like a puppy?” Magni repeated, that same confused face looking at Sharon. before it turned away, turning on the car and reversing out of the parking bay. “Or perhaps something to eat?”

“Yes, a puppy.” She smiled, settling happily into her seat as they moved. At the question she actually laughed aloud, nodding happily at him. “Sure, I don’t know if I can keep anything down so you can eat for me.”

#p:magni

lillightningfrost

notahelplessfemale:

Sharon sighed at the thought before she pulled away from Magni, looking at him with a serious expression. “We need to talk about the living situation.” She said in a soft tone, biting her lip. “Because, in case you’d forgotten, we’re not together.” It was a serious conversation but one that Sharon knew they needed to have. “So, until I die obviously, how do you want to do this? I’m against splitting them up, and when I did this with Steve until recently when the boys moved out, Steve did weekends and I did weekdays.”

Magni blinked at the others words, having not expected it to occurred, not now at least. “Living arrangements? Sharon they are only two months along.. why… what.” The man was so confused by the womans questions. “Shar.. I…”

notahelplessfemale

There was something about the dumbstruck look on Magni's face that made Sharon laugh, not that it was appropriate to laugh which caused her to bite the inside of her cheek to stop it. "I'm sorry, you look even more like a puppy than normal when you do that." She managed to say without actually laughing aloud though she could hear it in her tone. Leaning forward she gently kissed his cheek before she grabbed her seat belt. "How about you take me home and I'll fix you a drink okay big guy?"

#P:Magni

lillightningfrost

notahelplessfemale:

The kiss simultaneously relaxed Sharon but also made something inside of her tense, a reminder of an unanswered question between them, one that she didn’t want to ask. “You all say that,” She sighed, leaning her head forward to press her forehead against Magni’s. “But there is still an element of being alone, I know that, I have done this before.”

“You have done this before, that does not mean it will be the same.” He murmured softly, the pad of his thumb rubbing at her cheek. “Shar. I promise you I will not let you do this on your own.”

notahelplessfemale

Sharon sighed at the thought before she pulled away from Magni, looking at him with a serious expression. "We need to talk about the living situation." She said in a soft tone, biting her lip. "Because, in case you'd forgotten, we're not together." It was a serious conversation but one that Sharon knew they needed to have. "So, until I die obviously, how do you want to do this? I'm against splitting them up, and when I did this with Steve until recently when the boys moved out, Steve did weekends and I did weekdays."

#P:Magni

lillightningfrost

notahelplessfemale:

“Or two boys. Like James.” She muttered, her mind going to the worst case scenario. Turning back to Magni she raised an eyebrow and stared at him. “We could end up with fraternal and then who knows? We could end up with a James and an Astrid.” Of course in the same breath she could end up with two Michael’s or hell, even two children that actually looked like her. Finally, Sharon sighed, pulling her knees to her chest as she stared out the windshield. “I’m sorry. I’m panicking slightly.”

“Shar you are worrying to much over this.” Magni insisted with a soft frown. A hand reached over, cupping her cheek and turning her face to his as he leaned in and kissed the worrying woman softly. “No matter how our children turn out you will not e alone to raise them. You have Steve, Bucky Michael would even help.. And you will have me.”

notahelplessfemale

The kiss simultaneously relaxed Sharon but also made something inside of her tense, a reminder of an unanswered question between them, one that she didn't want to ask. "You all say that," She sighed, leaning her head forward to press her forehead against Magni's. "But there is still an element of being alone, I know that, I have done this before."

#P:Magni

lillightningfrost:

Magni still leaning in the passenger side door chuckled, rolling his eyes. “Shar No one has it out for you.” He said with a soft sigh.”Imagine two beautiful girls. running around.” He smiled fondly, kissing her hair before rounding the car to climb into the drivers seat.

#p:magni

romanticpoetics:

Sigyn had been talking to the woman about how the classes were finishing out and just general family things when it was clear that Sharon hadn’t been doing well. Her arms slipped around her friend and moved her into a chair. “Love, are you doing alright? Did you eat today?”

Thankfully Sharon hadn’t actually gone unconscious, something that she deemed a personal victory for the day. Instead, she sat in the car, holding tightly onto it as the world stopped spinning and she was able to look at Sigyn. “I don’t think so actually. Stupid blood sugar and stupid babies.” She muttered, shaking her head as she remembered why she had felt she was about to faint.

#c:sigyn #ignore the text

sgtjamesbrogers-blog

@notahelplessfemale

After such a long time of being experimented on, and being told that queerness was an illness, Bucky was more than a little reluctant to go to the doctor. However, his eyesight was going and his eyes were hurting, there was no denying that. Already, the doctor had explained the situation by some sort of malformation in his eyes - which happened, without a doubt, when he had to regrow them after Hydra had ripped the original ones out to test the serum’s healing factor.

But he still needed to figure out what his prescription would be, and, for that, he needed someone he could trust to come with him. Steve already did too much, already put up with every odd manifestation of Bucky’s PTSD. Besides, he wanted to spend more time with Sharon and the baby she was carrying, so that was who he asked to take him.

In the car, on their way that, Bucky looked at her from the passenger’s seat. “Thank you for doin’ this.”

notahelplessfemale

“It’s okay.” Sharon genuinely meant it, driving Bucky to his appointment was giving her some time to mull over her latest discovery without Magni next to her muttering about ‘little warriors’. One hand sat on the steering wheel whilst the other was on her knee, her shoulder positioned just well enough so that the back of her forearm was pressed against her lower stomach.

“It gives me time to talk to you about the baby.” She smiled, glancing at Bucky before she took a slow breath and turned back to the road, her grip on the steering wheel tightening ever so slightly.

