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[hoedl]

This whole relationship rly fuckedme up

And now I'm questioning my own sex drive and whether it's healthy or not

My boyfriend pressures me for sex multiple times a day. If I gave in, it was physically draining. If I put my foot down, it was mentally draining (because he would be whiny and just hover over me)

The unfortunate thing is that sex was actually good, but his entitlement really ruined everything. Over time, not only did I not have the space to initiate it, but I just didn't need it very much

Reflecting on my previous relationships, I never really fucked that much in a day. And tbh, I got bored w my previous 2 partners sexually cus dick was not big enough and they also didn't last long. Honestly, I view myself as a fleshlight in all my relationships and because of this, i am far from turned on. The relationship I'm in now, is actually some of the best sex I've had. But again, he really had to go and ruin that by being a rapey piece of shit.

Sex work has without a doubt influenced my sex drive. It's VERY hard to not view relationships and sex as transactional. The question is always " what am I getting out of this?" Because it's really hard for me to find men my age who puts in effort that is worth my sexual energy. And none of my partner's have really done there part to keep me happy. Maybe except one, but he was very emotionally needy which is just as draining.

All in all, now I don't know if somethings wrong with me or if sex work is to blame or if most men are truly just selfish and pieces of shit. Because when I talk to my friends outside of sex work, they have sex drives that kind of match my current bf, and speaking to them about it makes me feel a little bad, *almost* as if I've been depriving my bf but Jesus, once a day is honestly more than enough and u should be grateful.

I just don't know if I'm ever going to be in a relationship where sex won't be an issue. I have a hard time viewing sex as a way of bonding and showing love. The way I see it, is it's all about men. And their pleasure. And I don't really want them to touch me. I hate when they insist on pleasing me but it's actually for THEM, not me.

Not being paid for sex is honestly just a crime

[huffpost]

This is so important. 👆 

Rep. Ayanna Pressley (D-Mass.) proposed legislation to decriminalize sex work as part of a sweeping resolution she introduced aimed at revolutionizing the criminal justice system. The People’s Justice Guarantee includes proposals to combat mass incarceration by expanding access to restorative justice, ending the cash-bail system, implementing minimum sentences, terminating solitary confinement and ending the death penalty. The U.S. “has a moral obligation to meet its foundational promise of guaranteed justice for all,” the bill reads. 

Notably, the resolution also includes a clause calling to decriminalize sex work, which is often a byproduct of discrimination, poverty and/or addiction. “Two principles of the People’s Justice Guarantee are safety and dignity ― both of which are compromised for consensual sex workers,” Pressley told HuffPost. “Sex work is work. In fact, sex work is often the only form of work for certain marginalized communities who are most vulnerable to housing and employment discrimination.” 

Head here for more on The People’s Justice Guarantee.

[pearltiare]

playlists for angelic moods~

you feel sensual and are ready to rejuvenate - you step into your clawfoot bathtub that’s full of rose petals, lavender oil, and pink salt

you’re wandering Paris - the sky looks like cotton candy, the Eiffel Tower is starting to twinkle, and there’s a fresh raspberry macaron in your hand

you’ve stumbled upon a fairy garden - the fairies whisper sweet compliments into your ears and sprinkle their dust atop your hair

there’s an extravagant ball tonight - you’re a princess, dressed in a beautiful gown and delicate tiara, and have just been asked to dance

you’re walking in New York City - you’re wearing your favorite silk dress and heels, lightly buzzed on rosé, hailing a taxi for a night out

it’s the early 2000s - you’re in your bedroom with your best friends, gossiping about your crush and wearing baby pink Juicy Couture

the afternoon is hazy - you’re having a picnic with your lover on a soft blanket, surrounded by wildflowers, the air is full of pink lemonade and kisses

the year is 1946 - your pearl necklace decorates your neck, everything is in black and white, live jazz softly serenades your ears as you make unexpected eye contact with an attractive stranger

[veryrichbitchh-deactivated20241]

Best escort advertising website for Boston, MA.

[notahoblog]

First booking ever from slixa was in Boston

[workingitinportland-deactivated]

Paris zoo unveils the "blob", an organism with no brain but 720 sexes

A Paris zoo showcased a mysterious new organism on Wednesday, dubbed the "b...

This newest exhibit of the Paris Zoological Park, which goes on display to the public on Saturday, has no mouth, no stomach, no eyes, yet it can detect food and digest it.

The blob also has almost 720 sexes, can move without legs or wings and heals itself in two minutes if cut in half.

“The blob is a living being which belongs to one of nature’s mysteries”, said Bruno David, director of the Paris Museum of Natural History, of which the Zoological Park is part.

“It surprises us because it has no brain but is able to learn (...) and if you merge two blobs, the one that has learned will transmit its knowledge to the other,” David added.

The blob was named after a 1958 science-fiction horror B-movie, starring a young Steve McQueen, in which an alien life form - The Blob - consumes everything in its path in a small Pennsylvania town.

[notahoblog]

My guess as to how they can tell apart the 720 different genders is chromosome combinations in the dna? Like xxxyy xyxxxxx to our xx xy? Or???

