NOW OR NEVER!

indie jatp multi muse - as loved by riley. 

[nowcrnever]

all muses from here can be now found at @cursedlovlttrs​.

[nowcrnever]

all muses from here can be now found at @cursedlovlttrs​.

[worldpromiseda]

HIATUS ANNOUNCEMENT .   /  4 - 22 - 2021  to unknown.

so .. we know, my activity is not great. not that it ever has been but that’s not the point here. this year hasn’t been good.. to me really and my mental health has been a lot worse than normal, scary level bad. so i decided i wanted to take a break from here. a full break, besides the brief lurking to check on friends. because i tend to fall into the pressure of thinking i need to be active and other things, which is not good for my mental health or just in general honestly.

but i will be wanting to do stuff on discord [if partners wanted] as that’s a lot more freedom to me & i don’t feel a lot of time restrictions on there to be fast / consistent.  i will come back as an actually active party eventually but for now this is a break - this stands for @leatherfce​ and @nowcrnever​ as well.

LIKE THIS POST IF YOU’D LIKE MY DISCORD FOR CONTACT & OR MAKING A DISCORD SERVER FOR CONTINUING RP.

[nowcrnever]

what if i just got randomly active for willie’s birthday tomorrow ...

[nowcrnever]

hi~ so unless netflix comes out with a different last name, willie’s last name is wright (until they get alex’s last name but shh.)

[zhoufeis]

luke + showing nothing but love and affection for his boys

[diazseddie-deactivated20211005]

reggie peters ↠ duality of character

[cowpokeprose]

You hate yourself so loudly. You hate yourself at the top of your lungs. Your loathing for yourself permeates your speech. “Sorry I’m just rambling.” “Don’t worry about it.” “Just ignore me.” “Sorry if I’m annoying you.” “Sorry I don’t make sense.” “Sorry about that.” Sorry, sorry, sorry. You act as if you have to beat everyone else to the punch. As if the punching bag is you. If you hate yourself first, if you hate yourself loudest, then nobody will hurt you. You clapped your hands over your ears and shut your eyes and balled yourself up so that you’d never have to experience people’s loathing for you. And it meant you never heard their love. You drowned it out. You screamed your hatred over it. And you never got to hear it. 

[diamado]

willex invented hugs

[natashatrace-deactivated2023020]

love language: nose scrunches

julie molina + luke patterson

[nowcrnever]

hi im just here to switch this tag.

[nowcrnever]

COMING OUT + WILLIE .

the headcanon will be under the cut due to the triggers that it involves.

willie was the middle kid of three. a younger brother who was cherished beyond belief and an older sister who was the golden star. but then comes them, the middle kid. the one who either constantly found themselves in trouble or was ignored in favor of the other two. he didn't resent his sibings for that, he resented their parents more then anything.

but it wasn't like she didn't try to be the good kid that they wanted, genuinely trying to stick to their self and not get in trouble. but sneaking out to skateboard didn't always lead you to meet the kindest people nor did staying at the back of every classroom. 

it took three years for willie to even seem to get the courage to tell his parents, his best friend daisy knew the whole time. the only person she trusted more than anything in the whole wide world. but time never seemed to be kind to them, especially not in the 80's.

it's not like he expected a good reaction. sure, some part of them hoped that their parents would magically accept them for liking boys. but she was never that foolish to fully hold onto that belief. some of the words that came out of their mouths were expected and common, others not so much.

''you're such a disappointment.'' ''you're a failure as a son.'' ''we'll get you help.'' ''we'll fix you.'' ''you're useless. so fucking useless.'' ''you've never been our son but this is just a new low.'' ''did you ruin your brother too?'' ''i don't love you. i hate you. i've always hated you.'' ''why couldn't you just be good for once in your fucking life?''

if she didn't run now, who the fuck knows what tomorrow would be bring? what their parents could do to them. where they could take them. so she did what she did best and that was skate. within 5 minutes after that conversation, he had already climbed out the window and skated away.

daisy was the destination but death came first. when you're as distraught as they were; skating into traffic wasn't the best idea. but that's what happened and... i think we all know the rest.

[wiildhcartsrun]

Luke Patterson & Let Me Make You Proud!

The pride in your eyes When you see your son rising at last

[podencos]

[liz-cat-meow-deactivated2020011]

[949520-deactivated20150611]

Tell me I’m cute or something so I can like roll my eyes at you but then blush when I think about it later

[midsommars-deactivated20201109]

Austin Abrams in Gradutation (2019)