Notes On A Fragile Mind

All The Things You're Not Allowed To Feel

[notesonafragilemind]

It takes more than fucking someone you don’t know, to keep warm.

[notesonafragilemind]

I got a plane in the middle of the night, don't you mind

I nearly killed somebody, don't you mind, don't you mind

I gave you something you can never give back, don't you mind

You've seen your face like a heart attack, don't you mind, don't you mind

I was late but I arrived

I'm sorry but I'd rather be getting high than watching the family die

Exaggerate and you and I

Oh I think I did something terrible to your body, don't you mind

I put your mother through hell, don't you mind

I hate your brother as well, don't you mind, don't you mind

Oh I was thinking about killing myself, don't you mind

I love you, don't you mind, don't you mind

[notesonafragilemind]

Life.

[notesonafragilemind]

Damn I’m good at predicting my own demise.

[notesonafragilemind]

I’m done trying.

[notesonafragilemind]

Life.

[notesonafragilemind]

Lesson learned. Manage your expectations. Life will never give you what you need or want, instead it’ll give you what you deserve...nothing.

[notesonafragilemind]

I wish I could strip myself clean of my desires.

They are of no use anyways.

I want to be forgotten and dismissed.

I wish to just fade the fuck away.

[notesonafragilemind]

That moment your wants make you hate yourself. Way to go brain.

[notesonafragilemind]

Fuck you.

[notesonafragilemind]

I’m tired of trying to find some sort of meaningful ‘thing’ to make sense of loss.

[notesonafragilemind]

Fuck me. I want you

Fuck me. I need you

Fuck me. It doesn’t have to be physical

Fuck me. Just stay and talk a bit

Fuck me. I just want to hear your voice

Fuck me. I don’t want to be alone

But.

Fuck me. Right?

[notesonafragilemind]

Do you ever just need to connect...rules be damned.?

Yeah, me too.

[notesonafragilemind]

What happens when a man loves the world, but hates himself?

[rabbruad1]

“Gravitational pull exists not only among planets, but among people.”

— Bruce Adler

[violentwavesofemotion-deactivat]

Marina Tsvetaeva, tr. by Elaine Feinstein from “Poem of the End,” c. 1924

[notesonafragilemind]

🖤

[confessionvault]

I wish you’d grab my face and kiss me hard like your life depended on it.

[notesonafragilemind]

Left Wanting...

I just want to be cared for. I want to be held on to and held all at the same time. I want to give love and be given love in kind. I want to kiss you and be kissed back. I want to fuck and be fucked. I want to inhale and exhale with you. But I am alone again. A stranger in my home and my bed. I miss the touch of fingertips to skin, the hot morning breath down my neck. I just want to be cared for. I want to, dare I say it, be desired. I avoid the mirrors because I hate what I look like, if I can’t stand to look at myself, why would you? I am alone again.