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#NOTORIYA. [ INTO THE FORBIDDEN LIBRARY ] Independent / Private / Non-Affiliated Multimuse. Muses are divergent or else heavily drawn from my own headcanons. OCs are entirely my own. Please read rules before following. **UNDER CONSTRUCTION**
winter . 21+ . she / they [ EST. October 2023 ] CARRD // MEMES // INBOX
my fiance got me into comics and i picked up The City Beneath Her Feet on a whim. anyways, im thinking about add Jasper to my muse list with barely any information outside the first issue
your muse + you !! use the picrew (in link) to create your muse and yourself <3 / ft. avery
tagged by. @goetiya. tehe. tagging. @isrya, @edenfelled for vistele, @ladysmaid, @yukikorogashi, @goetiya again for lucretia heehoo
i really want people to stop writing scientists as awkward, stilted conversationalists who don't understand idioms or emotions and start writing them as depressed alcoholics who swear like sailors unless they're in a specifically academic situation
Seriously the number of academics I have seen who look like gum on the bottom of someone's shoe but who can scrape themselves into a vaguely human position if you tell them there's grant money on the line is much higher than you would think
i'm OBSESSED with the new league trailer even though i dont play anyways adding elise to my muse list because im weak for deadly women in masks
rising from the ashes of my lightcannon hell. anyways im adding lux to my muse list
veilguard spoilers ahead through part 10, especially for emmrich
OKAY LIKE
I love emmrich and playing eva as the rook definitely is a little tough since rook is very goody good which is FINE but eva would still enjoy the finer points of necromantic philosophy with emmrich
So you bet your WHOLE ass i let emmrich become a lich, thats cool as hell and they LOOK cool as hell. and when he came out, fuck yea dude you got an upgrade.
but then....... in your party he looks normal. BUT the legendary armor is the lich armor.... BUT his head is still glamoured so he just.. looks like a bobblehead. so there he is in lich armor, his entire torso is missing except for a golden ribcage and a human head. i just want to flick him to see if his hand bounces back and forth. ITS SO LAME. I WANT A LICH LOOKING LICH IN MY PARTY
on another note on veilguard as a whole - i really do miss the darker tone from the previous games, namely origin and da2, as old as they are. Veilguard touches on it but never really goes into it, or Rook ends up cracking a joke to make it all funny and break the tension and it feels more like an avenger's movie than a dragon age game at some points of the dialogue. the codex entries can still hit hard, but i want the tone in the atmosphere of the game too, not just in the lore bits you read.
also it feels really weird as an elf to constantly refer to it as 'our gods' if you hc your elf rook is really removed from dalish/elvhenan culture - but i guess its more accurately 'our really powerful ancestors'. Though city elves in DA:O. even removed from dalish clans, still use elven words and stuff and have some traditions that are mixed in fereldan and dalish, so i guess its not that far off to feel like the majority of elves feel that commonality (even though some of the dalish treat you like TRASH)
as i said before, im enjoying veilguard, and still am. but i miss the darker, grittier stuff. maybe im being a boomer about it, as a dragon age follower since literally the very beginning but it doesn't hit the same. WHERES MY BLOOD MAGIC
arcane (s2) sentence starters
ep1 - 8. warning for spoilers !
