What is your idea of perfect happiness?
My idea of perfect happiness? I suppose it would be that all my family and friends be happy and healthy, by my side or close by. My happiness lies with my family and I have no qualms in admitting the fact, as long as they are all there and whole, I’m perfectly happy. Well, that and for me to be where I want to be in life. With a job that I like, or in a university that I wanted to be in.
What is your greatest fear?
My greatest fear would be to lose someone that I love. I can’t imagine my life without any of my loved ones, I could never even imagine how much it must hurt to lose something, someone that is a part of you and how empty it would feel with them just not being there anymore. That scares me so much... I’d never wish it on anyone.
What is the trait you most deplore in yourself?
I know that I can be too hard on people. It’s a trait I am not proud of at all and wish that I could change but can’t seem to. If someone disappoints me, if someone does something wrong... I make sure that they know it and how they’ve screwed up. I hope that one day I can change this but as for now, it is how I am.
What is the trait you most deplore in others?
Cockiness. I absolutely hate when people are overly confident and cocky, so much so that they feel that it is alright for them to tear down others. It is not all right for you to make others feel like crap, nothing gives you the right to say anything bad about another person. Some people pride themselves on the fact that they say things to their face instead of behind their back but no, it is just as bad as the other. Just because you said it to their face doesn’t make it any better. It still hurts and it still doesn’t give you the right to say what you are saying.
Whom do you most admire/ do you think of as a hero?
My fathers. They’ve been through so much in their lives that I can’t even dream of going through and making it out. They’ve been told that they can’t love who they love and that they weren’t allowed to get married and they’ve been bullied to the points of where they were inches from losing their lives. For what? For loving someone. They’ve been through so many unimaginable things and yet they are still so strong, optimistic and loving. They never lost their spirit. They’re my heroes.
What is your current state of mind?
My current state of mind? I guess, content? There’s nothing that’s going no that is stressing me or making me unhappy. Nothing that’s making me overly ecstatic or excited? It’s somewhat of a lull, I think.
What do you consider the most overrated virtue?
Chastity and purity. It’s kind of ridiculous how obsessed society is with these two things, especially when it comes to females. If a girl has had sex and enjoys having sex or is confident in her sexuality then she’s a slut. Honestly, virginity is just a social construct, it does not affect anyone or anything and is just this idea that separates people and makes them uncomfortable or bad about themselves no matter which side they are one. You’ve had sex? You’re a whore. You haven’t? You’re a prude.
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?
I mentioned it above that I am much too harsh on people, it is definitely something that I’d wish to change about myself. That and how I always jump to the worst conclusions in situations, it could be anything and I’d always think of what worst would come to worse.
When and with whom was your first kiss?
Oh gosh, my first kiss... It was actually with my ex-boyfriend that I have mentioned before. I’ve spoken of how Benjamin was my best friend for many years before he became my boyfriend and so we’d thought who better to share are first kiss with than each other? A way to help each other out so that we weren’t completely clueless when time came for us to actually kiss people we liked. He was my first kiss, not my first boyfriend though.
Have you ever been in love? If so, describe what happened.
I don’t think I’ve ever been in love, no. I loved Benji, I really did but it wasn’t the kind of love that you mean. I didn’t really feel anything when we broke up. I was sad, of course but that was mostly because I was losing my best friend more than the fact that we were breaking up. That and I don’t think I believe in love, my parents give me hope for it but do I believe I’ll find “the one” like my parents? Doubtful.
Are you optimistic or pessimistic?
I feel when it comes to matters of the heart, I may be more of a pessimist but in general? I think I’m an optimist. I hope for things to happen for the better and like to see the brighter sides of life even when I feel like I’m at my lowest. It makes going through things a lot easier.
How do you keep calm/what helps you relax?
Honestly, talking to my twin. Arielle knows how to calm me down and talking to her just helps me unwind. I don’t always go to her, sometimes I just bottle it up, stress myself and just let it sit and fester inside me until I finally go to her and just let it all out. She’s always there for me when I need her and I honestly could not imagine life without her. Her and a cup of hot chocolate because hot chocolate makes everything better.
What are some songs that always make you feel better?
A song that has always made me feel better is basically anything off of any Disney movie soundtrack. They are all just so happy or really optimistic with some great messages and some that are just plain cheesy. It’s hard to stay upset or sad when you’re listening to a Disney song. Not Let It Go, though that one is way too overplayed.
The song that never fails at making me smile or excited for the day is
The real thing that never fails at making me smile is when I listen to my fathers sing to each other or duet in the morning. It can sometimes be sickeningly sweet but it always makes me smile and hope that I have something similar with someone when and if I ever want to settle down. As for excited for the day, that would be Perfect Day by Hoku.
Who was the last person you called? what was the reason for the call?
I called my father, it was about the fact that me and my sisters just cannot keep continuing to share one car. Two to one car was alright but three to one is just not fair and all right. Especially when we’ve all got so many things going on in different places and we all need the car at once. Complaints about that and that we were out of milk. #FirstWorldProblems.
Why did you Audition for the glee club/what was your audition song?
I auditioned for Glee because I knew that it would make my parents happy. They would never force me or my sister into joining it if we didn’t want to or anything but I know it was something they wanted for us to do since it made them so happy when they were in high school. They’ve always made sure that me and my sisters had music and acting in our lives, even if we didn’t want to go into that when we grew up, it’s something I enjoy too. Though I’d not make a career out of it like they have. My audition song was Young And Beautiful by Lana Del Ray.
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