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Andulka
Misplaced Lens Cap
taylor price
YOU ARE THE REASON
he wasn't even looking at me and he found me
cherry valley forever
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Keni
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One Nice Bug Per Day
occasionally subtle
★
Sade Olutola
ellievsbear
RMH
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Cosmic Funnies
DEAR READER
Aqua Utopia｜海の底で記憶を紡ぐ
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@notanotherdaddyissuesstory
letting go
you just need to know that i loved you
so much
and im sorry i couldnt be there to watch
to watch you grow up
to watch all the wonderful things youd do
but you will be better with your daddy
he will take care of all that now
i promise things wont make sense for a while
but eventually you will see i did this for the better
learning
28 years
it took 28 years to realize
dont trust anyone
you can let people in
but never tell them what youre feeling
you need to hide that
or else
you might end up where i am
trama
it started with daddy issues
then add the drinking
sprinkle in seeing some abuse
adding in years of my own sexual abuse
a dash of some self harm
a pinch of a suicide attempt
a cup full of watching the love of my life die
then an ounce of addiction on my part
my favorite part of the reciepe a whole bundle of my baby boy
then several spoonfuls of failing relationships
thats how you get this ending
this
no one will see this until after im gone
no one will understand my words until after im gone
no one will know what i went through until after im gone
i knew you didnt love me
the moment it was JUST US
and you couldnt pay attention
to me
for just one second
the feeling of dread
the feeling like someone stabbed you in the gut
the feeling like someone sat on your chest and wouldnt move
the feeling like someone was holding down a pressure point
the feeling like someone was there but did not give a damn what state you were in
one night
one night was all it took
it started with one night
and it ended with one night
love
can not exsist with anyone
if it does not exsist inside yourself
my drug
it wasn't you
it wasn't an actual drug
it was the feeling
the feeling of someone being with you
someone you can just be next to
someone there so you just dont feel alone
darkness
your eyes
they used to be oceans
they used to consume me
they used to cover me
they used to stop my breath
they used to seem endless
they were replaced with darkness
salvation
i thought you were the one
i thought you were the end
but then i realized the pain i was feeling
were all the knives you were hiding in my back
outbursts
thankful for your time
thankful for your company
thankful for your compassion
thankful for your love
yet something isnt right
something is holding me back
something is telling me this isnt it
healing
i don’t believe in healing
there has never been a day when i have felt whole
white lies
there are different people in the world
ones who separate lies
and ones who believe a lie is a lie
i never knew which one i was
until i realized that one little one lie
means there are more
before im better
youre going to leave
and for the first time since i met you
i am finally feeling like myself
youre going to leave
before you even see me at my best
could
we could do nothing
we could just lay there
we could not speak
we could not not touch
and those are the moments i will
mondays
to everyone else
mondays are the worst days
reminders of the real world
first days back at work
mornings you have to get back into the routine
but for me
mondays are my favorite
those are the nights i get to see you