❝ everybody wants to be my enemy. ❞ ❝ you’re our leader. they follow you. i follow you. ❞ ❝ i've seen miracles spring from the hands of mages many times, but so often, they turned to horrors. ❞ ❝ why does anyone commit acts others deem unspeakable? for love. ❞ ❝ in my experience, no one in power is innocent. ❞ ❝ i don't wanna hear another word out of your mouth. ❞ ❝ i keep telling myself that you're different. but you're not. ❞ ❝ i haven't insulted your intelligence. do not insult mine. ❞ ❝ if you see the opening...take the shot. ❞ ❝ it's me. your vile villainess. the author of your nightmares. ❞ ❝ you have no inkling what family is to me. ❞ ❝ our paths diverged long ago. it was affection that held us together. ❞ ❝ i'm done blaming myself for your mistakes. ❞ ❝ there's one thing i know in my bones. there is no force in this world that can control you. ❞ ❝ your talents can be used to build, instead of destroy. ❞ ❝ no beast is more savage than man. ❞ ❝ i am the dirt under your nails. nothing's gonna clean me out. ❞ ❝ the dirt was on both our hands. ❞ ❝ stick your head in the dirt if you want, but this fantasy you've been living out here, it's not gonna last forever. ❞ ❝ now people avert their gaze when i roll by. ❞ ❝ still giving me the silent treatment, huh? ❞ ❝ you think it's so easy? to turn your back while your city looks to you for salvation? ❞ ❝ playing coy doesn't suit you, love. ❞ ❝ is it bad that i'm making friends with my demons? ❞ ❝ can i do the right thing for the wrong reason? ❞ ❝ ever since you dropped into my life, it's like i put on glasses. ❞ ❝ jeez, lady, you crazy? talking to dead people. ❞ ❝ sometimes taking a leap forward means leaving a few things behind. ❞ ❝ that's a past life, kid. and it was about as sweet as last year's milk. ❞ ❝ why is peace always the justification for violence? ❞ ❝ haven't i done you enough favors? ❞ ❝ i must say goodbye to this place now. to you. ❞ ❝ you got that look in your eye again. what are you planning? ❞ ❝ people have lost their heads for less. ❞ ❝ everyone in my life has changed. promise me you won't change. ❞ ❝ wrath must be met with wrath. ❞ ❝ what you've stolen…is more precious than any gold. ❞ ❝ i apologize for the intrusion. i was attempting to sneak in. ❞ ❝ address me with respect, or keep your mouth shut. ❞ ❝ this is what you asked for. heavy is the crown. ❞ ❝ and then what? you take what you need, hang me out to dry? ❞ ❝ do you realize how easy it was for me to track you down here? ❞ ❝ awful, isn't it? losing a loved one. ❞ ❝ i'm sorry. i’m not comfortable trusting our fates to chance. ❞ ❝ you think it's so easy? to turn your back while your city looks to you for salvation? ❞ ❝ whether i'm pulling the pin or not, everyone who gets close to me dies. ❞ ❝ you walk along the edge of danger and it will change you. ❞ ❝ your youth betrays you. patience is a product of age. both of which i possess in abundance. ❞ ❝ we gotta choose right now whether we're gonna throw in the towel or make a stand together. ❞ ❝ i had a different name back then, you know. ❞ ❝ when will you admit that this is just one of your fantasies? ❞ ❝ my arrogance led me to take on more than i could handle. ❞ ❝ such force must be a final resort. ❞ ❝ in my experience, only guilty men answer accusations with silence. ❞ ❝ every time it seems like we might catch a break. ❞ ❝ you're a monster. why? why do all this? ❞ ❝ i must ask you to surrender your weapons. this is a place of peace. ❞ ❝ i still think it's a dumb idea. but i guess you won, and a deal's a deal. ❞ ❝ it’s nice to know there are still good ones left. ❞ ❝ i promise, it's the last offer you're gonna get. ❞ ❝ no matter what i do, i just can’t seem to die. ❞ ❝ maybe i underestimated you. maybe you have the strength i do not. ❞ ❝ you don't actually need my help. you haven't for a long time. ❞ ❝ like it or not, we're in this mess together. ❞ ❝ compassion. hate. two sides of the same coin. ❞ ❝ i have a plan. you’re not gonna like it. ❞ ❝ come closer, will you, babe? ❞ ❝ i'd feared i wouldn't have the chance to speak with you again. ❞
been playing veilguard. i have many thoughts so far but only finished part 7. so far, its a fun game, feels too much like fantasy mass effect to my liking. i enjoyed being able to control party members and having more than 3 abilities to use like the past games. also introducing morrigan, listing her accomplishments, but none of them are stopping the blight in Fereldan??? criminal.
