Oh my god, You're Underhanded

"Is that another lie?" ❝No, no. I swear this is true.❞ -- Missing own rose. In possession of someone's rose. And has Shintaro's phone. Illusions last 20 minutes a day.

[nowekanot]

where did you get your sweet shoes

“Don’t tell anyone ok, it’s a secret.”

[nowekanot]

wenkwenk wenk

Oh my that sounds dirty.

[nowekanot]

✿ Headcanons - Send a word and the mun will write our a response of how it relates to their character.

✿ Truth or Dare - We all know how this one works, don’t just overrun it with dares! There’s a truth part to it y’know!

✿ Ask My Character/Mun - Ask the character anything, they are even allowed to break the fourth wall. Even send questions to the mun, this can help to know them better!

✿ Drabbles - Give the muse a prompt and they may write a short drabble on it.

✿ Bay leaf - What gives you strength?

✿ Iris - If you could send one person a message, who and what would it be?

✿ Marigold - Describe a time or reason you felt jealousy.

✿ Oak leaves - Describe a victory you are proud of.

✿ Poppy - What is something you want to forget?

✿ Quince - One temptation you’ve had.

✿ Xanthoriza - What’s something you ran away from?

[aboynostronger-blog]

that doesn’t surprise me, most people don’t know. i’ll consider resting but i don’t want to sleep. i’m not in the mood for sleeping right now actually. if that makes any sense which it probably doesn’t. 

i would like to think that the rule doesn’t apply to me because i honestly don’t care what people think about me. though that has actually changed over the years for a few reason. i knew i was always a rude asshole, but i never really bothered to think about how it affected other people because other people never really concerned me for the longest time. people and i don’t mix well, and im pretty sure i already lost someone because of the way i acted in the past. i think whenever i find someone that i might remotely care about, i get worried about losing them so yeah, i guess that rule does apply to me. i could be a lot meaner to you if i really wanted to be, but i don’t. don’t complain about it.

it’s just another word for compulsive liar, which you basically admitted to being, not an actual diagnosis. i’m not a doctor, so i’m not gonna bother labeling you like that. if you’re a liar then so be it. as long as you don’t get yourself or others hurt i don’t see a problem with it. i’m not your parent so i’m not gonna tell you right from wrong, you should be old enough to know that by now. that’s why i said if you think it’s a problem then stop it.

maybe it was for the better, but i got too attached and they left for a reason i don’t understand and i didn’t leave my house for two years. for someone that used to knowing nearly everything, this was a big blow to me. it just threw me off and i’m dealing with it the only way i know how, by trying to not bring it up. i never really liked life, i always thought it was boring, now that mindset has changed but i still don’t like it.

[nowekanot]

dont be a brat, you have to rest because im not dragging your body around if you fall asleep on the run. im trying to get out of here as much as you are and you're endangering our success. right? right. so close your mouth and your eyes and sit against that wall and rest.

i would ask who's fault do you think it is, the reason why you couldn't mix with people so well but you know its your own and have no need for me to state that into you. i learn so much about you each and every day and here you are preaching your ways and looking back on what you've done. you should have known how much people would affect your life from the fact that you're surrounded around them. i'm not judging your or anything but speaking what i believe. even if you don't want to hear it, you could say rather that someone you must have lost a lot of people. those who wanted to have a daily impact on your life and maybe some others. i didn't know you back then, you could say, and i dont know how you acted towards the people who tried coming close to you but as long as you never forget what you did right? i dont care how mean you are to me and what you say, i dont think your words hurt me at all. so be what you want and in the end your actions will make you something that you'd want or dont want. doesnt mean im going anywhere if you start yelling or acting any more crude.

oh wow you sounded like a doctor i almost thought you had a PH.D you know. hm, that's what they all say. make sure this doesnt happen or that doesnt happen but i dont think ive said anything to harm me or anyone else to my knowledge so i think im doing a good job. dont you think so? youre right, youre not my parent and i should make my own decisions but ahhh nevermind. its a problem i guess but i guess it'll stop when it wants. i cant force it and rather i just go with the flow, it doesnt matter if i think its a problem, words do what they want to people. its the people who believe it can make my difference or not.

oh no how could you ever allow something so shameful, it could have been what you deserved. or maybe you chose the wrong person, you know. you didnt have to stay shut within your house because of whoever but you chose that right? yeah. the reason you didnt understand is because you don't want to understand or itll hurt more right if you knew the real reason? and to deal with that you use life as an excuse to get away from just that. if you can get away from life, you get away from you problems and bam, its all said and done. and even now, you know it wont be all said and done because you wont freely speak about it, thinking youll stumble in your words and fall and it may be painful to hear yourself say something you dont want.

well they always said it was better to remember than to talk about it since words changes up so many times. hmm

[nowekanot]

Your hurting Shintaro, stop it

He needs someone that's even more selfish than him, someone energetic to pull him along...

"Maybe I'm no good for him."

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There’s a few moments’ contemplation here as he mulls over the annoyance’s words. He has a point, he supposes ─ or at the least something reminiscent of a point. Even if this weren’t the case, there wouldn’t - perhaps even couldn’t - be any harm in sharing a name, and so, albeit not without some reluctance still, he seems to sigh out a reply.

“…Märchen von Friedhof. Do not forget me, lest you wish to suffer consequence again.”

[nowekanot]

"..M." Pausing, the name was too tedious to even try and pronounce. He was having so many issues that it just wouldn't leave off the tip of his tongue and because of this, he felt a little bad. Maybe. A small chuckle leaving from his lips as he thought of the correct pronunciation, Kano was clearly proud of himself.

