~In my blood~
Help me
I'm laying on the bathroom floor, after important game we lost. I feel nothing, yet overhelmed and insecure. I failed them.
Somebody help me
It's like the wall are caving in. How could I, they trusted in me. I want to pull my hair out, I'm crawling in my skin.
I need somebody now
I'm afraid to be alone, but I don't want to face them. I'm trying to find a way to chill, but I can't breath. Isn't there somebody who could help me. I'm lost.
It gets better
I lift my head, just hear my teammates cry. They need me. I get up and in my mind gather my team around me. I need to tell them, it gets better.
Yes. Sometimes I feel like giving up but I just can't, it isn't in my blood.
I stop myself at the bathroom door thinking;
I need to tell them, it gets better.
But truly... does it ever?