SUNDOWNING (2019) BY SLEEP TOKEN PROMPTS * assorted lyrics as dialogue, adjust wherever necessary.
the night does not belong to god.
the night comes down like heaven.
the whites of your eyes turns black in the low light, in turning divine.
we tangle endlessly, like lovers entwined.
i know for the last time, you will not be mine.
so give me the night, the night, the night.
you are a garden, entwined with all.
you are the silence on sacred shores.
you’ve got diamonds for teeth, my love.
so take a bite of me, just once.
take a bite.
this is a giving, an offering in your favour, a sacrifice in your name.
i know you've got a taste.
give in again and let me lay.
my arms belong around you.
i want to take a bite.
i can lift you up.
the trauma we can't regrow just as you leave again.
will you levitate up where the angels inhabit?
will you levitate where i won't reach you?
we imitate a story of perfect days.
a ballad we fabricate as you forget your words again.
and is that all you need to merely pretend to be falling in love with me?
will you levitate up where my love doesn't matter?
where i was raised, there was no street lights, just pitch black and passing headlights.
where we met, there must have been dark signs, omens in your skies.
most days you reach for safety.
remain calm, forget that you know me.
when we met, i could see dark signs, alarm bells in your eyes.
i miss the man i was the moment we left off.
i might break and bend to my basic need to be loved and close to somebody.
i hate who i have become.
and if you saw the marks on my dashboard, the new scars that i didn't ask for, would you call, asking for answers?
'cause i am a fire and you are dry as bone.
you are taking your time, you are killing me slow.
and i know we instigate, go back and forth, lacerate.
we are exhausted by all this pretending.
we just can't resist the violence.
you need a melody, i only need the silence.
each time we battle, the blood and the fury takes us a little higher.
with all that you believe, you still refuse to shelter me.
you're a long way from home.
you are one among many, but you're now on your own.
i hate the way you look at me when i am not understood.
you won't begin again.
the debt that i owe …
wait, won't you wait for me?
don’t you feel alive?
it sends me shivers how you love like weapons kill.
so take aim at me for once.
just take aim, break me apart.
won't you call out my name like a curse on this world? like a battle cry?
you make me hate myself, make me tear my body. make me yearn for your embrace.
break me apart, love.
oh, won't you?
you led me on when the moment is perfect.
i will fire and forget 'til we both lay broken.
you know i’ll be yours.
just want to be worth it.
you take the dark and carve me out a home.
i picture you when you are all alone.
i know how we got here.
i am the shadow, you're a passenger.
if you want to give, then give me all that you can give.
if you want to give me anything, then give. give in again.
i’ll tear the fibre from the filament.
i’ll be the limit of your light again.
i want to taste you better.
i will be watching for your enemies, to let them know that they contend with me.
i want to know you're out there.
i want to give you all that i can give, all my darkest impulses.
in this open warfare, i won't fight fair.
in your waking moments, i will be there.
i will be there.
i see the gods avert their gaze from me.
my fucking form is but a wreck beneath them.
there are always people i can call on.
no more taking chances, no more teeth to bite with, no more smiling faces. i am alone again.
you want to talk, you want to talk it out? 'cause the joke's on me, and i’m laughing too.
you want to watch me bleed, 'cause i bleed so well?
do you like the way it feels? like fire from the heavens tearing me asunder beside you.
you play a twisted little game, but i know in a way, you need to complicate.
believe that though we never eat, we still know how to feed.
sugar, i’ve developed a taste for you now.
show me what you do.
do you wanna see how far it goes?
do you wanna test me now, my love?
you must be crazy if you think that i will give in so easily.
things we buried low coming to the surface now, my love.
you must be crazy if you think that i will give up the game.
sugar, i’ve got a taste for you now.
is that a word you said, my love? or just a gesture in tongues?
well, i live to guess your sorrow and you live to empty my lungs.
you've got me up in a frenzy again and i know you're planning to leave in the end.
won’t you say that you will?
let the impulse to love and the instinct to kill entangle to one.
in this light you are mine 'til the sweat turns to blood.
won’t you say that you will? even if you won't.
is that a glint in your eye? is that a blade in your palm?
well, i am yours tonight, so will you lay in my arms?
