You Are Strong

Hello beautiful. This blog can probably be triggering for some.. /: My apologies.. Anyway, my name is not important and neither is my story. But if you want to know, or by some slim chance you care, you should probably know that I'm a recovering self-harmer. Self-abuser. Cutter. Burner. Rubber band snapper. You name a type of self-harm, I've probably done it. But I'm changing now; I don't want to live like this anymore. But I'm still working on it. I was clean for one year (It's November 25th, 2011), but I relapsed. /: I will make a year clean sometime after March 18th, 2012, I just don't have an exact date because I can't remember. This is where I'll post my notes and poems and thoughts when I want to self-harm. You want something posted too? Want support? Just need someone to talk to? I'm here; Use my submit box and I'll happily submit what you post if that's what you want. My ask is open if you need it. I will overcome the monster of self-harm. You can too. <3 Stay strong angels.

[notesfromtherecoveringselfharmer]

My Little Big Voice

All my life, I’ve never had a problem voicing my opinions. When I started middle school, I became the quiet girl who never spoke up in school, but I still was opinionated with my family and friends. When I started high school, my voice slowly started to fade. All because the monster inside my head started to feed on my voice. Anytime I feel inclined to speak about what is going on in my head, the monsters stomach grumbles and he begins to feast. On my opinions, my voice. My sanity. He’s detaching me from people I never thought I would leave. He’s stunting my growth as an artist, musician, and human being. If my 8 year old self could see me now, I don’t think she’d recognize me. I don’t even recognize myself when I look in the mirror. I look in my eyes and I see the monster hiding behind my eyes.

[notesfromtherecoveringselfharmer]

is it dangerous to cut on your stomach especially on the sides. I avoid my wrist because i don't want to cut a vein or artery . I don't cut deep. am i still in danger?

Any sort of self-harm is dangerous.

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You are an amazing person. You don't know this, but you've been there for me when no one else was. Thank you.

I'm always here

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I do not know you, but I love you. Thank you for your kind words. 

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Thank you

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Not sure what tumbler is. Not sure I'm messaging you. I found your post and wanted to say thanks.

You're welcome! Happy to be of service

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I don't know what to say I liked reading your letter it was inspiring. I still feel hopeless. I have this heavy feeling in my chest that won't go away. I feel like no one cares and that no one wants to listen to me. I know this isn't a question sorry ok how did u change or stop?

You don't have to ask a question. I'm here for whatever you need - ANYTHING. And it was hard, but I stopped. The recovery process is different for everyone, but possible for all.

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I just wanted to say this made my day. I’ve been through at lot from rape from and family member to abandonment from what feels like everyone. Also I have had a headache for a year and 9 months. I’ve cut myself since may 24th 2015. Only once in may once in june. 43 times in July. Today is the 17th and I’ve done it 62 times this month. Most of them aren’t that bad but lately I don’t stop until it’s atleast dripping. I have only done it on my wrist thinking I can hide it so far no one has noticed the only people who know I told. You are an inspiration to me. You give me hope to stop. Hope to get better. Hope to make my best friend stop worrying about me. Thanks for making me feel like I’m something :)

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hey, are you still active?

Regards

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Thank you so much for posting this. You saved my life tonight. I have felt so alone and depressed and you have reminded me that I am truly not. I love you and I hope we can overcome our struggles together. <3 thank you so very much ps- your story is important and so are you, and you should never say or think otherwise

Good! I'm glad I could help one soul. Let me know if you ever need anything else.

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I don't even know if you use this anymore. I want to kill myself. I'm so sad.

I will admit that I am bad at posting on here, but I'm always here to read your posts. I care. What's up?

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My family doesn't love me anymore, they just think I am wasting money. The truth being the fact that I have got my laptop, a smartphone, a wifi router,many things through my hard earned money. I wanna commit suicide. Please help.

Why do you feel that way? What are your parents saying to you? If it's your money, you shouldn't feel guilty spending it the way you want to. You deserve that, at the least. Your hard work pays off.

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A lot of these don’t relate because I’m a bad person . I hate myself , I’m bad to my girlfriend I’ve stole from my family and friends . I want to change but it’s too hard I’m just stuck and like no one understands . Like you would’ve even it sucks … But your probably the closest to it

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Hi

My name is Ceri and i just wanna say that this blog is very similar to a project i will be doing for my school project week assignment. I want to a self help website for girls like us tell our stories and gain each others’ support. I’m glad to know that there are who think the same. I too am a recovered self-harmer. Not much of a cutter but I’m more drawn to the flames. I was wondering if you have clues or advise.

You can email me @ [email protected] and we can talk more :)

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Thank you for writing all this down. helped.

Glad I could help! I want to be here for people. Im happy to be here for y'all.

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help

none of this matter got no special any fuckin thing exept lies and embarrasment

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Hello all!

Just an update: I've been clean for quite a few years now. Even though I don't update this blog as often, I still read your messages everyday and send good thoughts towards all of you. I'm about to break up with my significant other of 18 months, which is going to be so hard, but it truly is for the best. How is everyone else doing? Please keep messaging me. I love you all, and stay strong.