“Except, through recent developments as of yesterday... Babies...” She said slowly, glancing at Bucky quickly before she reached down next to him, her hand sliding into her bag before she placed the ultrasound on his lap. At nine weeks they looked like dots on the ultrasound, but there were two dots instead of one.

“I think some higher force has it out for me. Probably my mother because I never married.”

#p:bucky

lillightningfrost:

A minute later Magni left the building a envelope in hand. “Or it is just because you have two little warriors in you.” Magni chuckled, unlocking the door to his car and helping the woman in. “Aren’t you lucky I drove?”

“I don’t mean passing out. I mean the fact that I’m pregnant with twins. Again.” She reiterated, staring up at Magni with a helpless expression before she slipped into the car and sat down, leaning forward to press her head against the dashboard. “I need a drink. But I can’t drink. You need to get drunk so I can watch and live vicariously through you.”

#p:ma

moondrips

#aesthetic

lillightningfrost:

Magni looked at Sharon with slight confusion before looking up at screen. a mixture of confusion, excitement and curiosity filled him as the image appeared infront of him and then the sudden announcement caused him to look at the screen with shock before looking down at the now passed out woman. “Shit not again.” He muttered, unsure what to do.

“Sharon. Sharon. Sharon.” She finally came around after the third time her name was spoken, opening her eyes to find her doctor pressing a damp cloth to her forehead.

Then it all came back.

“Fuck.” She said quietly, sitting up and taking the glass of water that was in the other hand of her doctor. “Not again.” She whispered to herself, ignoring the chuckle of her doctor.

In half a second Sharon was off the bed, snatching up a pile of prescriptions that had been printed off earlier and stormed out the door, waiting patiently by Magni’s car as she gently tapped her head against the window.

“Someone has it out for me up there. I bet it’s my mother because I never married.”

#p:margo

lillightningfrost:

“Sorry for that again.” He chuckled softly as he heard the door open, eyes moving to the doctor, watching the exchange until Sharon invited him over. Nodding softly the man stood, walking over to the woman and taking her hand squeezing it gently. “See this? What am I meant to see?”

“The baby.” Sharon explained softly, sucking in a deep breath as the doctor gently inserted the probe, turning on the monitor.

“You’ll be able to see the heartbeat at this stage.” He explained, the image on the monitor shifted around, at first black, then static, and then various shapes coming into view that Sharon recognised from twenty-two years ago.

“There’s a heartbeat.” He smiled, looking at the monitor and that beating pulse on the screen. Sharon’s hand tightened on Magni’s as she looked at it, something in her chest rising up, bringing a tear to her eye as she stared at the heartbeat until the image shifted.

“And there’s another. Congratulations. You’re having twins.”

At first, Sharon simply stared at the doctor, her grip on Magni’s hand going limp, then she managed to make a confused sound before everything went black.

#p:magni

lillightningfrost:

Once the doctor left Magni smiled softly at the other nodding. “You shouldn’t have to go through these kind of things on your own.” Magni insisted, chuckling softly. “I guess you can thank my fathers genes for that.”

“I think I can thank your father’s genes for me being pregnant.” She laughed, rolling her eyes at the thought before the doctor returned, Sharon’s smile dropping as he did.

“Well, congratulations you’re pregnant.” He smiled, causing the blonde woman to roll her eyes.

“I think I figured that out the last time I threw up.” She muttered under her breath, the comment making the doctor chuckle before he set up a sheet over Sharon’s legs. Knowing what was coming she quickly complied and removed her underwear, holding it in her left hand as the doctor set up the ultrasound machine.

“You can come closer, you may want to see this.” He nodded towards Magni and Sharon found herself agreeing, extending her hand to the man.

#p:magni

lillightningfrost:

Once in the room Magni moved to sit in the nearby seat, watching carefully as the doctor asked Sharon questions and then began to prepare to take the womans blood. He really did feel a little awkward sitting there, what was the father meant to do when he was sitting in these appointments. He just continued to watch closely, giving the woman a supportive smile.

The second the blood was drawn the doctor left to run a few tests on it, leaving Sharon alone in the room with Magni. Pressing the cotton ball to the point on her arm she rolled onto her side, looking at Magni with a nervous smile.

“Thanks for being here. Last time I did this I was on my own.” She admitted softly, her eyes moving over his face. “You really are beautiful. And I do mean that, I’m not just saying that because it’s something else to think about other than how scared I am right now.” Sharon laughed nervously, tucking a strand of hair behind her ear.

#p:magni

lillightningfrost:

Magni was insistent to take Sharon to any and all appointments she may have. so that is why he was sitting there next to her as he looked at his phone, messaging Lena to inform her he would likely be home late and that she could order any take out on his card. sending it Magni than looked up at Sharon. The woman was obviously nervous.

As the others name echoed in the room Magni felt his hand be surrounded by the others, returning a light squeeze before the pair stood, walking up to the doctor. “Every thing will be fine.” The blonde whispered before turning, holding out his hand to the doctor. “Is this the father?” The doctor asked Sharon curiously, causing Magni to raise his eyebrow.

“Uh huh.” Sharon whispered as she moved inside, nodding at the doctor politely before she glanced over her shoulder at Magni. “He is, he’s half Jotun and half Aesir.” There was no point in lying since it was probably incredibly useful to know. The doctor seemed to nod before he gestured to the bed where Sharon promptly lay down, staring up at the roof as she attempted to calm herself.

Her hand lay off the edge of the bed as the doctor spoke, playing slightly with the paper that hung there as she answered the questions without thinking. She only really came back into focus when the doctor when to take her blood and she shifted slightly. “I’m right handed, do my left arm please.” She said softly, extending it out to the man, her eyes never once leaving the ceiling.

#p:magni

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