i know the angels tonight are as lost for words as i am to merely behold you as we lie down together.
drag me under again, deep into your love.
i know the gods will abandon the heavens just to find us. to merely behold you as we lie down together.
hold me beneath the surface, deep into your love.
i want to roll the numbers, i want to feel my stars align again—even if the earth breaks like burnt skin and the heavens just won't open up for me.
won’t you pay for your arrogance?
won’t you show me your weakness?
i made loving you a blood sport.
i made loving you a blood sport i can't win.
i’m still your favourite regret.
you’re still my weapon of choosing.
and out there, stuck in a quantum pattern, tangled with what i never said, you say it doesn't matter.
i want to be forgiven. i want to choke up chunks of my own sins—even if the sky cracks in mourning and the heavens just won't open up for me.
would you invite me in again? let me pay for my arrogance?
darling, i’m noticing your flaws. they’re exactly what i want. even if you won't believe me, know it.
darling, i’m noticing my flaws and i’m matching them with yours.
won’t you take me where you're going this time.
no matter the cost of rain, i will shelter you all the same.
CELESTIAL BONES WOULD TWIST & SHATTER BENEATH brutality's intensity — should Eva indulge the sing-song symphony urging the painting of sanguine viscera. make her listen, make her believe. golden gaze does not squander the flinch, nor the broken seconds that pass awkwardly. a tsk falls from plush petals, skeptical. what was this force the other tempted to tug on ? a leash ? a tether ? soul-bound was muted within the thrall of cacophony. a falter of inhuman proportion. no song, no heartsigh. what could be describe as many lifetimes of maddened wanting, gone. ❛❛ love ? of course. i would rather not have to subdue you from your own machinations. but you know no restraint . . . what you ask is too much. ❜❜ husky tenor cracks as she wanes from the evidence, wishing nothing but an end to the insanity — to the bloodshed.
a heart that beat for justice, for honour and the need to protect others from harm. greed bereft, despite the waiver selfish desire offered. much like a demoness readied with her contract: a kiss, a stolen breath. Lucretia's lungs constrict, as if ribcage resided in a torturous vice. you're poison. a quiver, suddenly cold. the paladin was betwixt oath and love. between the moral sway of inhibition and devotion. sharp ivories grit, raising right to hush Eva. siren of a woman spoke in riddles, of inviable dream-like visions. things that Lucretia failed to relate to. only knowing of the now, and the carnage sticking to her armor. ❛❛ your love comes with a cost. & that is, everything I have ever known, my devotion and the font of my divine oath. you seek to drain me of that. ❜❜ panic etches into star kissed features, causing the very heaven's to tremble at what may come to be. ❛❛ can you not simply control yourself ?! death is so permanent, so sudden. you create ripples of rage, you'll bleed my love out. ❜❜ this a bare whisper. truth disarming the vessel of blood more than any weapon could. In the depths of those countless eternities of outpouring love would reach out many hands. abyssal gnawing a gripping a voracious loathing. Lucretia did not want to be alone again, she could not bear it. with Eva there was companionship, a quick love and a heart that would skip beats upon the other saying her name. why was it there was always a sacrifice to be made ? ❛❛ tell me how we do this ? ❜❜ a haunting harrowing horror, was what the paladin would feel as they became further from their god. take me from the dream, peel me back from my skin. bleed your love out.
❝ Oh I know restraint. More than you know. ❞ There's a constant need, a need to scream and yell at the cosmos. She remembers how she was plucked from the life stream, circle of rebirth interrupted, soul and core plucked apart and stitched together.
It left within her a constant anger, a need to see everything bleed.
BONES BREAK. SINEWS TEAR. ALL COME TOGETHER AGAIN.
The edges of insane blood thirst press against her psyche and she can almost taste it and revel in it. But no one knows restraint more than she does. Because she would have her revenge and all would understand. She needs only to play her part.
BRING HER OR BREAK HER. BLOOD WILL FLOW
Eva sheathes her dagger once again. She can't hide the pain Lucretia's words cause her. She could lose everything but her. Eva needed her, more than air and water. They were intertwined.
