npd life

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[npd-feelings]

[has a god complex but ironically]

[npd-feelings]

im havin trouble tellin if im bpd or npd because since a lotta things overlap im just. is this me bein self absorbed or is this just a new identity ive built to because i dont have one? am i splitting or not. i dont have any money to get a therapist or a proper diagnosis ans im so lost.

i think it is down to you, and also to bear in mind that in the end it doesnt really matter which one you are. you can do research for coping tips on both of them and if they help then that’s a job well done.

[npd-feelings]

is it possible to learn empathy? like i have an SO whos my equal and i try to make myself empathize, even if it really hard ans doesnt truly come out genuine. is that even considered empathy?

i think it is, even if it might take a while

[justemotionalabusethings-deacti]

Week 1: Narcissistic Personality Disorder (NPD)

calling all people with npd! send me info about your personal experiences with npd for the MIOTW PSA Project!

some things you might send (but you can talk about whatever npd- related stuff you like!):

experiences

symptoms

struggles

little known facts

misconceptions and why they’re wrong

[justemotionalabusethings-deacti]

Week 1: Narcissistic Personality Disorder (NPD)

calling all people with npd! send me info about your personal experiences with npd for the MIOTW PSA Project!

some things you might send (but you can talk about whatever npd- related stuff you like!):

experiences

symptoms

struggles

little known facts

misconceptions and why they’re wrong

[borderlone]

my friend who has npd sent me this and ive been laughing since then

[daz4i]

*isn’t the center of attention for 0.1 seconds in a group chat* that’s it i’m quitting

[trashgarbage-deactivated2018072]

people need to stop equating “lack of empathy” with cruelty. a lack of empathy doesn’t inherently mean a lack of sympathy or a lack of compassion. there is nothing stopping someone who lacks empathy from being a good person

[npd-feelings]

Urgent ig. Do you have any tips on dealing with narc rage? I don't want to go to Google and be reminded of how fucking trashy and abusive we apparently are.

usually i store a collection of screenshots of things that give me narc supply and i go over them with a stress ball in hand. but, everyone is different, so testing methods that calm yourself would be ideal.

[narcboyprince]

Are you a blood red narcissist, a pitch black narcissist, a pastel pink narcissist, or a solid gold narcissist

[emotional-karuma]

my narcissistic ass when im on a narc high and i’m trying not to remember i’m “””disordered”””” and “”””delusional”””” and im not actually as great as i think i am and i will never live up to the impossible standards i set for myself

[npd-feelings]

someone: do you even care about what im telling you

my low empathy ass, lying: yes i care deeply

[npd-feelings]

me: i'm a fucking piece of shit. i'm never loved, was never loved, and will never be loved. i'm toxic and manipulative and stupidly self-absorbed. i'm so fucking lonely and i'm going to die by myself. no-one cares about me. they all hate me.

also me: oh my god, i'm so amazing. i'm beautiful and so, so much better than everyone else. i'm smart and witty and creative and talented and everyone loves me so much. i am the greatest and no-one can bring me down.

[npd-feelings]

How do I know I'm in love?

i think that’s down to you

[npd-feelings]

I've taken a (few) test(s) based off the DSM about NPD, and of anything it describes how I feel on a regular basis. (If I'm not being given attention right now by everyone they're not really my friends, it is rare for anyone to be as "good" (read; smart, talented) as me, and if someone insinuates that they are equal to or better than me they are my enemy) But I'm not old enough to be diagnosed and I'm afraid that it's just ~teen angst~ making me feel this way and I'm trivializing the PD. Help??

i think this should be taken into the hands of a professional. if you open up about it then even if they won’t diagnose you, they will still help. if you’re 100% honest about this to the therapist, they can help, even if you don’t get a formal diagnosis. if it is genuinely impairing for you, then it is a real issue, ~teen angst~ or not.

[npd-feelings]

I was diagnosed with npd a while ago, and am a mother to four children, father left long ago for some younger tail. I'm starting to feel like I'm losing control of my children - now in teens - especially the oldest whose girlfriend is prettier than me and better than me at many things, (athletic and artistic, its killing me, my son compliments her in front of me and it sucks,) and I think most of my narcrage is coming from the 20-something my SO left me for. Is this rational? NPD talking? How...

... cont, how do I deal with these feelings without hurting their personal growth? I let things get out of hand during the divorce and physically hurt my ex, don't want that again, my rep will be ruined. I can feel "it" building up again towards my son. It feels like he's leaving me. Feels like a personal attack, like she's encroaching/trespassing on my property. He's 21 now, they weren't allowed to date until 21 but now I'm not ready. I don't want to be one of those "nmoms", please help :/

i would recommend finding a good narc supply or a good outlet for anger, like a stress ball or a punching bag. try looking at it a different way, like ‘my own son is so good that [x]’

also remember that the 20-something your SO is with is probably not even a good person, nowhere near as good as you. that’s not your problem that your SO lost their good taste.

[npd-feelings]

the idea of people being obsessed with me

when someone actually becomes obsessed with me