[notahoblog]

Traveling Europe with my best friend and my boo spending the last leg of the trip traveling Portugal pretending it’s our honeymoon. Staying in castles and drinking Portuguese wine in the sunset. I’ve managed to fall in love with someone who enjoys life and luxury the same way I do and has the means to do it.

Once I stopped settling for trash I found the one person who doesn’t relish making fun of me at every moment and cutting me down. Inadequate men are so so so threatened by women. When you’re in the thick of it you just think it’s a personality trait... but really it’s fear.

[non-binary-bun]

All y’all saying ed sheeran doesn’t have struggles like

Being that ugly can’t be easy

[dantecain]

This is like… really mean?

Ed Sheeran does have struggles and he’s been through some rough shit.

You know he ran away from home at 14, right?

[non-binary-bun]

What really? Fuck I had no idea

[dantecain]

Yeah.

And The Shire hasn’t been the same without him.

[notahoblog]

Burn

[notahoblog]

When you got a party with a potential presidential nominee and standing senator at 9 then an underground queer rave at midnight... what to wear what to wear

[notahoblog]

DUDE I hate when you say can we confirm a time for (insert date) and the answer is not a time but an “ok” or a “will do” like can u speak English? Do you not understand the question? WHAT TIME BITCH ???

[brasilian-bs]

[notahoblog]

I admit I really don’t like pubic hair. On men or women. I have a really strong sense of smell and the scent of pubic hair is repulsive to me. The guy I’ve been sleeping with has a beautifully shaved situation and all the porn boys I’ve been working with shave absolutely everything. For some reason it’s the norm now. I had a client today who didn’t shave and I just could not help but gag. I just don’t think men are clean enough to sport a bush.

[notahoblog]

Now that this site is basically dead I’ll start using it again

I am addicted to falling in love. I’ve been having a wonderful time being single and I intend to remain that way for a minute but dang i really can’t help it some times.

I’ve been making a solid effort to remain independent and not lose myself in this one but for once I feel I might be able to pull of a healthy open relationship.

I’m not investing in anything with no future. He has already shown me real dedication by flying me across the world just bc he missed me.

I’m not interested in dating men casually.

[notahoblog]

I am so paranoid when it comes to SD’s. I’m really bad at sugaring tbh. When it’s client/escort I feel I am not at the whim of the client and I give far less of a shit.

I’m getting flown private to art Basel and it all sounds too good to be true, which is usually a wise rule to live by. But. I need to learn to relax. It’s the fact that I’ve invested free time and energy into this and to see no pay off is... terrible.

I gave this guy my real date of birth and had a panic attack bc I didn’t hear back and it’s been 15 mins past my pick up time. I thought I was getting ghosted bc he saw how old I am.

Then ding car is there.

Lol triggered.

[notahoblog]

Girls have been giving me the best orgasms lately, I think bc I’m really wanting sex to be a physical healthy sensation as opposed to emotional and relationship based right now.

I’m able to get out of my head and really feel it.

I’m into it!

[buckykingofmemes]

Why don't I feel like I'm a good person?

because you’ve got the inside view. 

see, you see all your nasty thoughts as they pass by. you feel all those mean impulses; you catch every terrible thing you think about a friend, you have to watch yourself procrastinate on important stuff and be lazy when you feel like you should be working. you get front-row seats to all the awfulness that comes with being a person. and you only get that view of yourself, not of anyone else. so naturally, since you can’t see all the internal flaws in everyone else, it seems like they don’t have them–but you do. 

the secret is that everyone has those flaws. 

if being a good person is something you strive for–if you keep those nasty thoughts inside your head instead of directing them at other people, if you support your friends instead of pushing them down, if you try your best at what you do–then i promise you, you’re a good person. and even if you fail at that stuff sometimes, all it takes to be a good person is to keep trying. 

there’s nothing any more bad about you than there is about loads of other people. 

ask your friends if you’re a good person–when it comes to things like this, they probably see you more clearly than you do yourself. trust them. if they say ‘yes, of course’ then you’ll know you don’t have to worry. if they say no, you can ask them why, and then strive to change those things about yourself.

just remember that if it seems like everyone else is a better person than you, it’s only because you can’t see what’s happening inside them. trust me–everyone struggles to do the right thing sometimes. even steve.  

you’re a good person. even if you don’t feel like it. 

[notahoblog]

Had a lovely goddess orgy last night and now all is well.

Last night was almost too good to be true. There was a significant lack of masc men at the party. As I was about to head out with my tail between my legs I walk in to say goodbye, I see 5 girls I had met earlier and my friend who throws these parties all taking turns with a hitachi, like a reverse circle jerk but so much more adorable.

Like wow the fact that the stars aligned enough to put us all in the same room was a true blessing.

So I’m just gonna ride that high for a min.

[notahoblog]

Metaphor for my life tbh when men fail the most simplest of tasks there are like 5 beautiful girls that blow it out of the park

[notahoblog]

Had a lovely goddess orgy last night and now all is well.

Last night was almost too good to be true. There was a significant lack of masc men at the party. As I was about to head out with my tail between my legs I walk in to say goodbye, I see 5 girls I had met earlier and my friend who throws these parties all taking turns with a hitachi, like a reverse circle jerk but so much more adorable.

Like wow the fact that the stars aligned enough to put us all in the same room was a true blessing.

So I’m just gonna ride that high for a min.