❝ The cost is worth it. I just ask for your faith and your love. It will be worth it. Death is a mercy compared to what else the realm offers to mortals. ❞ Fingers dance elegantly along her breastplate, fingers tracing the ornamentation. Visions of blood staining the steel make her salivate. Oh how Lucretia would look in bath of bloodshed. ❝ Even if all seems lost, know that I am myself. And I will see that we are free. ❞ A promise or a lie she is unsure herself. How much will she lose for her vengeance?
❝ You don't need to do anything. Not yet, my love. Do not sully your hands.❞ Eva smiles, squeezing her hands. Knowing she hasn't lost Lucretia yet helps keeps the darkness at bay for now and the silence is a relief. She knows it won't last and she steps ever closer into the dark but for now her twin soul keeps it away and she can revel in her own free will. I will be free. Then I will be wholly yours.
longlegs.
dialogue prompts from longlegs (2024).
half psychic is better than not psychic at all.
maybe we'll just call you 'highly intuitive'.
can you stay on the line?
you know, there's such a thing as looking too long.
i must have lost track of time.
i'll drink while you tell me things.
it's almost like ____ was never there at all.
you didn't call to say goodnight.
even veals grow a little, and they grow up in a box with their legs all tied up.
i spent the day at home. where else would i be?
i'm okay. i just can't sleep.
i saw more than my fair share of nasty stuff.
i think i just need to be quiet for a little bit.
somebody's birthday is coming up.
be careful they don't work you too hard, alright?
are you still saying your prayers?
you're not afraid of a little bit of dark because you are the dark.
i've seen you before.
you've been to my house.
it's like a long dream, and so dark. a world of dark.
do you remember coming here?
what aren't you telling me?
when was the last time you talked to your mother?
will you tell me the honest truth about something?
i never said my prayers, never once. they scared me.
all our prayers don't help us. prayers don't do a goddamned thing.
nobody ever came to visit. no family, no strangers, no big bad wolves. not anybody.
you're not a child because you were allowed to grow up.
this is a cruel world, especially for the little things. not all of them are allowed to live.
i might have forgotten everything i could, but i never threw anything away.
you really don't remember?
now you're free, too.
i'm just a friend of a friend.
i'm doing this for you. just like i've always done.
don't call me that.
CARRD UPDATED!
BREAK HER BONES
Dark words echoed in her own voice within her mind. It makes her flinch and reel, and she shakes her head to clear it. ❝ Do you not feel it here? ❞ She presses the palm of her hand over her own heart. Bound at the very essence of their souls, they call to one another. but do you even have a heart of your own.
❝ What is a god compared to what we have shared for countless millennia? I know you feel it, I know you feel me. ❞ A primordial truth, etched in the cosmos and the souls of the stars above. But she was tainted now, used as a plaything, created as a means to an end. Plucked from the cosmos, she became Bhaal's pawn.
[ and she reveled in it. a feeling like no other. crimson drops tasted like freedom, even as she was tied to the god of murder. it was against her better nature, but to let it go - to lash out without inhibition - it was almost too good of an excuse to not indulge into it. puppeted by another entity, written into the core of her soul, how could she fight it? should she? ]
There's a veiled threat underneath those words and Eva recoils. She teeters on the edge of her own sanity, struggling to keep in view the larger picture that she kept as her compass.
OPEN HER EYES THEN HER VEINS
Emerald gaze hardens, looking up at Aven now. Paladin in gleaming white, she was radiant. the rock loosens. she tips into the abyss. ❝ Then kill me. ❞ She takes a dagger, curved like serpent's fang dripped in paralytic poison and holds it to her own neck. ❝ Finish me. Earn your favor. If I'm lying then I will be dead and you will live your life and eventually fade into history, naught smooth stone being your mark on the world. ❞ Eva simply smiled. ❝ Or come with me and see how far we go. I will show you everything. ❞
Blood will flow, without or without her.
WELCOME, CHOSEN.
List of “just angst for angst’s sake” prompts
“You were it at one point, you know?” “I don’t like how you used past tense there. Makes it hurt more, and makes things… It makes things so much more real.”
