Ahhh this is all so nostalgic... I was reading through some of my diary entries the past few years and most of the things I talked about I already forgot. It's probably my brain's coping mechanism... but reading them again made me remember how bad it was and how shitty I felt during those times.
I felt so sad for my younger self for going through those shitty times that I had to bawl my eyes out and write my thoughts because it's getting too much. Fast forward to years later and I'm still here (but better). Hehe so proud that I'm still here and I get to experience all these new things and turning new pages and meeting amazing people... I remember seeing the sunrise after so long of being cooped up in my own head, I just had to say a little prayer of thanks that I get to see how wonderful it is to just be and watch as the sun rises.
These days, I don't cry myself to sleep anymore. I spend my weekends doing cutesy stuff or just people watching in a coffee shop. Sometimes, I meet up with friends for dinner or lunch or merienda hahaha (but never bfast because I'm still not a morning person). I also moved out!!!! That's one of the highlights of my year. I've been more active and less tired these days because I have my own space. I got promoted too! In my 5 years stay in my current company, I've been promoted thrice already. Hehe I never really celebrated those promotions but I'm kind of proud that they trust me enough and think I'm capable of handling bigger things as a corporate girlie.
As I grow older I realized na life is really just about giving yourself endless grace... and to be patient with the process. And dami kong to do list at 2023 goals na di na tick but I have time, I can take it slow. I cannot do everything all at once and that's okay. Totoo ngang there are years that ask questions and years that answers. 2023 is the year that answered most of my prayers. Looking forward to whatever is in store for me in 2024. For the past years I haven't been excited about new years and turning new pages but I am very much excited for whatever good things this new year has for me.
It gets better! It does! I don't know how to stress it enough but it does. Live for the moments that make you say a little prayer of thanks that you are still here. They will come... and when you're in the middle of that moment you'll be so thankful you moved forward :)
Keep going. There will always be better days.
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