"Well, since we're on a knowing name basis as of now Mar-chan! I think we can renew our friendship with an honorary butt touch. What do you think?" All in all, Kano was just kidding around. He slightly learned his lesson from before.

[nowekanot]

does it hurt

"You keep asking me and I told you before."

[aboynostronger-blog]

i don’t like falling asleep. the seven minutes it takes for the average human to fall asleep is too long an interval. i prefer waiting until i’m exhausted so it happens faster. i’m tired, not exhausted. 

that could be the case, but also not. i mean some people just don’t like talking about themselves because they might be scared of what others might think. it’s not like they don’t trust them, they just don’t want to risk losing them because they care, or something like that. And you should get that lying habit of your under control if you really think that’s the problem. you have serious mythomania i think, though it can be dealt with.

it’s not important, just someone who ruined my life…or made it better…or both. i can’t really figure it out anymore. i don’t like talking about it because they’re literally one of the few things i don’t understand in the world. that bothers me to an extent. 

[nowekanot]

i didn't know it took that long for a person to fall asleep but that doesnt matter, you should at least rest while you're tired. being exhausted sounds like a drag.

shintaro, i understand, i think or i try to understand whatever you're saying but i know all types of people really well. have you forgotten what i do? some people this and some people that, i see i see. but im not talking about people anymore, i'm talking about you. does that rule, what you've told me, apply to you? are you scared of what i might think that you will say. if you havent thought about this then allow me to bring it up, youve said a lot of things to me i could have took as offensive and left, do you think im going to leave you over your own personal drama?

hm? you think i have something like that? maybe so, maybe it could get cured. but its always been apart of me and i was hoping that kido would have understood that by now. i guess you don't think its apart of me either hence, you think i can be diagnosed. you don't think of yourself as correct or me as correct either. i see.

you know, whatever that person did to you was probably for the better. but i dont know what they did. you can't blame yourself for not understanding a person to the point you dont discuss them because you could never solve them. it was just meant to be that way. a challenge that you couldn't ever hope to accomplishing. its life.

[neverendingopera-blog]

weenietears replied to your post: weenietears replied to your post: “What’s all this…

bye

Come now, not even a taste?

[weenietears-deactivated20131212]

… No.

[nowekanot]

Woah back off my friend

[aboynostronger-blog]

i’m tired most of the time, but yes im tired now. what does that have to do with anything though? i doubt i’ll go to sleep anytime soon.

where did you get that idea? i trust you believe it or not. i just don’t like talking about my life or thought process, it really isn’t an interesting thing to hear about anyway.

[nowekanot]

you're tired. that's good to know. so how about you go to sleep, right here and right now. i'll make sure nothing wakes you up.

where wouldnt i get that idea from? i heard trust was the main thing in getting to know things from other people. its okay, i doubt kido trusts me that much because she never tells me whats on her mind. maybe because everything i tell her on my mind is a lie. haha, funny right??? anyway, it may not be interesting but i would listen. or is that wrong, to listen?

[revengenocturnes-deactivated201]

Harsh though his retaliation might be, he at least has the grace to acknowledge the other’s agreement with a faint nod, even a murmur of a ‘thank you’: there’s no point in wasting what little energy he still has by arguing with a child, after all. Nonetheless— “Knowing me by appearance is enough, surely? In fact, I admittedly don’t see how knowing my name will help you avoid me in any way.”

[nowekanot]

"I know but, I think staying out your direction would be for the best so I could use your name as leverage if you ever appear and I want to avoid.. these consequences." Easily as he grabbed the top of his hoodie to hide his face somewhat, to show that false fear that he was acting to prove that he had. Once removing the fabric from hiding his features did he hold a smile, acting as if he was truthful to his words. Well, he somewhat was.

[aboynostronger-blog]

i don’t go far, not like i can. usually i just find places to hide so i can try and sleep, though i never do a lot of sleeping. i can honestly take care of myself better than you might think. 

did you seriously just do that? lets put it this way, i’m not interested in telling you, so i more than likely won’t. 

[nowekanot]

i won't fight with that, you win, i should have never questioned your judgement. hey shintaro, tell me, are you tired now?

i guess there's not that much trust, huh? i hear things get tight in situations like these.

[revengenocturnes-deactivated201]

nowekanot replied to your post: Touches your butt, pats it a bit before removing his hands. Ah yes, nothing better to start his day out with is wannabe scary mannequin booty.

“Ow ow ow ow. Come on, I was only kidding.” Yanking his arm away since someone had such a deadly grip on them did he give a frown, this was harassment. “Did you wanna go get tofu??”

“Although I’d made the suggestion, do know that I hadn’t been the least bit sincere about it and thus had - and, indeed, have - no qualms with not fulfilling said suggestion. Stop fondling me.”

[nowekanot]

"Okay! Fine." Well, he couldn't fight with this. "Well then, at least tell me your name so I'll never have to do this again. I need to know who to avoid."

[aboynostronger-blog]

i doubt this is the last time we’d ever speak, so think of a better reason, not that  it would help you any. you wouldn’t be interested anyway, so i don’t want to bother with it.

[nowekanot]

how would you know? i hardly know where you go and one day you could possibly up and disappear. then guess who would be right? me! what if i am interested? come on you can tell me. let me put my interested face on.

now im interested

[nowekanot]

hurt

kano is gone

[nowekanot]

it

I'm leaving

[nowekanot]

does

no