“This is exactly why I never wanted to fall in love with you.”
“I still don’t understand what I did wrong.”
“...Why did you do that for?”
“I’ve always wondered why it had to be you.”
“Did I… Did I do something wrong?”
“I can feel you cutting me off. And it sucks because I don’t know why you’re doing this.”
“Please don’t tell me you’re trying to pull away from me.”
“Why won’t you love me back?” “…You’re drunk, let’s get you home.”
“It’s not that I can’t do this anymore, it’s just that I don’t want to. Not with you.”
“Whatever I do, I can’t fucking get you out of my head and it’s ruining me.”
“I don’t… I don’t think I can trust you again.”
“No matter how hard I try, I can’t help but doubt you. And I can’t keep living like this; living in the fear that you’d end up being the one tearing me to pieces.”
“I don’t want to love you anymore.”
“Can I be honest? I don’t miss you. I don’t miss what we had.”
“The worst part is I truly loved you.”
“I wouldn’t be in this state if you just left me alone from the very start.”
“…I wonder if things would have been better if we never met.”
“Maybe we should let broken things stay broken.”
“I could have lived without knowing you never meant anything you told me.”
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PROMPTS FOR ORDINARY THINGS THAT FEEL INTIMATE * inspired by this post. these don't have to be romantic - you can specify romantic or not when you send them. in essence, these are simply intimate, affectionate moments to share with someone you love and care about. adjust as necessary, send 'reverse' for the reversal of the prompt
[ lean ] sender rests their head on receiver's shoulder
[ shop ] sender and receiver go to the grocery store together
[ brush ] sender brushes receiver's hair
[ tie ] sender helps receiver with their tie, either by putting it on or adjusting it
[ necklace ] sender helps receiver with the clasp of their necklace from behind
[ zip up ] sender assists receiver with zipping up a piece of clothing
[ unzip ] sender assists receiver with unzipping a piece of clothing
[ shoelaces ] sender bends down to tie receiver's shoelaces
[ swipe ] sender notices a smudge of something on receiver's face and gently wipes it off
[ braid ] sender braids receiver's hair
[ jacket ] sender takes their jacket off and hangs it on receiver's shoulders
[ puddle ] sender hurries to stop receiver from stepping into a puddle
[ drinks ] sender brings receiver a drink from a bar/their kitchen
[ feed ] sender feeds receiver's pet/s for them
[ cook ] sender and receiver cook a meal together
[ feed ] sender allows receiver to try a bite of their dish, holding their fork out for receiver to taste
[ teach ] sender, an expert at something, takes time to teach receiver how it works and how they can get better at it, too
[ readjust ] sender comes up behind receiver and readjusts their stance (maybe holding a gun, holding a golf club, aiming for something, etc.) to help them
[ makeup ] sender fixes receiver's makeup for them
[ bathroom ] sender and receiver go to a public restroom together and have a normal conversation in between the stalls
[ aloud ] sender reads aloud to receiver
[ refill ] sender refills receiver's glass without asking
[ massage ] sender notices receiver looks tense, steps up behind them, and massages their shoulders
[ listen ] sender listens to receiver explain something they're passionate about
[ silence ] sender and receiver comfortably exist in silence together, both of them working or reading or focusing on something different
[ food ] sender brings food over to receiver's house
[ hum ] sender hums along to a song receiver is singing
[ see ] sender sees something that reminds them of receiver and texts them a picture of it
[ admire ] sender stares at receiver across a room, silently admiring and appreciating them from afar
[ win ] sender lets receiver beat them in a game
[ puzzle ] sender helps receiver solve/put together a puzzle
[ carry ] after receiver falls asleep in an inconvenient place, sender carries them to a bed and tucks them in
[ kneel ] sender finds receiver sick in the bathroom ("tossing their cookies"), and kneels beside them, holding their hair back and cleaning their face
[ clean ] sender helps bathe receiver
[ wash ] sender helps receiver wash their hair
[ patch ] sender carefully patches one of receiver's wounds
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