Why I Cried During My First Solo Trip?
In the year 2016, I started traveling alone for the very first time to overcome my fears. I read somewhere you must travel alone it helps you learn a lot.
I googled where I can start so that I can get back home by Monday â I could not afford to quit my job at that time.
One of my school friends whom I call Bhandari Sahab helped me to decide where I can go first as he is from Pauri, Uttarakhand.
âMukteshwar was the place we decided finallyâ
I was a bit tentative. To be honest!
Why I was tentative?
Traveling alone was the condition and I had never traveled alone before. I didnât know how to catch a bus or how to reach Mukteshwar.
Nevermind! Bhandari told me to reach Haldwani and from there you can reach Mukteshwar.
I went to my parents and asked for permission. My family wasnât sure about that -
I told my mother âI need to overcome my fears to sustain. I am afraid of everything. I am unable to make even the simplest decisions on my ownâ
I got their permission.
I still remember I was reluctant while packing my bags. I guess fear was there.
It was a Friday evening. Everything was set. I was faking â how excited I was in front of my family so that they wonât get worried.
Bye! See you on Monday I saidâ
I took the bus to Haldwani.
I reached Haldwani in the early morning and from there on I had to catch a local bus for Mukteshwar.
You wonât get buses frequently in the mountains. So, I waited after reaching Haldwani.
Luckily! After a couple of minutes, I got on the busâŠ
After a couple of hours, I was able to see the Himalayan Range covered with snow.
I got tears in my eyes. I have never seen such things in my life. It was surreal.
âWhere were you all those years,â I asked myself
A couple of hours later I reached Mukteshwar.
I searched for hotels. I found one homestay.
Freshened up and went for breakfast!
It was a bright sunny day although it was very cold.
After having breakfast. I roamed around, saw some beautiful places.
BUT, I got disinterested as the day passed byâŠ
As the sun began to set, everything started looking dismal. I was restless. I didnât like it anymore.
I was feeling homesick suddenly!
I started getting bad thoughts.
âYou must decide what is the highest value in your lifeâ
Freedom or Bondage?
I was in mountains. I was totally free. Nobody was around me STILL I was not feeling free, I was lost.
âTo enjoy freedom one needs certain clarity and courageâ
I FEEL I WAS NOT READY OR I CAN SAY I WAS NOT COURAGEOUS ENOUGH TO HANDLE THAT FREEDOM.
After living so many years like a caged bird. I was suffering immensely in that freedom.
I realized that I wasnât readyâŠ
I asked some locals if there is any bus for Haldwani?
They said âno bus now but you can hire a taxiâ
I packed my bags again and ran to catch the taxi. I paid double to get back to my home the same day.
















